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Updated: November 30, 2021

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Freesia (A Snapdragon drabble) 

Author D.

Pairing Jungkook / Reader (female)

Genre Med AU | Romance | Angst

Warnings Mentions of cheating

Word count 3k

Summary The feeling was that of déjà-vu. The scene before her eyes felt way too familiar to her heart. And the ache – the ache was just the same.

Snapdragon (main) | Daffodil (sequel)

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             The pub was as packed as always, people’s voices echoing throughout the big room and a soft music playing in the background. Y/N felt a little irritable that evening and didn’t really feel like socializing, but since her friends insisted so much she convinced herself to go. That morning’s shift was especially hard on Y/N. For unknown reasons Dr. Park, her assigned resident, was in a very bad mood and, of course, took it all out on her – more than he already did. Moreover, as if being insulted every other minute wasn’t enough, Y/N lost one of her patients. She couldn’t have done anything really, the old man was terminally ill, but she had grown quite fond of him.

              The group was sitting around a long table in the corner of the pub. The guys were chatting and laughing about something, but Y/N wasn’t really paying attention. Her eyes were fixed at the bar counter where her boyfriend of two months Jungkook was waiting to get his order through. She wasn’t looking at his wide shoulders or the strong profile of his face. There was something else that was bothering Y/N and it was the presence of a woman next to him. She was clearly eyeing him out, from head to toe. From her perspective she seemed like a beautiful woman, her figure was for sure. Not even the winter apparel could hide her slim body and the ample curve of her breasts. In his defence, Jungkook wasn’t even looking in her direction, but Y/N felt a pang of jealousy nonetheless. She guessed it was one of the cons of having such an attractive boyfriend.

              As he walked back to their table, making the whole pub his personal runaway, Jungkook smiled sweetly at her and she smiled back. Since they started dating again, the man had been nothing but perfect to her, really. Just like in those couple of months they dated back in college, Jungkook proved himself to be very attentive, funny and romantic – and just like back then he – apparently – gave Y/N no reason not to trust him. But tonight – she was not sure if it was because everything went wrong that day – Y/N felt something was off.

              Yet the rest of the night went by smoothly. The guys were being their loud selves as always, reminiscing about past misadventures and laughing about the present. Until, at 2 a.m., they finally decided to call it a night.

              “I’ll go to the toilette first.” Y/N told Jungkook. He nodded, taking his car keys out of his pocket.

              The two of them had started unofficially living together in Y/N’s apartment over the last couple of weeks. It came naturally since they spent most of their time together anyways. It was strange for Y/N at first, sharing her space with another person again after Hoseok, but Jungkook made it easy as he took it slowly and carefully.

              The line to the toilette was long, longer than Y/N expected, half a dozen girls waiting ahead of her. She would have waited as well if it wasn’t for the fact that she was so tired. All she wanted to do was go home and cuddle with her boyfriend under the blankets. She turned around, deciding to catch up with the others, but stopped abruptly on her tracks at the sight in front of her.

              At the end of the dimly lit corridor was a scene that felt way too familiar. Jungkook was leaning on the wall, his hands inside the pocket of his jeans, his eyes on a girl standing in front of him. Y/N recognized her immediately, she was the same one that was staring at him at the counter and was now playing flirtingly with a strand of her wavy hair. The parallel was immediate. The feeling was that of déjà-vu. The scene before her eyes felt way too familiar to her heart. And the ache – the ache was just the same. Y/N felt as if she had been taken back to that day in college, at the last football game of the season, watching as Sarah and Jungkook shared a kiss.

              Her breath hitched and her heart stopped, just like that day. Maybe it was precipitous but Y/N immediately felt pessimistic. She bit her lip, trying to calm herself. She tried pushing the unpleasant feeling aside and forced herself to wait before assuming the worst. She tried to analyse the situation.

              Jungkook wasn’t speaking and was wearing – she was happy to see – a disinterested expression, eyes unfocused on the person in front of him. The latter was the one doing all the talking, standing way too close to him for Y/N’s liking. The fact that Jungkook seemed almost annoyed made her feel slightly better, her feelings going from anxious to jealousy in a heartbeat. She didn’t like seeing another girl talking to him.

              Y/N took a deep breath, her confidence back up, and decisively walked towards the couple. As Jungkook saw her approaching, a smile crept to his face. He broke away from the wall, startling the girl in front of him, and met Y/N halfway.

              “That was quick.” He commented, holding out his hand for her to take.

              “The line is too long.” She answered, intertwining their fingers, her eyes fixed on the other girl who, understanding the situation, cleverly walked away in a hurry. “Let’s go home.”

              The drive to the apartment went quietly. Even if she saw with her own eyes that nothing had happened, Y/N couldn’t help but let her thoughts wonder. Her emotions were going up and down like a rollercoaster, going from jealousy to anger to dismissiveness.

