I Have A Story I'm Currently Publishing On Wattpad About A Young Anxious College Girl Who's Trying To

I have a story I'm currently publishing on Wattpad about a young anxious college girl who's trying to find out why she feels so different from everyone. Check it out here if you want!

I also have a few WIPs from my writeblr into and some others I did more recently.

Hiiii… Active writeblrs?

hi there. just curious about what u guys are writing about. u can link ur work here if u wanna. tell me about the new character, the plot, the vibes. go ahead :) reblog if u like (I also wanna follow some active writeblrs, go ahead and like this/reblog if ur doing ur thing)

Hayate

Original Concept

Like I explained before, with the otome game story I attempted to write, Hayate was another character I made for the story!

He was a ninja who encounters Cassie and brings her back to the castle where he's employed. He was a lot more playful in that story where as in Quiet Girl he's the total opposite.

Quiet Girl Concept

In Quiet Girl, Hayate is a bit older than Cassie and works as a martial artist teacher. His skills are usually in high demand and for a time he worked at Wry Co. in the companies film department to help with stunts and other action scenes. Most of the time he's a freelancer who goes wherever work is requested of him.

His main job is working at his parents dojo and taking care of everything inside. He teaches visitors about japanese culture, history and customs. He nearly lives there, but he's often at his own place.

One big part of his personality is how he interacts with Cassie...

Relationship with Cassie

I actually changed Hayate's personality because I felt the typical "relaxed and playful guy" is an overused troupe. So, I instead tried to make him unique by making him emotionless and unable to understand others emotions, both towards others and at himself. He's smart enough to know if someone's upset with him, what may be the reason, but he doesn't understand why they get upset at all.

How this playes into his relationship with Cassie is how she acts towards him. More or less, Cassie doesn't emote very well and is often regarded as heartless. No matter how true that is, it's a fact she doesn't show her emotions and is told she she should express herself more. However, she doesn't want to do that and is usually put between a rock and a hard place. Hayate, when they first meet, is dealing with trying to show more emotions to he can work well with his new employees, but Cassie doesn't really care that he acts strangely and never brings it up to him. He's grateful because people always think he's strange for how he acts and he's glad to have someone who allows him to be himself.

"As for you, you never cared. Not once did you ask me about it, either because you didn't notice or you didn't mind. I realized that's something I look for the most in people, when they just let things be and not try to understand me."

The stress of posting a story is still weighing on me and on this particular day, I'm feeling it in the form of restlessness.

Even though I am knee deep in Tears of the Kingdom, it can't occupy me 24/7.... Well-

Anyways, in an attempt to calm myself, I'm gonna talk about my new story so I don't feel overwhelmed with not doing anything.

So, 👏, the name is normalities, I'm posting it on Wattpad (check it out here) and it's a coming of age, romance with an anxious girl who's trying to understand why she stands out so much when she finds herself no different than anyone else.

I don't know if I'll do this for every chapter, but I wanted to talk about why I wrote the story/chapter since there's always some big reason behind anything I do.

In this case, I decided to write normalities because it's very rare for media to get anxiety right. While there is no "correct" way to write anxiety, as it's different from person to person, most shows and movies have anxiety as the person who passes out when faced with a difficult situation. While that can happen, most people who have anxiety just wouldn't show up somewhere if they felt that stressed about it. At least, I wouldn't.

So, I wanted this story to better represent an anxious individual, to see the spectrum of how it can present itself. It's also to showcase that it's not simply "get over it" to overcome anxiety and it also doesn't get solved in one day after a inspirational speech lol.

The friend she makes is also very important. It's to give an example of how to respond to someone who has anxiety. Again, it's different from every person, but I tend to be more receptive when someone is patient and understanding. When someone realizes I talk like a cynic because I'm thinking of the worst case possible, and they don't take offense to my words, I'm the most calm.

In my experience, I overthink someone's reaction to what I'm going to say, but if I can voice my concerns and not hear "that's not going to happen, calm down" then that's all I can ask for.

I really enjoyed writing this whole story, but very specifically certain parts later in the story. Getting to write a character who actually shares my concerns and irrational worries was something I never thought I'd do!

Oh, and if anyone does check it out, for one thank you and I hope you enjoy reading ❤; but, while it is done, it's pretty much just a 1st draft. So feel free to leave some constructive criticism because I didn't have it beta read and there may be some things that are major issues. I wouldn't be opposed to editing them even after it's published.

But, I'll thank anyone who read this whole post!

Check out the story if you want!

Cassie’s father is a lax individual who doesn’t take very many things seriously. He’s a little bit of a manchild in the fact that he’s carefree most of the time and takes on anything that catches his interest. In the main story, he’s the son of a police chief and he intends to make his father proud, but that’s not very possible. He works tirelessly but eventually loses his drive and that’s where he meets Kali…

They have an origin story of their own where Kali tries to help her mother out of an abusive relationship with her new boyfriend after her father dies. Kali resorts to stealing so she can make enough money to get her and her mother somewhere else and away from the boyfriend plaguing her life. Instead of Leios being her savior, Leios acts as a support system for Kali to talk to. He slowly becomes her friend and is the only person she can tell this side of her life to. He helps her, he doesn't become her savior, and that's all Kali could ever need.

Akihiko has a very long history as a character. Having gone through several changes to being based on my actual life, Akihiko is an ideal boyfriend I made up when I was in middle school. Having dealt with a serious crush I never acted on, I always felt like I could bring myself some confidence to tell him my feelings if I just wrote what would happen. So Aki is made in his image and it made for an interesting story. Instead of Aki and Cassie ending up together, they wind up breaking up. Why, because when I decided to make them break up was at the same time me and my crush graduated from middle school and were going to different highschools. I felt like I should let him go and maybe my interest in him wasn’t reciprocated, so I shouldn’t force someone to like me, when they might not be interested in me. I wanted to show that sometimes you’re not meant to be with the “perfect” person, just the person who fills the half of you, you yourself can’t.

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This time, we have Mammon.

Everyone's fav 💛

Mammon's Casual Clothes

He's one half of what I like to call the influencer squad. He's actually the reason this series exists. I watched a funny video 🤡ing all the boy's outfits from an outsider perspective and this person commented on Mammon's shoes. However they may seem to the average human, those into fashion may see things differently.

It's no secret designer fashion is lost on most the human population, but designers have to come up with unique styles that suit a vision they're trying to create. Because of this, to you and me, it just looks like a strange way to wear boots, as does most designer fashion even irl. One notable comparison is from a Jeffery Star comment.

Someone had remarked on how his Gucci Track Suit was tacky and costs more than a house. So, Mammon's clothes represent 1. His love for all things of value and 2. His interest in fashion. All wrapped up in a pretty tsudere bow 💞

Mammon's Human World Fit

More or less, his Human world outfit is why I dubbed him an "influencer." You can't tell me this doesn't scream "Instagram pic."

The minute I saw this, I was confused as to why Mammon even had a jacket on, if he's not actually wearing it. However, it probably looks was more stylish off the shoulder than it does on. So, once again, this is reflecting his interest in fashion and I'm here for model Mammon 💅