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As a Shawol, I would like to send my condolences to the family, friends and fandom of Astro. I know what it feels like to lose your bias or a person of the group you stan. May Moonbin rest in peace.

Not my picture.

Aroha, please don’t take this as “failure” or your fault

Moonbin has been so amazingly loved by us but (speaking from experience) you can’t make someone stay for you alone. Society collectively still has a long way to go with mental health. We seen many times an artist being vocal about it and even channeling into their art and still passing. People need more than kind words. Those are always needed but people need therapy and/or medication, less toxic work environments, etc etc.

I can be surrounded by love and still need to be admitted. I can hear a dozen positive things but the one negative will stick the longest. I can have tons of good things happen but one bad thing ruins my day. I need medication. I need therapy. I need a better environment. I NEED more than happy people.

WE need more than happy people.

Please please, right now just…

breathe

Talk to someone. Or be alone.

Laugh at something that makes you happy. Cry to sad music.

Write a random story. Write about your pain.

But please just don’t take this as a failure. We loved him as much as we could and we always will.

Remember him for everything he’s given us, not how he left us

Like or repost if you agree

If You are interested in becoming (best) friends with your biases more then wanting a love relationship with them. (Maybe it will get there.)

When you want to hangout with entire group at theme parks, concerts, museums etc because you enjoy their company, instead only hanging out with them because they are idols.

Love them through good and bad times, because they are only humans after all.

Having tons of inside jokes with them and playfully bickering with them.

Putting them in place if the maknaes or the entire group acts decide to act up. (Because I naturally become a mom to everyone lol, who needs children when you have friends.)

Them looking at you like your crazy due to come back trailers, and of course you naturally say “ why can’t I just support my hot best friends, so hush and let me die alone.” Honestly some members might join the hyping, because have you seen their reaction vids?

Become their personal support system from a phone call away when they are on tour. Same goes when you are with them on tour.

Them trying to hard to make you laugh when you’re upset, but the truth is when you see them you already feel better.

Them actually finding your kpop social media’s and actually won’t see you for a week due to embarrassment. (This is what I would do to be honest and while I’m hiding in my room I’ll still post. 😂)

Playing video games non stop to beat each other’s high scores. Because someone’s bound to get butt hurt for losing.

Them making fun of you try to sing all of their parts when they hear you shower singing. ( I’m guilty of this. 😅)

Try to teach them your native language slangs and trying not to laugh when they just keep saying it to other members because they still don’t know the meaning.

Lol it’s starting to sound like a fanfic ideas but I’m honestly wanting to see if you guys actually like them for them not for their fam and looks. Also as you guys can see I favor boy groups over girl groups because I get along with boys more because honestly I have a male personality in a female body. 😂

Consider this an experiment.

We Lost An Angel

Today, we lost a star. Astro was one of the first k-pop groups I got into and seeing the news today broke my heart. Moonbin was, is and always will be my bias wrecker. I hope the rest of the world can take another lesson from yet another su!cide of a kind soul and stop all the hate towards idols that are just trying to survive it all. May Moonbin rest in peace. He will be missed greatly and will never be forgotten. Another star is in the sky tonight, I hope you find peace, Moonbin. 🥀🕊️

Never to forget - Moonbin

(This is very personal and kinda just for me. Read if you want.)

Hello Moonbin,

It's been 417 days since you joined the heavens.

Wednesday, April 19, 2023, was a dark day for many, but non-darker than yours.

In my life, there have been many celebrities who have passed away for various reasons, but your passing hit me the hardest.

I found you because of your best friend, Cha Eunwoo. He popped up on my Facebook feed advertising his K-drama "True Beauty."

He got me curious about K-dramas, and being an American, my exposure was limited.

After watching his drama, I learned he was part of a K-pop band, Astro, which led me to you.

You are the reason why I became Aroha. You are the reason why I explored the world of K-pop.

Now that I look back on it, that must have been sooo much pressure for you at your age.

That would be so much pressure for anyone. I applaud you for all of your strength.

I want to say I am sorry, as an Aroha, that I couldn't push for your label to take better care of you.

I hope you can look down from the heavens and see all of the Aroha, including me, who still love you.

Your smile lit up the hearts, souls, and stages around the world, and it still does as you shine on us from above.

You left this world too early, according to many, while I would agree... I wouldn't want you to suffer just to stay.

I still cannot listen to any of Astro's or MoonSan's music without getting emotional.

