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Fun fact: I have a (possible, idk what it is yet) special interest in Owl City and all their music is like that. Literal auditory stim heaven! My fav song is Dear Vienna or Super Honeymoon

Did you listen to Owl City's "Fireflies" for the first time when you were a kid and feel something akin to melancholy stir so deeply in your gut that you almost cried, and a balloon swelled up in your chest, and you wanted to move your body but you didn't know how or why, and it awakened something deep and primal inside you,

And you thought maybe it was flight, that freedom, that exhilaration, and for a time you were obsessed - wishing you could fly, because maybe then you'd finally do whatever it is the music makes you want to do,

And now as an adult you crave good music like sugar, and you savor every hit of dopamine you get, wringing every last drop of it from your playlist, the balloon in your chest (longing) still there but never popped,

And your hands are just in your lap but your body is pulsing, desperate to move, desperate to do something - something! You can't listen to music like that and be still - but you still don't understand how you should move, so you stay calm, eyes unfocused, picking at your cuticles, listening to that lead line over and over and over and wishing it would never end,

Wishing that other people could understand what it does to you,

Longing for a feeling you don't know how to achieve,

Wishing you could fly,

Or are you neurotypical?