Chronic Pains - Tumblr Posts

I just panic all fucking day long no reason at all, it just PANIC, PANIC!!!!!!! FFFFFFFS

I'm so depressed man

Anyone wanna talk? Ik this is old school but

If anyone wants to talk about anything going on in their life? I'm game. Even shows?

I have Bpd, Fibromyalgia, Ibs & other chronic pains. I know what it's like to be cheated on, I know what it's like to hurt, I know what it's like to lose. I hope to create atleast one friend!!

If you read this please feel free to message me. I need someone nice to talk too.

No mean people. 21+ only please.

I just woke up in pain.. it's 5am and my allergies were like hey man you're up? I can totally fuck your nose now lol 😂

Tomorrow is my Birthday and I couldn't be more depressed. It's like I've given up on having attempting to have good birthdays, they have all been so shitty as of late.

I just want one good year. I'm tired of being sad and miserable cause of chronic pains.

I don't like being alone.

there are definitely many women who find dorkiness attractive. as long as you are confident in your dorkiness and do not change yourself for the other person, you will find women who will actually like your dorkiness

Thank you, but it was just a opinion tho. I m staying true to myself, kinda the problem and I have high standards. I'd say only because people these days are so ridiculous, I can't find a soul that just wants to "BE" Not GO GO GO. Like every girl I have met in 6 years wants a sugar daddy, they don't say it but it's so damn true. Every girl wants a prince charming, a guy that can buy them shit, take care of them. That's not me. I wanna take care of each other and most importantly ourselves. Just lot of people are growing selfish and pretending like they're not and it shows even more today, an i know its on the men's side too, I've seen men use women for sex, but shit I just would like to stop getting complimented then ghosted or treated like trash or a experiment, cause they realize I have no money or shit to give them. I just wanna be there with them, cuddle, talk, love and basic shit. I don't need material items to love someone. Wish it was mutual.

Oh also doesn't help I was divorced cause I have chronic pains and her parents hated me to for that reason, its not like im lazy i have chronic pains and anxiety up the ass. Fun stuff to be loved and left over that. No one just wants to fucking BE.

Sorry for rant I'm really really fucked up by this

So this one time with my ex-wife

Not gonna describe the situation, but we had to rough it and sleep in a tiny room, an I had to sleep on the floor so she could sleep on the bed, my stomach was always hurting on and off cause I didn't have weed, and the anxiety was so bad cause of our situation.

There was this moment she dropped her hand for me to hold on to it, and I grabbed her hand and felt such bliss. So much energy was coming from her body to mine, I felt no pain, I felt so relaxed and happy and loved.

Moral of the story is I wish I could find that again, I wish more then anything I wasn't so lonely and unloved. I have so much love and no one to give it to, no one that will feel my energy the same way. I'm so fucking lost

I understand that she left me cause of my chronic pains, and I wasn't able to take care of her like we dreamed. We was so full of love and it just wasn't enough.

I'm so fucking sad and in pain I'm tired.