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I think it’s time I become an alcoholic with just a job. No more career. Too stressful. Have a job, be able to do it kinda drunk. And drink away the night.
Make me a drunk alcoholic weed addled 750 lb cum dump
Drunk in a Monday. I need to be drunk more.
Sitting here drinking, getting tipsy and I’m getting hard. I’m getting hard purely on my own drunkenness.
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Well. It’s me. And it’s time to come clean. Or get clean.
I write this at 3am (still drunk) sitting in a hotel because I was too drunk to drive so I fell asleep in my car for 6 hours. At the mall.
So I guess let’s sit here and face some hard truths.
I thought I was better than everyone else. I thought if I fixed everything underneath, then alcohol wouldn’t be a problem. I thought then, I could control it. I thought I could find the easy way through and be this person that’s like “wow I really struggled and rags to riches and all that”. I thought if I could have one or two instances where I drank and was fine - POOF! It’s proof I’m cured!!
Haha god I am so annoying sometimes.
OMG SURPRISE! Alcoholism isn’t a quick fix. You can’t take a bunch of magic mushrooms and fix it. You can’t get on the proper meds for your mental issues and fix it. You can’t upheave literally your entire life to run from the problem and fix it. You can’t tell yourself “this is where I am and I give myself grace” and fix it. You can’t “only drink a little” and “pace yourself” and fix it.
My husband (who I love more than breathing) can tell me that my drinking is hurting him and I can’t (won’t) fix it.
EVEN if my life gets good and I no longer want to “escape” it per se.
I can’t fix it.
Blame my hyper independence but I realize now that I thought I could fix any problem. Ever. I can find an easy solution to keep coasting. Like I legit pride myself on working the system.
But this also stems from my desire to break free of normalcy and the confines of society and being a sheeple and needing to be a “certain” way to achieve “success”. In case it isn’t obvious, I could go on and on about this.
Side bar: if you’re reading this and feeling shitty about where you’re at in life, like you’re not successful enough - let me leave you with this: who decided that success looked like? Who defined it for you? I guarantee it wasn’t you. What if you were to decide the definition of success and being a good person? What would that look like?
So yeah. I am fully going off the deep end. Luckily this go around I haven’t ended up in the hospital or injured myself or someone else - but something needs to give.
I don’t understand why I can’t give up the alcohol? IT’S LITERALLY EVERYWHERE. Ads, TV shows, grocery store displays, billboards.
It’s only once you have a drinking problem that you really notice how ingrained alcohol is in our culture. Or maybe you’re a smart one who realized it ahead of time - god fuck you, I am jealous of you.
I don’t know how to stop. I’m in tears thinking this is going to kill me. I don’t want to stop because I don’t have another or better option.
Ok like I know what’s smart, I know what’s best. Just stop drinking right? Obviously you know what it’s doing to your life and the people around you. You’re smart - stop.
I don’t want to. I want to be a normal person who can drink and get lit from time to time and not have it be a big deal. Not have it turn into a 6 month bender. I need to let this expectation go but I don’t know how because I feel like if I admit it… people look at you differently, they hold you to a different standard, they watch you.
I swear this happens but tell me if I’m actually just paranoid.
ITS NOT THAT GOD DAMB EASY OKAY IM SO SORRY FOR BEING THE HURRICANE RIGHT NOW
So yeah. In my underwear. Drunk. An hour from home. At a hotel. Not sure what to do. Not sure how to explain this one. I found a nearby meeting at 7am, let’s see if I even wake up lol.
Honestly? I give up. I don’t know best. I don’t know anything!!! Now what do I do?
Each day - we keep going. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.
Y’all being called hound and mutt in AC6 made me feel some typa way
Tw: mention of drugs
Hello me beautiful people, U am kide drunk right now and I just really crave.milk.
I need some milk. I also wanna sleep and it's cold.
My boyfriend is also drunk.and he.jsut fell asleep and fell to the ground whole sitting, heheen.
Tw: mention of drugs
Hello me beautiful people, U am kide drunk right now and I just really crave.milk.
I need some milk. I also wanna sleep and it's cold.
My boyfriend is also drunk.and he.jsut fell asleep and fell to the ground whole sitting, heheen.
HELP I FORGOT I MADE THIS
real {do not repost my art Without permission}
My first post with the new acct being the last post from my old one seems fitting. Hope i find you all again 😭
Cant forget to show off my arch 🫣
Rebuilding my following sucks 😔 so im going to uno reverse it and try and make it fun. Tell me your favorite fantasy?
Mine is i want to be on a stage or in front of a group of guys and girls dancing provocatively and stripping only to get them fired up and start to fondle me and get more aggressive. Id be too into the moment to realize where it was going till they all are having their way with me and i have to take it... 🫣🫦
Psa, fat cocks can be just as good if not better than long cocks... Now if we talking a long fat cock tho 🫠😘🫰👅
Beeing addicted with style
