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Too fucking late
Did I cry like a bitch? Yes
Am I gonna watch it again? Also yes
do NOT watch the mitchells vs the machines if you are queer/ neurodivergent and have father issues because you WILL cry like a little baby
ok guys, not to yap again, but i really want to talk about strangers by ethel cain, and more specifically the line "If I'm turning in your stomach, am I making you feel sick?". I think this line can be two sides of the same coin; one side is resentful and angry, the other self sacrificial and insecure. Ethel was put through horrible trauma by her father, I think she sees the parallel between what both of these men did to her. It's the betrayal and how they both thought they could use her and her body how ever they want, both using their power over her(the dad's authority and her idolization of him, Isaiah using drugs). When she says "If I'm turning in your stomach," she's means to turn in your grave, her body is now one with Isaiah's and that is her grave. She is unhappy with how she was used, especially when she believed she loved him (she was manipulated and drugged, even in death she still struggles with understanding what really happened). But that line also refers to the dread and anxiety you feel when you're guilty, a pit in your stomach, something doesn't sit right. When she asks "Am I making you feel sick?" She is hoping and begging over and over to know if he is guilty, if he is ashamed of what he has done. To know if, maybe, her father and all the other men who have wronged her also get sick with themselves over the guilt. This brings me to the next way this could be interpreted, which is Ethel's need to be good and righteous, so selflessly, for the people she 'loves'. In this way of thinking, she couldn't bear making somebody feel bad because of her--> never being able to blame and completely resent those who hurt her. She just wants to know if she is good, in many Christian denominations (i was brought up catholic, so tell me if im wrong) you are always comiting some kind of sin. She also talks a lot about how the sins of her fathers are now placed unto her, is she stained. It's kind of like the idea of the original sin, something your ancestors did that have stained the bloodline. It's also the belief that, when one has no guilt given unto them by God, the act was his will "if it's meant to be then it will be, and i forgive it all as it comes back to me" but maybe she worries that, if it was right, if he has no guilt, then she deserved it. i really suggest watching ep. 5 of midnight mass to get what i mean, more about that kind of belief. She was placed with this feeling of deservedness due to her family tree, but is she really that bad? Even while he is eating her, does she taste good? Does he feel sick? Was it worth her life?
A creepypasta story with supernatural horror themes but also has some psychological horror elements to it as well.
It’s 5.3k words long! Be sure to read the content warnings at the first chapter!!
Back in October last year, I started reading This is an Adjuration by @not-freyja.
By the time I had made it to chapter 5, I had already started typesetting this story as I read because I knew this would be one of those stories that I needed to have on my shelf.
When I finally caught up to the story at chapter 31, I begged the author to let me bind this when it was finished.
Nearly a year later, and what is probably the most important bind of my life is finally finished. Check out these glamour shots, and if you want to hear more about the actual binding process and about how this fic actually changed my life, see below.
So funny story, before I get into the technical side of this bind, but this fic actually changed my life. Not as in I was greatly emotionally moved by the story, though don't get me wrong I absolutely was, but genuinely this fic introduced me to some of the best people I have ever had to privilege of knowing (Hello Class, you know who you are 🩷), and also, it introduced me to Freyja, the incredibly talented author, who, as I type this, is curled up in bed next to me fast asleep after flying half way around the world to go on a two week long date with me.
Moral of the story folks is comment on the fics you like. You might accidentally meet the love of your life on, and I can't believe I'm saying this, AO3.
Anyways, about the bind!
This bind was a challenge from day 1. I had to do the typeset for this 300k word fic 4 times, and had to split it across 2 volumes. This was the longest fic I have ever attempted to bind, and it was so thick I couldn't get it in the paper trimmer.
To make this book as durable as possible, I attempted a few techniques. I secured it with 3 tapes, I made an Oxford hollow, I rounded the spine, I made a slipcase and I used 2.3mm boards where normally I use 1.8mm.
The slipcase is covered with embossed faux leather, buckram and plain ribbon, and lined with gold satin fabric. I've never made a slipcase before so this was an experience.
The books are covered with an emerald green silk finish bookcloth which really gave the books the luxury they deserved. I foiled custom end papers as well as every chapter title page using heat reactive transfer foil on toner ink (never again I am never doing that again omg it took days). Huge thank you to @la-sera for letting me use her artwork which helped inspire this fic!
The grey flashback chapters I had to use HTV for the border decoration and I'm very happy with how that turned out because it was so easy and straight forward, unfortunately it just wasn't viable for the whole book.
It feels weird to finally have these books done. They have my blood, sweat, tears and my heart poured into them, and I've been working on them for so long that it's odd to actually have them finished. I'm so proud of this bind, and feel like I've grown so much as a fanbinder by making these.
Anyways, if anyone has any questions about the process, please don't hesitate to ask!
(and if you are an Linked Universe fan and haven't read Adjuration yet, this is your sign!)