I am even crying while I write this.

I miss you.

We all do.

I know you are not far.

I know that you keep watch over your family, your bandmates, and Aroha.

Please know that we will all be okay.

You can rest now.

Forever and always,

Your Aroha

💜💜💜

moody - cha eunwoo x reader - day 4

'What's wrong?'

Cha eunwoo looked up and sighed.

"Come here."

You were confused because normally your boyfriend was in a better mood. But you did as he asked, crossing the room under his heavy lidded gaze. You stood almost toe to toe with him, with his back to the wall.

"Kiss me."

Again, you were confused because he always initiated your intimate moments. And yet again, you did as you were told. You nervously went up onto your tiptoes, closed your eyes, and your soft lips met his.

Suddenly, you felt one large hand banding around underneath your butt and a second one grabbing your waist, pulling you up.

You opened your eyes, only to find that Eunwoo's eyes were staring at you all along. You saw the outer corners of his eyes crinkle up, and felt the ice melt away from them.

"Much better," he said, smiling.

He nipped at your plump upper then lower lip, and went on kissing you. You wound your arms around his neck, never letting go.

butt pinch - cha eunwoo x reader - day 5

You couldn't help it, it was right there.

In the crowd, as you walked behind your boyfriend, you pinched his butt.

His juicy, glorious globes.

And not much, just a light pinch like you were cooking and taking a pinch of salt.

After all, he did it to you alllll the time.

He looked back at you, giving you *the* look. You knew you wouldn't be safe when you were both alone. That's what you get for being cheeky.

success 🙌 - cha eunwoo x reader [smut] - day 7 (part 2 of drugs)

Warning to readers: smut, 18+ only 😁👍

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'Baby, I did it!'

I launched myself at my tall, lanky-ish, muscular boyfriend. He caught me in his arms, and, to his credit, didn't even stumble backwards. He was the perfect standing armchair.

I felt the light pressure of his full lips against my thick dark hair. I randomly wondered if my curls tickled his nose at all when he did this to me, which was quite often.

'Sorry, remind me again, what did you set out to do today?'

He said this as I pressed my chest further into his. I felt emboldened since we were in my hospital accomodation room, and the door was thankfully closed.

I felt our breaths synchronise, which was still so romantic after dating for awhile. I also felt some less romantic sensations -- we were both getting hard. My nipples and his dick were pressing into our shared space.

'I finished reviewing the new drugs I needdd to for my exam...' I didn't know my normally chirpy voice could be so breathy.

'You know what that means.' Eunwoo's voice came out smooth and smoky.

He bent his neck down further, and drew a line down my neck with his nose. His hot breath seared through my skin. I couldn't help but let out a tiny moan, which was another new thing for me.

His grip tightened against my waist, then pulled apart my shirt. The buttons popped off, falling to the floor.

'Ya, why did you do that?!'

I pushed him away, and turned towards the door, about to grab my sweater from the mounted hook on it.

'I'll buy you a new one, baby, right after I do this.'

Eunwoo pushed me gently against the door, my cheek pressing against the hard wood. I didn't get a chance to take another breath before one of his hands found my breast, while the other snaked down my pants. Two fingers quickly entered my soaked tunnel.

'You're so hot, baby. Why was my baby runnjng away when she needs my this much?' he whispered in my ear.

'Because, because - ah I...' I couldn't form a coherent sentence at this point, I was too far gone.

'My baby, my doctor, my love.' Cha Eunwoo chanted, and pumped his fingers in me and groped my breast, all in synchrony. His hips and hard dick pushed against my plush butt as well. I felt dominated yet cared for; I simply melted against him, totally submitting.

'I'm about to come, baby.'

'Then come, but look into my eyes first.'

I tipped my head back, and felt an overwhelming wave of love and lust subsume me. His thumb shifted to stimulate my clit, and I was done for. Before I could scream, though, his mouth found mine, and swallowed my orgasm.

Trembling from the aftershocks, I sagged against Eunwoo once more. He kissed my temple.

'Let's go to bed now, tomorrow's a big day.'

Turning me around, Eunwoo gently pulled out his fingers, and repositioned the cup of my bra. We smiled at each other, giddy and in love.

teach me - cha eunwoo x reader- day 8

'Big deep breath in, and flooooat!'

I gently pushed up against Cha Eunwoo's big back in the water so that he could master the back float.

