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I can’t be your peace if I am not at peace with myself.

Hey, I just wanted to extend my appreciation for the positivity you put out into the world. Tumblr can be a really sad place, thank you for doing your part to make it somewhere safe, warm, and welcoming. Your mental health posts are really well written, and a spot of sunshine in a cloudy place.

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This is. So. 🥹

Really???? It helps? Anh.. I'm so happy to find I'm useful in what I translate of my own experiences to help anyone who wishes to hear it.

It's helped me in my thoughts and feelings for so long in many instances of the subjects I cover, I've thought about the words inside and out almost like a mantra to myself for a long time in those energies and I think my best writing comes out in what I hold passion, and seeing good humans make it is RIGHT up there in respects to something I feel pretty comfortable teaching about with a background of difficult and niche life experiences, and I needed to hear much of it myself but didn't get it until it was a lesson my own.

I just want to see humanity make it. Empathetic humans, goofy humans, dorky humans, tall humans, short humans, big humans, little humans, happy looking humans, sad looking humans, humans with sorrow, humans with anger, humans with aches and yearning and pain,.

We as a whole deserve better. Especially for ourselves in many cases. If I can make someone's day feel a bit less punishing because they deserved to hear how smart they are, how seen they are, included, welcome,. They should and do deserve to hear that no matter what. Humans matter because we exist. Because we make the active choice to make it to today. Tomorrow and so on. And I'm proud as shit of everyone who's here today with me. For being here. Period.

Thank you.. I don't have the words to know how to better address this, having been already so taken aback by a warm wish for my day and a beautiful human award which were also in their respects such sweet things to hold tonight.

Thank you.

_______________Grief🕯_______________

We know it comes in stages. Waves. Levels of understood chaos and misunderstood order. The reason is that feelings aren't there to be rational. Least of all when we're feeling hurt or sad or scared. Rationality is a practice and rarely one that goes hand in hand with grief, where we can tell ourselves it's this and not that..that we're over it until that scent comes walking by on a stranger in passing and lights the walls up inside us again. Pets, people,. Ourselves. We can grieve all three, and in all three, we see the same familiar stages.

Denial, anger, depression, and acceptance. Some add the step of bargaining after anger before depression. I don't think we would bargain about our great woes if we weren't depressed, so I feel that's a bit redundant.

We don't want them to be gone, to have it as it is, to feel the day in the loss of what we grieve. We're mad they left us, that the situation is what it is no matter What we have to say about any of it now, mad it's not our choice to fix it. Mad some things can't be despite all we gave. It also made them fragile. Depression in helplessness. Hopelessness.. the feeling of being absolutely stuck in loss or such a change that grief has come with the changes weight, which too is common. After a while, "Acceptance" sets in. I don't believe it's really a true acceptance of the loss.. more finding a way to accept the reality after building the idea it could never have happened that way in our hearts. Some wounds never heal, no matter how we rationalize it.

The takeaway from these things is that it's hard to fully let go of something. Even grief when we didn't make the choice to hold it in the first place or for as long as we have. It grows familiar like moss growing on a log in a way and we come to realize letting go of the grief is often the last of what we had to hold of what inset the feelings to begin with, making it especially hard to pull ourselves from bed. To have the water. To do the self health. The effort to grow and develop. To get back into the active choices and routines of wellness for us. To peel away the negative and allow sunshine to hit our bare bark again.

As with so many posts before this, we come to the stages of this one to remind you it's worth it. To battle the grief and loss. To battle those heavy weights, keeping your soul down in bed, days on end. It's okay to take the time you need in loss, even of yourself. It's a scary place to be, relearning who you are. You don't realize when you let someone or something go, how much of you may be threadlocked onto that concept and unravel as it puts space between. It will take strength you have and don't believe anymore. It will take courage to believe tomorrow has a better and better chance of being a good day again eventually. It will take believing in you to find the fight, but as before, for what it's worth, I believe in you. Human to human and for no other reason than wanting to and believing it possible for you to win again in your life. For things to be good. For you to be okay. You deserve to have you. All of you, before and above all else, no matter what. That takes time and finding energy in willpower to eat and hydrate and find peace in fresh air again. To make the moves you need to for your soul survival. You will always have this space and me as long as I'm here cheering you on and making posts like these to remind you of these truths in your fight to heart you aren't afraid to hold again. A sense of self.

