
wannabe kangel :P // jirai + yamikawaii lover // soft yandere
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Me remembering that capitalism and economy are a thing and that I'm not always going to be a teenager who relies on the help of their parents:

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
i was correct it is SUPER CUTE!!!! 🎀
YOUR BLOG IS SO CUTE!!!!!!(,,>ヮ<,,) Ive been here for 3 mins and I'm already in love
OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! 💗💗 IM ABT TO SEE UR BLOG I BET ITS JUST AS ADORABLE
born to be on the internet forced to study
I JUST YOUR MUSIC TASTE PLEASE MARRY ME IM SO IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ⁽⁽`o(≧ᗜ≦)o´⁾⁾
AJSJHSHD 💍💍💍 WE’RE MARRIED NOW (^з^)-♡
YOUR BLOG IS SO CUTE!!!!!!(,,>ヮ<,,) Ive been here for 3 mins and I'm already in love
OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! 💗💗 IM ABT TO SEE UR BLOG I BET ITS JUST AS ADORABLE
"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.
long ass vent sorry
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i just want someone to love me for me, for all my faults. i know im too online. i know i have no sense of self. i know i people please too much to the point where i offend people. i know there’s something wrong with me .
sometimes i wonder if my thoughts are too much. like what if i’m too ““bad”” of a person to belong in a community… like there’s always lines that can be crossed and im so afraid i’ll cross a line. i don’t want to be alone. i want someone to always be here for me and help me grow. but that won’t happen for a long time probably.
i don’t know who i can even go to, like no one knows abt this blog or who i “really am”. and i don’t want to be vulnerable with people… but how am i supposed to get help if i don’t want it??
sorry that last sentence makes no sense but im just SO conflicted right now… i want to be normal but at the same time i love being sick.. the jirai community is the first place where i felt like i rlly belong and now i feel out of place and disgusted with myself (NOT a blow to the jirai community ily guys ur all amazing)
anyways yeah sorry im rlly sad and angry with myself
i feel like i can’t help anyone and if i can’t help anyone whats my purpose in life? ik im young but if i can’t help anyone might as well destroy myself
ik i’ll eventually HAVE to get better because i do want to , i want to have children one day and i want to give them the most happy beautiful life
so that adds more onto me feeling fake like am i “valid” for wanting to stay sick while im young and i won’t be held *that* accountable??? am i just selfish
maybe i am just selfish
okay i think im done
i love you all so much
I got one problem wrong: HOLY FUCK I'M A FAILURE I SUCK I'M TERRIBLE THEY ALL THINK I'M STUPID DON'T THEY FUCK FUCK FUCK I NEED TO CUT
I got one problem right: LMAO I'M LITERALLY GOD I'M SOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU GUYS SUCK MY DICK HAAAAA YOU GUYS WISH YOU WERE ME EVERYONE LOVES ME
i want to get my shit together so badly
i also want to just give up
nvm i dont feel bad at all anymore i hate you
i dont mean this i do actually feel bad im just upset that i did a bad thing when im supposed to be perfect!!! 🙁
you constantly make fun of my interests i only wanted to appeal to you and thats why i said that
i hte myself i hate that i have no individuality i have no original thoughts im chronically online and i make everyones opinion my own because i just want you to like me
im gonna wallow in self pity and sh more
sorry
ughfjdjdj im a bad friend he hates me i probably caused his ed to get worse im awful im such a bad person akwwkskkdkdjnfbfbfhjfk

c^tting is so painful but i love it… give me the courage to go deeper!! >w< 💗
everytime i wanna eat my body is nauseous and when i dont wanna eat my body is screaming at me to eat more and more. i hate this body of mine

i want and i want and i crave and ache and yearn and