              What if she didn’t walk on them the moment she did? What if she was a few minutes late? What if what she saw wasn’t Jungkook being disinterested but him being cautious? What if the two of them knew each other already?

              A huge part of her knew she was being foolish, but Y/N couldn’t help but feel anxious nonetheless. She knew deep down what was the reason behind what she was feeling, even if she didn’t want to admit it. She couldn’t believe that something that happened so long ago was affecting her now. She couldn’t believe that the first thought she had when seeing Jungkook with another woman was his younger self kissing Sarah near the locker rooms.

              Jungkook, on the other hand, who was now closing the apartment door behind him, had no idea of how deep her girlfriend’s worries were and almost felt amused and pleased by it. From his point of view, his girlfriend being jealous was proof of how much she cared for him.

              He watched as Y/N distractedly took of her coat and then head towards the bathroom without a word. He sighed, trying to suppress a smile.

              He took of his shoes and walked towards their shared bedroom, preparing himself for the talk that was about to come, because there was no way she was letting this slide. He knew her too well. He sat down on the edge of the bed as he heard the water flush. Y/N entered the room a minute later, her eyes down and clearly pensive.

              “Y/N?” he called as she started undressing, her back at him. He decided it was best if he took the lead because he knew how proud she was.

              “Mh?”

              “Can you look at me, please?” Jungkook said softly. The woman didn’t answer nor moved, putting on her pajamas. “Why are you angry at me?”

              “I’m not angry at you.” She replied flatly.

              “Yes, you are.” Jungkook smiled. He never saw this side of her and was looking forward to it, his ego already inflating.

              “I’m not.” She said, still keeping her back at him, combing her hair just to keep herself occupied, an excuse to avoid him.

              Y/N - completely unaware of Jungkook’s thoughts - knew that she was being irrational. Just a couple hours ago she was thinking of how perfect he was for her and here she was now, being angry at him for something he didn’t do but could have done.

              “I know you.”

              “Not well enough, apparently.” She answered more bitter than she meant to.

              Jungkook sighed. “Do you want me to tell you why I think you’re angry?” Y/N shrugged stubbornly. “I think you’re angry because you saw that girl talking to me back at the pub.” He continued unable to hide the smirk in his voice. “And you are being all jealous about it.”

              Y/N kept quiet. She tried to decipher his mood since it didn’t match her own. As she turned around to face him, she surprisingly found him smiling gleefully at her. She felt angry all over again.

              “You think its funny?” she barked seriously.

              It caught Jungkook off guard, he didn’t expect such harshness.

              “You think it’s funny?” she repeated. “I caught you with another woman and you laugh?”

              “Y/N.” Jungkook called her name warningly, straightening his back, finally catching on how serious the situation was. “You were there. You saw what happened.”

              “I didn’t see anything.”

              “Exactly.” He murmured standing up and putting his hands on her shoulders. “Because nothing happened.”

              She shrugged him off instinctively, secretly regretting it as soon as she saw the hurt in his face. “Who was she?” she questioned, giving voice to all her worries.

              “I have no idea.” He admitted sincerely.

              Y/N looked down on the floor, her hands closed in fists. “I saw you talking to her at the counter earlier.”

              Jungkook frowned. “What are you talking about?”

              Somehow, his defensive tone irritated her even more. “Earlier.” She repeated. “While you were ordering your drink, she was next to you.”

              “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” He replied.

              Y/N huffed, her heart beating faster for some reason. “I saw you.” She insisted before she could think twice about it. “First at the counter an then in the corridor. Are you sure you don’t know her?”

              “Are you being serious right now?” Jungkook sighed, running his hands through his hair with frustration. “I can’t believe this.”

              Y/N started feeling defensive. “I am serious.”

              “She was some random girl at the pub, Y/N. Are we really doing this?” he asked looking up at her with some undefined emotion.

              She looked away, unable to handle his stare. She knew that this conversation was completely useless and groundless but she was unable to stop herself, it was like she wanted to have this fight. “We are.” She replied. “Because I don’t b–“ she stopped herself abruptly, she knew that what she was about to say was harsh and untrue. But it was too late, Jungkook had caught on it.

              “You don’t believe me?” he completed, clearly offended.

              A heavy silence fell among them. As the seconds passed, the opportunity to correct herself vanished, giving the statement the importance it didn’t have.

              Jungkook looked at her face, trying to meet her eyes with no avail. She wasn’t throwing a tantrum, it was clear to him now. She was deadly serious, she was sincerely hurt. And now he was too. How could she really believe that he would cheat on her? He never gave her the reason to –.

               But I did, he came to a sudden realization. A heavy breath left his lips.

