Bill Cipher Kin - Tumblr Posts

• about my cipher canon, there are some things i would like to say

• something that i think differentiates me from uhm possibly other ciphers is that i didn't have friends in the nightmare realm. like, those guys that appear in the show, the henchmaniacs, they didn't exist in my canon. and i think that makes things very different for me.

• because i was alone in the nightmare realm, when i met stanford, i clung to him. yes, my main objective was to merge the human realm and the nightmare realm from the start, and that's why i reached out to stanford in the first place, but when we became close, it was kinda inevitable. the weird part of it is.. i probably wasn't supposed to feel attached to him that way because as far as i can remember, demons don't form friendships like humans do, what demons call friends are just uhm.. partners in crime, not people you like to spend time with.

• from then on it was a rollercoaster. stanford discovered my main goal and felt betrayed, and at that time i didn't think nothing of it? i didn't knew that i was atached to him, that i considered him a friend. he tried to destroy everything we worked on and that goes pretty much like the show canon until.. uhm.. the twins appear.

• i started observing the rest of the pines family, maybe in hope that they would do something to bring stanford back? so maybe we could be friends again? deep inside me, yes, that's exactly what i wanted, but i didn't even tried to think about this, because the idea was so weird to me. and i don't remember how me and pinetree dipper even started talking semi regularly, but i'm pretty sure it wasn't like the show canon either.

• there was a point were i was extremely attached to every single one of them, dipper, mabel, stanley and.. stanford, but he was still missing. but still, even if i liked to spend time with them, i'm not sure if they felt the same about me. especially dipper, i'm pretty sure he hated me for some reason? i really don't know why, i can't remember why, but i think he probably knew what i was trying to do. i never really abandoned my plan, i tried to focus on it all the time, so i wouldn't realize what was happening between me and the pines family. i didn't want to admit that they were fun to watch, fun to and hang out with and especially i didn't want to admit that i considered them friends.

• but that didn't last forever, because stanford came back. when that happened, even the part of the family that felt neutral about me started to hate me. stanford told them that i manipulated him, which i kinda did so fair enough, but that pretty much destroyed any kind of positive bond between us. that's when i decided to go 100% on my plan, because now i had stanford there and maybe i could use him to help me again.

• i don't remeber how it happened but when the weirdmageddon started, the first hours i was the happiest i've ever been, i mean that was my dream since i don't even remember when! but.. uhm, after some time.. i didn't felt happy anymore. i was alone again, why did it matter having my own paradise if i was alone to enjoy it?

• my sadness became anger. i was angry that i wasn't happy, why wasn't i happy? so uhm.. i might have kidnapped stanford to help me sort out my feelings. i can say he wasn't very happy about that. i tried to talk to stanford and he kept thinking that i was hiding something from him, that "someone like bill cipher would never need someone to help him with his own feelings". ehrm, somehow i actually got something important from this conversation. and that was the moment i realized, without the pines family i couldn't be happy, because i grew attached to them, because i considered them my friends, even if the feeling wasn't reciprocated.

• using stanford as a captive, the rest of the pines family came to my fortress. i tried to talk to them, to make them understang my feelings, and i said that i wanted them to stay with me because i liked them, but it's very obvious that they didn't believe me. if they had, i wouldn't be here today. well, what happened next is they defeated me, no, i didn't even tried to fight them, i was probably too devastated to be angry with them.

• who would've guessed that the agent of chaos, bill cipher, was so emotional, and so deeply connected with humans?