I Legit Have No Irl Or Online Friends - Tumblr Posts

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So sometimes I feel so bad that I just wanna write a story about it.

In this case, it's about something that happened recently that I kind of want to add to normalities (some story I wrote).

You see, I'm friendless and have never had a true friend who just cares about me. I don't know if it's me or the world, but either way I'm in the group of people who always feels left out.

So, you have no idea how happy I was when 3 years ago I made a friend who had similar interests, hobbies, and was willing to hear me and my boring ass out.

However, that seemingly ended about a month ago now. Here I am really thinking it's my fault we fell out of our friendship, but I have to keep telling myself that it's not me.

Outside of our shared interests, we weren't on the same wavelength. I'm an introvert who needs to be alone every once and a while and he was more amibverted who liked being around people and talking for hours out of the day.

Even though we were both into video games, I happened to love the LoZ. He didn't. He loved Mario and I'm not the biggest Mario player.

Then there was the issue of my biggest hobby. Writing.

Sigh

You know, sometimes I hate writing because everyone is very intimidated by it. Either because they see it as a "difficult" hobby to be into or they simply don't want to care about a story you got at 3 in the morning.

In this case, I could tell I was pushing my hobby onto him and at some point I disliked talking to him because it always felt like I had to suppress my hobby to not annoy him.

I actually really do hate that I tend to people please. I never say what's on my mind and I instead proactively act different to be sure there's no discourse.

Again, I can see some of my issues and it's impossible to change myself. But it really hurts when you can never find anyone even close to the way you think act or feel.

Years and years have gone by and all of my friends have left me because I was too boring, I stopped being useful to them, or I simply couldn't be a friend to someone who doesn't care.

I'm just venting because I'm always in my feels at night.