I was briefly was distracted by the water droplets on his abs glistening underneath the Thai sun. But, I was brought back to the situation at hand when Eunwoo's golden fingers wrapped around my dark bronze forearm.

'Am I doing it right?' For the first time ever since I got to know him, Eunwoo sounded... nervous?

'Yeah, baby, good job.' I winked at my baby, so proud of him.

'Okay baaaay-beeee...' Eunwoo cocked an eyebrow and I could see a glimmer of his normal, playful personality come back. 'Your turn.'

I gulped. I wasn't nervous to swim, but I was...

'I want to see your sexy body,' he huskily whispered in my ear. He had somehow abandoned his floating position and now was standing and was glued to my side, all without making a sound. He wrapped his strong arms around me, and I felt like I was lost in a special world that held just the two of us.

But since we were in public, I was nervous about my so-called 'sexy' body.

'Here, looks like I need to teach you now.'

It was his turn to be gentle as he pulled my arms from my torso. He then simultaneously pushed one of my shoulders down into the water with one hand and pushed my back up with the other. I felt my boobs being buoyed by the water, and reached to cover them. I should *not* have worn this hot pink bikini, but *he* had convinced me otherwise this morning.

He clicked his tongue, and somehow made even that sound sexy. 'No no no.' He covered my hands with his, and I felt his fingertips gently massage my chest for a second, before pulling my hands away.

His plush lips once again returned to the shell of my ear.

'No.' He interlocked our fingers together.

'No.' He pulled my back to his front, my derriere settling into the crook of his hips.

'No.' His lips found mine for the briefest, most beautiful second, and then he let go.

My eyes were closed and I was panting. When I opened them, I saw Eunwoo had never closed his at all.

'Hey, why do you keep staring at me? My face, my body...' I whined.

'Like I said, you're sexy, Noona. You have to trust me the way you want me to trust the water.'

I sighed, amazed at my dreamy boyfriend. How did I get so lucky? I rested my head against his hard chest, and mumbled, 'I guess we'll take it one lesson at a time.' I felt my cheeks burn.

I could feel his chest rumble before I even heard his laugh. He then drew us deeper into the water, effortlessly, with a smooth, practiced swimmer's kick.

'Ya!! You know how to swim!'

I looked up accusingly at him. Somehow I was laying on his chest while we were both in ths water. What can't he do, I thought to myself.

Cha Eunwoo just winked and laughed some more. I couldn't help but join in.

the tsundere trap - cha eunwoo x reader - day 10

My boyfriend was so nice most of the time, but occasionally his tsundere tendencies would surface and surprise me.

'Baby what's wrong?'

i looked up from my iPad that I had propped onto its side on my bed. I was currently encased under 3 blankets, after eating a huge dinner.

'What do you mean? I'm enjoying myself.' I couldn't help the slight whine in my voice.

'Baby...' Cha Eunwoo's smooth voice sent shivers down my body, despite having dated for awhile.

'Does my girl,' he paused as her grabbed my ticklish waist.

'Need motivation,' he dug his hands in further, now no longer tickling me, but leaving me with... other feelings.

'To finish her work?' He punctuated the final word with a quick kiss.

'Yes baby,' I breathed out, fogging my glasses.

'Good. Take my photo and get back to work.' The bloody oaf smirked and stood back up.

I sat up and gasped.

'YA!'

insecure (big glasses energy pt 2) - cha eunwoo x reader - day 12

My hand was lazily tracing up and down my boyfriend's back while we were walking through a museum in Edinburgh. I was surreptitiously mumbling the origins, insertions, and innervations of the back muscles I had memorised that day.

'Ya!'

Cha Eunwoo suddenly turned his massive body towards me, brows furrowed. I gulped, becoming nervous.

'Sorry baby, am I bothering you?'

Cha Eunwoo breathed in deeply, closing his eye. 'I haven't studied that yet,' he stage whispered.

I held his face in both of my hands, and then went up on my tiptoes to give the big lug a quick peck. 'Let's go back and study then!'

'But Noona, I'm usually the one to...' he trailed off.

I raised an eyebrow, and took my hands back to cross them on my chest. 'What do you mean, Eunwoo?'

He sighed and hung his head. 'What use am I to you if I'm not perfect all the time?'

'Hey, hey, hey!' I stepped even closer to him, and burrowed my head under his so I could awkwardly make eye contact. 'We're in this together!'

I could see his eyes crinkle up in a good way, so I kept going. 'Some days you'll be in charge, and other days it'll be me. We're a team!'