               He too now remembered all those years ago, when everything went downhill for a mistake he had made. He taught that it was in the past, he taught that they cleared that misunderstanding. Apparently, there were still some unsaid things between them.

              All the anger washed away from his body, replaced by nothing but hurt and sadness. Discovering that the woman he loved had no trust in him was terrible enough, but knowing that he gave her the reason for it was heart breaking.

              He took a step away from her, suddenly feeling unable to be near her, guilt invading his whole body, making him ache all over.

              As she saw him walking away, Y/N felt instant panic. She didn’t mean for all of it to degenerate. Logically speaking, she knew that he had done nothing wrong that night. “Where are you going?”

              Jungkook didn’t answer, walking out of the room with heavy steps. Y/N followed. “Jungkook?”

              “What?” he sighed.

              “Where are you going?” she repeated.

              “To get some water, Y/N.”

              She watched as he took a glass from the counter and fill it with fresh water, she watched as he stared to its surface without drinking it, hundreds of emotions in his eyes. She wanted to say she was sorry, that she didn’t mean it, but no words came out of her mouth.

              “I really had no idea who she was.” He mumbled after a while. “She came to me. Yes, her intentions were clear, but I swear I minded my own business.”

              Y/N nodded slowly. “I believe you.”

              Jungkook smiled sadly at her. “Do you?”

              She gulped. He seemed to be looking straight through her. “I do.”

              “I can’t stop people from talking to me.”

              “I know.” She said walking slowly towards him, her anger subsiding for the nth time that evening.

              He put the full glass down and took both of her hands in his. “I have no interest in any of them.”

              Y/N nodded once again, looking down at his thumbs drawing sweet circles on her skin. “I know.”

              “I love you.” Jungkook confessed, trying to convey every emotion he was feeling. “I’m in love with you.”

              Y/N felt her eyes swell with tears as she looked up at him. He looked incredibly sad, his eyes red as well. “I know.” She repeated. “I’m sorry.”

              He shook his head. “I’m the one who is sorry. It’s my fault.”

              “It isn’t.” Y/N reassured him. “You’ve done nothing wrong.”

              “I did. Maybe not tonight, but I did.” Jungkook whispered. “And that’s the reason why you don’t trust me.”

              Y/N squeezed his hands guiltily. “I do trust you. I was being stupid. I know that you did nothing wrong.”

              “Yet you feel betrayed nonetheless.”

              “I-“

              Jungkook shook his head, interrupting her. “It’s okay. I understand.” He said, raising a hand to caress her cheek. “I think – I think that maybe we haven’t really talked about what happened four years ago. I mean really talk about it. We assumed that since it was so long ago it wouldn’t have consequences on our relationship, but clearly we were wrong.”

              “I thought I was over it.” She admitted, relieved that he understood where she was coming from, even before she found the courage to admit it out loud. “I really thought I was.”

              “Me too.”

              “It made me jealous. Seeing you with another girl.” She clarified. “Even if I saw and I knew that nothing happened. It was completely irrational.” She acknowledged. “It brought me back to that day.”

              Jungkook took a deep breath, well aware of what she was talking about. He too was thinking about it, about the day she poured all of her hate towards him and he did nothing but cry in the arms of his friends. “I think I’ve never really apologized to you for what I did. I really am sorry, Y/N, for breaking your trust. For breaking what was meant to be something beautiful.”

              “I’m sorry too.” She smiled through the tears. “For not giving you a chance to explain and for running away.” She thought back at how she closed the door to all of their friends, how she ignored all of their messages or how she completely changed her habits just to avoid him.

              “I should have come to you. I could have but I didn’t. Despite the whole situation with Sarah I should have fought for you.” He rest his forehead against hers. “If only I did, what you felt today would have had a completely different weight.”

              “Just a silly girlfriend being jealous of her handsome boyfriend.” She joked, tears streaming down her cheeks.

              Jungkook nodded grimly. “Instead of a girl fearing of being cheated on once again.”

              “Jungkook.” She cried.

              “It’s what happened.” He reassured her. “There’s no use it denying it.”

              Y/N knew he was right. She wouldn’t have felt the way she did if there wasn’t a precedent.

              “We were young.” She mumbled.

              Jungkook shook his head. “I was stupid and we were proud.” He corrected her.

              “And we aren’t anymore?” she teased.

              “Of course we are.” He smirked drying her tears with his thumb. “The proudest couple in the world. But I don’t want our pride to create misunderstandings between us.” He continued, now seriously. “Let’s promise each other to always talk, to never let anything linger and to always clear things up.”

              “That seems reasonable.” She smiled.

              Jungkook smiled back. “Are we okay?”

              Y/N circled his torso in a hug and nodded. “We are. I’m sorry for overreacting.”

