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suicide

i hope you're not dead, i hope when you sent that message it wasn't supposed to be your last. i hope you answer. i wish i could be the one to love you but i know you want someone else but could they love you like i could and you said you missed me but now i miss you and you won't reply and i know you wouldn't be dead, you shouldn't be you were online four minutes ago, fourteen now, fourteen hours ago when you said you hated when people texted you, i know that's not true, not when it's him. and i wish that i could be him. twelve hours ago you said you missed everyone, i like to think you were thinking of me, you weren't. i wish you talked to me, i wish you were here, i wish we were laughing and having fun right now, i wish so many things that will never come true but i still wish because i hope one day they do. i hope you recover from what you never talk about, i hope when i go to school tomorrow it's just a bad dream and you're there. i hope you didn't kill yourself, i hope you don't kill yourself, i hope you know there's someone out there who you don't think knows you but wishes they could tell you how they know you and how they wish for you, to get better, to understand yourself, like i do.