I Wanna Audition For Lady Macbeth At My School Drama Club, Ironically She Kills Herself By Slitting Her

I wanna audition for lady Macbeth at my school drama club, ironically she kills herself by slitting her wrists so I now have to keep my wrists clean to be able to safely have my wrists showing. At least I’ll be able to put on a convincing show. Ah what a conundrum.

also I don’t wanna feel dysphoric playing a she character… arrrrrgggghhhhh why is this so hard. I’ll probably just have to deal with it if do get the role.

everyone at drama is super nice and accepting though so they all call me my preferred name and pronouns so outside of the role I’ll be fine. I’d just be playing a part it’s fine I’ll be fine I want this role I will not let my dysphoria stop me from trying to get it

I actually had a lovely day today! I hope you lot did too!

I recently got short hair and I cannot wait to finally be perceived as something other than a girl 24/7.

:)))))))))

if only

I wish boobs were detachable. Because sometimes I want to look like a genderless being, other times the outfit needs boobs.

ahhhh crap I was so certain I was genderfluid but I’m really not sure about she/her pronouns. I think im transmasc, for some reason saying that feels like a bigger step than saying I’m enby/genderfluid . Maybe because with both those options I can get away with using he/they but I was so certain abt being genderfluid. Hmmmm I have a lot of pondering to do. At least I’m certain that right now in this moment I know I’m not a girl.

I’d look more masc if I lost weight. I want to be skinny.

tomorrow I’ll only be eating tea. I will do my best to have as little as possible but I can’t let my family find out what’s going on.

I need to lock in and not snack. I’ll update tomorrow

Update: today was successful!

I barely ate anything I’m so happy

I think one of my cuts is infected oh shitttttt