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imma try and note down my gender and pronouns every time it changes

right now I feel like a rosboy

My ideal pronouns are he/fae I think.

stay clean stay clean stay clean stay clean stay clean stay clean stay clean stay clean

I wanna audition for lady Macbeth at my school drama club, ironically she kills herself by slitting her wrists so I now have to keep my wrists clean to be able to safely have my wrists showing. At least I’ll be able to put on a convincing show. Ah what a conundrum.

also I don’t wanna feel dysphoric playing a she character… arrrrrgggghhhhh why is this so hard. I’ll probably just have to deal with it if do get the role.

everyone at drama is super nice and accepting though so they all call me my preferred name and pronouns so outside of the role I’ll be fine. I’d just be playing a part it’s fine I’ll be fine I want this role I will not let my dysphoria stop me from trying to get it

ahhhh crap I was so certain I was genderfluid but I’m really not sure about she/her pronouns. I think im transmasc, for some reason saying that feels like a bigger step than saying I’m enby/genderfluid . Maybe because with both those options I can get away with using he/they but I was so certain abt being genderfluid. Hmmmm I have a lot of pondering to do. At least I’m certain that right now in this moment I know I’m not a girl.

Got termed FFS. Used to be @jellyfisharekeeping-me-alive I think some of my moots got termed. Please reblog so I can find them again :))

I think one of my cuts is infected oh shitttttt

wanna dye my hair so bad, I have the dye and shit right here but I also don’t wanna get murdered by my mother. I’ve already lopped of most of my hair this month- I don’t think I’d survive another round of “what the actual hell have you done to your hair?!!”

Like/reblog if you think that you don't need to medically transition to be transgender

I’d look more masc if I lost weight. I want to be skinny.

tomorrow I’ll only be eating tea. I will do my best to have as little as possible but I can’t let my family find out what’s going on.

I need to lock in and not snack. I’ll update tomorrow

Update: today was successful!

I barely ate anything I’m so happy

I actually love this 💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜

It is inherently fun and sexy to say statements that swap the traditional genders of pronouns and terms mid-statement, such as: "I'm going to make him my wife" "She's my boyfriend" "Who says a guy can't be a pretty princess?" "That girl's the coolest dude I've ever met" "She's a madman who has to be stopped" "It's not his fault he's a material girl" Gender is a set of watercolors and the prettiest shades come from mixing the paints together.

prom queen by beach bunny always makes me cry. Partly because of the message and partly because it was in a lot of videos/shorts when I was in a particularly sad time.

Such a good song though

I hate being the fat, talentless stupid ugly friend

I wanna be skinny so bad. I feel like a giant when I’m stood next to my friends

I need my trousers to be baggy. I need a flatter stomach I need thinner arms I need a flatter chest I need less wobbly thighs I need to see my bones I don’t deserve food I don’t deserve food I don’t deserve food i don’t deserve food I don’t deserve food I don’t need food I will stop eating

I can do this. I can stop eating. I will stop. I will only eat in front of other people to stop them from worrying

I will get skinny. I will I need to

aggggggg I want more masculine shoulderssss

if only

I wish boobs were detachable. Because sometimes I want to look like a genderless being, other times the outfit needs boobs.

I actually had a lovely day today! I hope you lot did too!

I recently got short hair and I cannot wait to finally be perceived as something other than a girl 24/7.

:)))))))))

you know what-I think I’m going to be okay today.

just discovered the person who I like likes someone else. I am aceflux so these feelings I have don’t come along very often. It’s obviously not her fault but idk I thought I had as chance. I thought maybe she liked me back. I don’t know. Why does this hurt so much? I’ve never been a crush kinda person - never really liked anyone but the one time I thought it felt real it turned out it was hopeless anyway.