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Okay but I need to get this off my chest

It's been confirmed since last season by Maddie that Buck is "very good at seeming fine" or better than he is. We have lots of proof of that on screen. We have Buck saying to a therapist that he hides his true emotions. We have many, many indicators on screen of Buck being neurodivergent, with low self esteem, being very perceptive, and putting everything into being what other people need.

If we go with that, with possible ADHD, or C-PTSD (which is trauma caused by prolonged traumatic events like neglectful/abusive parenting) - I feel like I should make a list of all the symptoms and signs that coincide with Buck - but point is, lots of neurodivergent people but especially those tend to do a thing called "masking"

It's exactly what it sounds like, aka they put on a mask around people to try and act how people expect them to. This act is perfected throughout the years and is very flexible. It's constant awareness of the situation, picking up on the smallest changes in the people around you and adjusting yourself to a "this is how I should be acting" setting, or "this is what this person/situation expects or alternatively needs right now".

Often times, you tend to lose your own self in there, you push aside all your own feelings and needs - which is what Buck admitted to his therapist. We also know he always feels like he needs to put on thee firefighter "costume" to feel worthy.

So basically, Buck puts up an act to be the best person he can, according to what the people around him need. I'm not saying it's not part of his personality to want to help people, because it is. But the problem is that it's to a fault. He will go extreme lengths no matter what his own feelings or needs say.

I mean, with Eddie it's a healthy thing bc man Eddie gives back. But again, Buck saw what Eddie needed and constantly immediately took initiative. He helped get Carla into his life, made sure Bobby knew about Chris and helped out there, he became a whole second parent to Chris bc he saw these two people needed it. They are two people who surprisingly returned the sentiment.

Which surprises Buck. Even after what 3 years(?) Buck still has to hear from Eddie explicitly that he's not expendable.

Buck believes he is, because he thinks he's just doing what he should be doing. It doesn't matter how he feels, this is what he does. It wouldn't change his behavior if Eddie did think he was expendable. (tho it would damage him further)

My point is, Buck is very good at acting. He is mentally very strong and resilient because he knows how to put his own self aside and be what people need him to be. (That unfortunately reinforces his idea that it's not him that's worthy, it's just his actions, which anyone can do, since of course Buck is just emulating what he thinks someone should be doing).

And in my opinion, we see Buck backsliding a bit since his parents popped up - which is practically inevitable, even without the whole new life changing revelation about his brother, which made things worth because his whole existence now was excuse as Buck just being there "for parts". It reinforces the idea in his head that he's just there to be useful to people, to be what they need, regardless of himself. And that's probably not a conscious thought 99% of the time.

I also haven't seen anyone mentioning Buck mentioning the therapist this season which would fit my backsliding theory, just based on myself who also grew up thinking I'm not allowed therapy bc I can convince everyone and especially myself "I'm fine", so he probably convinced himself he doesn't need it. Or it was too hard to keep fighting to recover, for now he just has to get through things, and that means resorting to old behaviors and habits.

It's how he copes and survives. Being what others need. Especially so he doesn't end up alone and unloved, because he definitely feels unloved. And he's desperate to prove the opposite, that he's worth something.

So what I'm saying is, Buck is very, very good at acting and being what other people need, while neglecting himself, and putting up a very convincing show of "this is me" and that's what BT is :)

atm the only thing I want the most is buck to break up with taylor,,,I don't kno why but their relationship makes me claustrophobic, it feels suffocating..I liked Taylor's character when she was first introduced because she was kinda reminding me of buck and I loved all the cockiness she was radiating it was hot,,but they just don't work together...like??? The relationship they have feels forced I can't just stand it anymore!!!! I genuinely believe they'd be such great frens??? i honestly don't know what the season will bring but I want a bucktaylor break up soooo bad let me breatheeeeee

yeah idk how to describe it but something about the direction they chose to write the relationship this season felt so Off??? idk if it's because it was so isolated from the rest of the characters (like taylor only interacts with them briefly in 5x10 and buck nEVER talks about her before 5x09 which is Huge contrast to abby)

and again, in comparison to abby, i have has No Idea how buck feels about this relationship pretty much at any stage of the season season bc he's!!! not!!! talking!!! about it!!!! and their dynamic is notably different to the one they'd established in s4. it's just- a bit draining to watch tbh??????

the fact that it hasn't been mentioned basically at all in all the bts stuff (besides the huge wrench comment) has also made me lowkey forget it's even still a thing, to the point that i legit only remembered it again the other day lmao. so yeah, idk what they're gonna do going forward but given how much they'll have to make up for lost time with madney and the fact we know eddie's getting a big storyline, i'd be surprised if it's dragged out for too long

That’s not the way you talk about someone you’re in love with.

us seeing eddie sobbing:

us realizing buck is there too:

THE LOOK OF LOVE WITH BUDDIE

I SEE NO REASON WHY THEY SHOULDN'T BE TOGETHER