Cha Eunwoo's big strong arms banded around my waist in that deliciously familiar way, right in the middle of the museum. I realised that we were becoming an obstacle for the other visitors, so I began wiggling to try and get out of his hold. He wasn't letting me though.

'Okay, sounds good baby,' he murmured as he kissed my forehead. 'But for the love of god...'

I whipped my head up so fast the overhead lights blinded me.

'Pleeeeease stop tickling me.'

I giggled, and then managed to pull us closer to the side so we could look like we were still interested in the paintings around us.

'Sorry, my love, it's the only way I can learn my anatomy.' I said this casually, but inside I was brimming with glee, glancing at god knows what protrait in front of me.

I felt his warm breath on my ear. 'Sure, and then you'll have something to look forward to when we get home.' Unfortunately, since I was ticklish too, I already knew my punishment. Fortunately, usually ended with a lot of laughs and... other things.

I giggled some more, too shy to look him in the eyes at this point, as he pulled me towards the exit.

you're mine noona - pt 1 - cha eunwoo x reader - day 13 [smut]

Warning: smut (18+ only)

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You had killed his mother. That's what everybody thought, at least, including Cha Eunwoo.

His dark eyes bored into your own as he strode down the long hallway in your father's mansion. You couldn't help but feel the electricity between you two that was always firing, but it felt especially inappropriate on the day of your step mother's funeral.

All you did was walk in on her stashing cash in her big Louis Vuitton purse from your father's desk last weekend, and she had a heart attack then and there. But she had cursed you out as you tried to tell the ambulance crew, your father, and Eunwoo what was happening, and the rest was history. Your father had married this woman just last year, yet somehow he believed her over you every single time.

Your breath then hitched as you could feel the other mourners' judgemental stares land on you. You turned abruptly, and reached for the door closest to you. It turned out to be the laundry room.

You breathed out and in while resting your forearms against the cold glass of the lastest washing machine. The gentle rhythm of the wash the housekeeper had put on soothed you. Your too-tight black dress felt tight, especially in the chest area. You could feel a sense of panic starting to rise in you.

The door opened behind you with a snick, and you felt a large presence at your back.

'What are you doing here, Noona?' His words were innocent enough, but his voice held barely controlled anger.

Before you could turn around, his arms grabbed you around your torso. One big hand splayed out over your slightly rounded abdomen, while the other held your shoulder in a loose grip.

'Eunwoo, we can’t do this again! Not here, not now,' you whisper-yelled as best as you could.

Suddenly, you were airborne, pantyless, and sitting on the rocking washing machine. Eunwoo's gaze never left yours, and you were mesmerized as he pulled down the front of your dress and pulled out both breasts.

'Youre breathing hard, Noona. Looks like you're ready for a ride.' Eunwoo's rough voice held dark promise.

'I'm not-' You lost my train of though as Eunwoo bit your earlobe and massaged your breast. ''I, I'm not your noona.' You breathed out. One of your hands that was initially halfheartedly pushing him away was now somehow caressing his shoulder.

Your words and gentle touch for whatever reason calmed him down. 'Noona, I'm going to enter you now, okay?'

Your eyes met his, and the decision was made. 'Okay,' you breathed out.

You closed your eyes, expecting him to continue with breakneck speed. But now all you felt was the rocking of that damned washing machine you were sitting on.

Only when you opened your eyes, did you see Cha Eunwoo was now at an arm's length away. 'Oh Noona, looks like we have a lot of room to play.' He drawled, then with a withering smirk, turned on his heel and walked away.

You looked down at your half naked self, and for the first time, felt a deep sense of anger. You won't let them keep pushing you around, you vowed to yourself.

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Pt 2: https://www.tumblr.com/blowingcookies/747331518085693440/youre-mine-noona-pt-2-cha-eunwoo-x-reader?source=share

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I accomplished the following today!:

✔️ 2.5 questions done (out of 120 to do, total); >5 emails so I could get my PSG done

✔️stuck to my diet, did a long walk, cleaned and organised my room

If I get 30 questions done tomorrow, write an email for my accomodation, and am able to organise my desk, I'll write a pt 2 😁

Thanks for reading and being part of my motivation!!!

wake up - cha eunwoo x reader - day 14

'Ugh, why does he look so good even when sleeping,' you groused to yourself. 'Does he even drool?'

