Teach-or-trav - Teach_or_Trav

The road to this healing journey has had so many bumps & twists & turns 🥺😭🤧 but I’m so grateful to still be here & to have made it this far! 🫶🏼

Hope you win that sh*t. 💯

The other day a friend ran out to check on me after a long night out. I stormed out angrily to take a walk and to my surprise she followed me out there.

She could tell I wasn’t about to open up about anything so she lead with vulnerability and told me about some of her struggles she has had over the years. Then of course she brought the conversation back to me and my feelings. I was clammed up.

This is not my wife (whom I was upset with at the time) so I felt guilty, wrong for even thinking that I could emotionally open up to her. Even though at that moment, i truly did feel all alone in the world. Yall know that feeling right?!? I mean this is. Tumblr after all lmao 😂

I deflected and asked her more about her own situation and effectively “got out” of talking about my feelings.

Afterwards though, i really thought about it. There were a lot of folx around but she was the one to come out and check on me. I needed someone to even if I didn’t say it. Normally im the extrovert of my friend groups. The solid one. The one you go to for guidance, wisdom, and also to have fun and laugh. I love to smile and make others smile as well.

I texted my friend and told her it meant a lot that she checked ✅ on me, but more importantly i think i walked away with a better understanding of the types of people and depth of understanding i would like to have around me more.

Those of us who have to largest smiles know the most pain. Never forget that.

These are my thoughts 💭 on what im thinking 🤔.

Peace ✌🏾,

- Teach_or_Trav

Virginia Woolf, The Voyage Out

I’m really a different breed of person and my friends know it!