Jiraiblr - Tumblr Posts
Can cis ppl just shut up abt my body. Yea I know I’m no longer attractive as a guy I WASNT AS A GIRL. I don’t need every comment on my body to be how I’ve ruined it. I have sh addiction trust me Ik I’ve ruined any chance of ever being attractive I know
is it a relapse if i literally cu+ the day before?
I’m actually going insane like this is the rough patch that k!lls me Istg I feel like I’m back in my mentally ill groove though so yay cutt!ng!
I keep fantasizing about holding a knife and murder!ng a clone of myself because I hate myself so much I wish I could k!ll that bitch
feeling bored feel free to ask me questions I’ll answer anything
I’m sleeping all the time again to avoid being alive
3 days in a row of sh I need to end it
I hate feeling like I did something wrong
hate when people like me romantically because I don’t know how to say no and I end up just sabotaging the relationship
OMG LITERALLY! like I just don’t want to hurt them but I make it x12 worseeee
hate when people like me romantically because I don’t know how to say no and I end up just sabotaging the relationship
good I feel so guilty for dinner. I had seconds and everything. I shouldn’t have done that I need to feel clean again
me when I’m an actual social recluse
love having my therapists argue over my diagnosis it makes me feel like a piece of unwell meat
same experience really. This interaction meant a lot to me though because I thought I was just a horrible person and freak at like 9. Anyway I think childhood exposure to like fetishes and the like in content needs to be talked about more
Tw: hypersexuality, r@pe, uhhh being a child and learning 2 fast idfk
Ok so im just yapping but i was taught about s3x at a very young age and how babies were made and all that shit but i think i was prob 2 young like i know my parents were really young and didnt want me 2 be in an unsafe situation and stuff but it lead be 2 having s3xual fantasies (of sorts) at a really young age (ex. Being 7 and imagining being lowkey r@ped (i didn't know the word at the time) cuz my mom was watching tv w a r@pe scene in it and that made me wanna idk imagine it(just 1 example there r more)) but now idk i just ugh idk now i feel like thats impacted how i go through life. Anyways it doesn't matter cuz i mean like its been forever since then ig and idk whatever
mediocrity hurts because it’s followed me my entire life. Even my abuse is mediocre. I can’t destroy myself enough for it to ever matter anyway