              “I’ll make it up to you.” He promised kissing the crown of her head. “Until one day we’ll completely forget about it.”

              The next morning Y/N found a beautiful bouquet of white flowers laying beside her on the bed. She had slept late, too tired from all that happened the day before. Jungkook, on the other hand, had the morning shift and left the apartment early.

              Y/N sat up on the bed, her hair all dishevelled and brought the flowers to her nose. Their smell reminded her of sweet summer fruits and something delicate.

              She picked up the folded paper attached to it and opened it. He clearly took time to write it and Y/N could imagine him hunched over, thinking about his words. As she read the note, she started tearing up once again.

              “These flowers are called freesias. They symbolize ‘trust’, something that I realized is missing in our relationship. I won’t make the same mistake again. I will not let it ruin what we are trying to build. So I promise to you, Y/N, that from this day forward I’ll work hard to earn your trust again. I promise to you, that you will never feel that way ever again. I committed a terrible mistake years ago and if I have to spend the rest of my days correcting it, I will. Even back then I knew how special you were and I sincerely regretted letting you go when I did. Finding you again, falling in love with you again so easily … it might sound clichéd, but I feel it was destiny. So please, trust me when I say that I love you. I love you, Y/N. More than anything in this world. Jungkook.”

Hi! Im a bit lost about Snapdragon and the two drabbles after. So what did jk actual do to the oc? We obviously know cheating,but was it just that kiss that Sarah did or did he sleep with her while in a relationship with the oc? Because I’m pretty sure it says something like that, but with the drabbles afterwords it kind of implies that the cheating jk did was the kiss that Sarah initiated and not the sleeping with her, like that was before him and oc were dating. In one of the drabbles (I forgot which one 😭) but it says something along the the lines of the oc thinking that jk actually cheated on her but it was a misunderstanding and that has to be about the kiss, but then in the same drabble I believe, jk says something like how he doesn’t even remember what happened, so I’m thinking that’s about the after party he got drunk at and slept with Sarah that was mentioned in the first fic. And in the Fressia drabble, all that is mentioned is the kiss when bringing up the cheating.

the oc just talks about it being a misunderstanding and that he really didn’t cheat but at the same brings up that he cheated but it’s only about the kiss. While in the the fic it implies that they slept together when he and the oc were dating, so it’s not a misunderstanding, he’s a cheater. And I’m pretty sure we haven’t seen jk talk about his side of the story yet, only Sarah’s and that says that they slept together but he told her he was breaking things off but then said they slept together again (if I’m remembering correctly) and that she was the one who kissed him Etc. I’m just really confused on what actually happened 😭

Hi!! So sorry I’m super late to this!

So, chronologically speaking JK and Sarah were sex buddies before he met Y/N. As he started developing feelings for Y/N he started seeing Sarah less and less and the last time they were together was on New Year’s Eve (when JK and Y/N had their first kiss).

Fast forward weeks, JK and Y/N are officially a couple, but ... after party happens, alcohol and muscle memory I guess ... JK has drunk sex with Sarah.

 From my point of view - or JK’s subconscious’ point of view - since it was early on in their relationship, JK wasn’t in love with Y/N yet. He really really really liked her and care for her. He knew he fucked up nonetheless and was afraid of losing what he thought could have been the love of his life (?). He was so scared of the consequences that he didn’t talk about it to his bestest of friends. So - cowardly, or better yet superficially - he decided to completely eliminate the memory from his head. And at some point I think he really did because after the initial guilt-phase everything got back to normal. 

From Y/N’s perspective, the kiss is the trigger. It’s what she saw with her own eyes, she knows he had sex with another girl but it didn’t hurt as much as the kiss because she was in love with him when it happened. Y/N had thought about it over the years: if JK confessed as soon as the after party thing she would have left him, yes, but because he would have hurt her pride more than her heart. And probably she would have given him a second chance too if given the time to get over it. 

I’m not sure I’m making any sense. 

Again, chronologically speaking:

1. JK and Sarah are sex buddies.

2. JK and Y/N meet and start developing feelings for each other.

3. JK starts seeing Sarah less and less, New Years’ Eve is the last time he sees her.

4. At midnight JK and Y/N kiss for the first time, they become a couple. Not in love yet!

5. JK gets drunk at the after party and has sex with Sarah.

6. Okay, now they are in love.

7. Sarah is pregnant, thinks JK is the father, makes a move and kisses him. Y/N sees.

8. They break up. Y/N has kissing trauma (haha)

Aaand again, I’m not sure all of this answer your questions. I tried!!

I really thank you so much because I didn’t know I needed this! It made me realize that there are a lot of things I need to clear up! So you just inspired me! 

More of Snapdragon JK and Y/N to come!!