Irl Jirai - Tumblr Posts
i wish he would cut me. i want him to hold my wrist tenderly and slide the blade through my veins as he kisses my forehead and praises me for taking it so well. maybe he'd even wash and bandage them afterward and give me aftercare. i want to experience that intimacy of inflicting and receiving pain together. i want i want i want
remembering when my then adult boyfriend told 16 year old me that my self harm was hot. no wonder i'm fucked
i feel so fucking filthy and disgusting and my home is a mess and i am fucking putrid but i don't have the energy or motivation to do ANYTHING about it so I guess I'll just!!!!! Fucking!!! Be filthy!!!!
This and also reblogging random shit to my vent blog lmao
it feels like everyone has their own friend groups and im just a dog that trails behind