The flight attendant came by to offer coffee or tea before landing. You leaned over your best friend, Eunwoo, to reach for the cup she was offering. Despite the shaking plane, you were able to safely put your cup on the tray table in front of you.

'Ahh, I needed this,' you mumbled.

'Hey Noona, keep it down.' Cha Eunwoo's voice rumbled in your ear, and you jumped.

'Hey! Careful with my precious cargo!' You whisper-yelled at him back.

He smirked, and then wrapped his long arms around your waist, resting his head against your shoulder. He lately made your heart skip a beat when touching you like this, and you didn't know what to do about it.

When you stiffened, he started massaging your soft sides, and nuzzling your sweater. 'Noona, noona, noona... You do know how much I like you, right?'

'Uh, obviously, Eunwoo, why else would we be going to our friend's wedding together?'

He huffed, and then laughed. 'Looks like we need to talk.'

At this point he had opened his eyes, and straightened his back, with one hand had made it to you knee. You trembled slightly, making him smirk.

He bent towards your ear once more. 'Dinner at 8. Wear that green dress, please.'

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Today, I gained a lot of momentum! Did over 30 questions, and revised previous material. I feel like eating well today, rather than at an unintentional calorie deficit, helped a ton. 😁

Plan for tomorrow:

(1) 30 more questions

(2) project + email

(3) accommodation email (still haven't gotten around to this yet!)

you're mine noona - pt 2 - cha eunwoo x reader - day 15

[For reading my past entries, I recommend searching the following tag: #cha eunwoo x reader ; enjoy!]

[Pt 1: https://www.tumblr.com/blowingcookies/746785037098385408/youre-mine-noona-pt-1-cha-eunwoo-x-reader?source=share ]

You closed the windows to your cottage. With all the rain and humidity, your curly hair needed a break from all of the moisture, just as you needed a break from the main house. That's why you decided it was time to move into the little cottage in the far backyard; with how the funeral went, a little distance couldn't hurt.

You set up your laptop on the countertop, intent on watching some kdramas while cooking and cleaning, when someone knocked at your door. 'Who could that be?' you thought to yourself.

Before you could make it to the door, it opened.

'Hi Noona.' Dark eyes bore into yours, and you gasped.

Big, solemn, and wet, the uninvited guest moved into your kitchen and personal space . Cha Eunwoo's thick, corded arm reached around to shut off the stove behind you, and he bent down to whisper roughly into your ear.

'Careful. We wouldn't want another accident.'

A cry left your lips, and you tried moving past him, but he was like a steel wall. His hands went into your hair, then one grasped the back of your neck to pull your head back.

'This is how things are going to go...'

'No, Eunwoo, leave me alone!' You felt desperate to leave, knowing if you stayed you would give into him and be humiliated once more. Again, you struggled against his hold, but to no avail.

'Noona...' He drew out the dreaded word, mouthing the vowels against your dark cheek.

Suddenly, you had an idea. Talking back, struggling, and being passive weren't working, so you had to change tactics. You subtly palmed the keys in your jean pocket while stroking his cheek with your other hand. He shuddered, and loosened his hold.

'Interesting,' you thought to yourself.

You then caressed the sides of his torso, letting your fingertips dig into his slightly fleshy sides. He was startled, and moved slightly back.

This was your chance. Feinting left initially, you went to the right side towards the door. You miraculously made it to your little Volkswagen Beetle car, but before you could open it, Eunwoo's golden hand slammed against the blue paint next to the handle.

You looked back in horror at him.

'You know you're just adding to your punishment, right?' He smirked, and your heart sank.

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I was able to get through some more questions; if I finish the set tomorrow, I'll write a (hopefully) good sm*t chapter next!

Thank you so much for reading, and for being part of my study journey ❤️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOONBIN (I know I'm late) - You're 26 years old now 🥲❤️ I wish u were here to celebrate, but I hope u enjoy yourself up there, wherever u are :) I love u & miss u 😭❤️

I hate to post stuff like this, but I need to say it.

Rest in peace dear Moonbin, may you look over Arohas 🙏🏻

You had been my bias for the time and will remain it forever, I wish you, your family and friends, but also fans some well-deserved time to heal 🙏🏻

I don’t even know how to start this-

I don’t stan Astro but what happens to Moonbin has me sobbing. I was going to start to really get into Astro but now I will never see a song and performance without thinking about him. Honestly I am so sorry for his family having to go through this. All I can say is that he is in a better place now and that he is probably looking over his family and fans.

Rest In Peace Moonbin