You matter. Today and tomorrow and yesterday and next week. You matter, and you are worth seeing the days you haven't yet and healing the ones that hurt to get where you are to have better. You are worth better inside yourself. Worth more than the tear stained stuffies and soggy hoodie sleeves. Worth more than the gray cloud constantly reminding you how empty and devoid of light it all is.. I assure it's only that way in a 3x3 foot space, pouring down while it's pouring down. The rest of the world is awaiting your ready in warmth, color, and abundant acceptance in so many avenues you've not yet even seen.

Grief can, in some measures, ache without defeat, but we are still the ones to carry it, however seemingly endless. We are the ones in control of what we hold. We need to have the cornerstones of wellness to maintain, hold, and carry on of it, but we can and we should! There is so much more to our world than the breakups, the loss of someone/s dear. The changes we have to face in our own lives. Fluids, Sustenance, Fresh Air, time, patience, and the consistent effort to do what we need for us, even on a Primal level of the basics. Especially water and air. The rest will follow if you feed yourself as a plant. As organic as you are. Water, air. Soil. Sun. Eventually a little nutrient in some foods,. Maybe snacks at first.

I know you're tired,. Tired of being hurt. Tired of being mad. Tired of being unsure or worried or even beyond all that, just depressed it's the way it is no matter why it is. Dont forget sleep. Ypur body wants to sleep, let it. You'll be amazed how little by little a nap can at least allow you the desire after enough to make you question the coldness of the floor. The brightness of outside. It'll take a bit for anyone to feel ready coming out into the world again after it all just came down around them for so long prior..

Remember to be soft with yourself. The toothpaste will piss you off. The labels in markets. The cars license frame in front of you.. it's not against you. It's grief. It's the reminders. The aches of remembering in a time you're plenty well remembering.. breathe. Take a few minutes., step aside of it all a bit, and just breathe. No action is worth a spontaneous emotionally charged reaction but love.

You will grow again. It's hard to believe above all else that feeling in you isn't dying. Just a very terrible ache of growth you didn't ask for. You didn't consent to, and you have to heal from. You will smile and laugh and play again. You will love again. You will feel like you as you should. You will be whole for you if you do the work on you and for you. I promise it's true. You are worth having as much of you as life allows you to maintain, and as much as you can discover to build on and help maintain it all.

The sun will rise and set and rise again.

You are making an active choice to be here and see that. To feel that. To be a part of that. Don't forget you're here for you too. That people love you. That I love you just for trying. Just for being human and wanting to be whole in that. Just for wanting you to be okay with you. That is a Huge undertaking. A life project for some. Many of us hold this and think little of the development, but the energy, time, and effort that goes into grief is large, as are the emotions felt within it. To overcome that time and time and time again is brave. It is courageous. We don't realize it in the time, but it's a battle to keep or get back to ourselves in that distress. That takes real work on ourselves to do that and with any level of success, but after enough time, it does begin to develop again. To feel tangible. Real. You begin to realize you're eating more. Talking more.. missing some of your favored activities enough to branch back out or even consider new activities you might like if you're under self rediscovery.

It's so hard to keep ourselves. Who we are as much as whst we are here. It can come and go and come back. It can hurt. It can heal. It can grow and decline. But it can also always hold possibility in what it Can do. Do the work to make it something good for you. To be here for you in a way you're happy again. Whole for you again in any sense you're able. For you. Not for anyone else. You matter in your life. To me if you need an example., but you should find matter for yourself more than others. You're the one living in you. Fighting in you. Surviving in you and you will again. I believe it. I believe you will again.

You need to start believing you will again, too, but don't force it. Just try to give it your best. No one, including you, can ask more of you than that.

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We are not, nor should we be, immutable.

All things change,

The seasons as the earth spins round the sun,

The wind as air heats and cools,

The symphony of sounds as day turns to night.

We are no different,

We can and should change,

And yet we rail against it.

We hold this notion that must alway know who we are and thus must never change,

Yet we still know the earth as the seasons change,

We still know the air as the winds change,

We still know the songs of day and night no matter how they change.

To know yourself does not mean you cannot change,

But simply that you must accept change knowing that regardless it is still you.