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To long. I lay down. My ears have a feeling. Like being boxed. Maybe 3 times. Maybe a minute in between. Before my heart feels startled. Then, maybe 5 min later, a limb twitch. Months ago before that would have a sensation like my head filled up and expelled something.
And now, after eating these cannibis gummies that are supposed to be trollie worms, every now and then make a chomping movement.
Sometimes all 3 at once.
Since maybe July. T has been going on. The chomp and worm thing was from a few weeks ago.
This goes on every night multiple times a night.I thought I would try not thinking .clearing my mind, and I injured myself. Or maybe it was going from .25 to .50 resperidone. Or maybe it was space candy damage. I do not know.
I am so tired. I wonder if I have paradoxal insomnia. I’m doing a medicine reboot, so after 20 years. Am f the lamotrigine. Thinking that is why I am akways jarred
Seeing all the AI is n Facebook and the whole Israel Hamas Palestine issue and thinking. Need to ruin everyone’s day with faces do not help an anxiety. A frustrating, twitchy, thing
I’m laying there with my arm by my head and I scrape the pillowcase with my nail. The sound sends me jumping with a big flinch. Like my whole body jumps.