Ok Folks Big Ol Life Update And New E-spanging Campaign Time.

Ok folks big ol life update and new e-spanging campaign time.

We still don't have the kid, which is not ideal for us or her but it's time for us to buckle the fuck down and put on our own oxygen masks first.

Attempts to find work camping or trailer park spots all failed, BUT our axle finally came in so we're getting that replaced soon.

We're going to be homeless beginning July 12 but NOT living only in the pickup truck, so that's a plus. We'll mostly just be boondocking with the trailer on public forest land for the most part.

Unemployment has fucked us, we're at 5 weeks without payments coming through, and attempts to contact them get either a flat busy signal or disconnected before we ever get through to anyone. Money is now A Problem, especially since one of our tires on the trailer is fucked and will need to be replaced before we can take the trailer to Portland to have the axle done.

The good:

Some friends want to get a place with us, and are willing to be homeless with us in the interim. This means we can go in to town work odd jobs, panhandle and apply for jobs and look for housing while still having someone back at camp keeping an eye on things (this was a huge concern for us before, as we are firm believers in both the buddy system and Murphy's law in regards to doing shit and leaving our stuff unattended.).

A few incredibly generous folks have helped us out some, and we *think* we have enough money for the tire replacement and the axle replacement as long as neither goes very much over the quoted cost. (It will still take us dangerously close to zero though)

We have a truck, and since it's summer we should be able to find some gigs helping people move or hauling junk to the dump or whatever.

The ugly:

Offering skillshare services for donations online is probably off the table for now, as most of the places we're going to be able to set up camp are outside of cell service areas. In person skillshare for folks in Oregon and Washington is 100% still a possibility. (Cooking, camping, bdsm, fishing, outdoors stuff, car stuff, trailer life stuff, homelessness tips, dog training, etc. My skills are varied.)

That means that unfortunately for the online crowd we're now straight up begging. We're hoping to figure out jobs and a place as soon as possible but realistically expect getting housed to probably take until September because there is currently a massive rental shortage in the pnw. We need to get by until then, and anything helps.

If anyone has temporary yard space for a trailer and some crustyish queers in nw Oregon/SW Washington that's super helpful too.

Also if anyone knows anyone in Oregon or Washington with a 3-5 bedroom house for rent (with space for a trailer in either the yard or the driveway- just for parking not living, we actually need to do some repairs that require us to not live in it while we do them) please get in touch with us.

paypal.me/daveigh

Venmo: @v0id-queen (with a zero)

Y'all have kept us afloat so many times already and it doesn't feel great to always be so precarious, but things are how they are. Love y'all! 🖤💖

I love that school buses are a standard unit of measurement for dinosaurs and dinosaurs only.

Can we talk about Adrien composing himself here?

It’s obvious that there’s a lot on his mind right now.

It’s obvious that he’s questioning a lot of things.

It’s obvious that he’s feeling a lot of conflicting emotions.

Yet, despite all that, he comes back to the main issue here and addresses it.

He composes himself and prioritises Nino’s feelings and problems here because Adrien knows that Nino can’t help him with his own and it’s what mattered in the moment. 

He’s not prone to lashing out all the time and he’s not dangerous (he’s a kid!), contrary to some people believing that, because he broke a chimney.

He can compose himself, he does compose himself most of the time, he represses his emotions most of the time. 

But not all the time. As he can only repress so much.

Especially when he’s told that he’s not needed in a very insensitive way (ofc no shade to Alya seeing how she was on a time limit), and after growing up with so many isolation and abandonment issues, thinking that the one position you wouldn’t feel left out in, makes you feel left out, and since you repress too much and never express your emotions, you have no outlets of expression and end up expressing it through breaking a chimney. 

You know what, I am gonna say it. I’m not holding back anymore.

If Adrien is a Sentimonster, his life is worth less than the human characters’.

That’s not my opinion, that’s what the show literally tells us with every single episode with a Sentimonster in it.

The show kills Sentimonsters left and right, and the heroes aren’t concerned about this at all. The idea of a Sentimonster’s life being worth protecting has been brought up only because the Sentimonster in question looked just like a person who already existed. And even Sentibug got killed off casually. They got over her death very easily.

It doesn’t matter that the characters say Sentimonsters are real people. It doesn’t matter if the lore is that they’re just like real people. It doesn’t matter if the audience views the Sentimonsters as real people. The narrative doesn’t treat Sentimonsters as real people, because they are killed on-screen casually and constantly.

If Adrien was a Sentimonster,  him throwing his life away for Ladybug so thoughtlessly would be the right way for him to behave. Because Sentimonsters’ lives aren’t as worthy of being preserved as real people’s.

I'm seeing all these "Adrien is a sentimonster" theories and, while I'm not going to deny the possibility (thank you for scaring the shit outta me, btw), I'd like to point something out:

Although Gabriel's ring being amokitized (?) seems possible, don't forget Félix stole his original ring. If Adrien's amok resided in the his father's ring, he would be under Félix or Amelie's control from now on, not Gabriel's.

You could say that, since the Graham the Vanilly heirloom were actually a pair of twin rings, both of which Gabriel kept, then the real amok could've been inside the one Félix didn't steal. But if that were the case, then Gabriel shouldn't have been able to control Adrien for as long as he has.

And, having said that, Adrien has had many instances of free will all throughout the show. Instances Gabriel would have never allowed and that no other sentimonster has been able to do, no matter how perfect they were, unless their amok was in their possession; which Adrien clearly doesn't have.

He went against Gabriel's orders twice to go to school.

As the show has progressed, Adrien's deliberately gone against Gabriel's orders and, either skipped his extracurricular activities (Frozer, Desperada) or gone behind his back to do something (Startrain, Origins).

While his father's allowing Lila to stay close, Adrien actually draws a line.

Even if it takes him a while, Adrien eventually realises when people he cares about are complete assholes.

As I said, I'm not going to disregard the sentimonster idea entirely, but keep in mind that Adrien's free will and Félix's involvement could both be factors defending or debunking this theory.

At this point? I'm all for the heroes knowing his identity as Chat Noir before people know Hawkmoth's identity. Because frankly, this secret identity thing puts a very heavy strain on Adrien's mental and emotional faculties.

The only secret identities that matter are Ladybug and Chat Noir's. It's part of their bond. It's between them.

Chat Noir doesn't mind not knowing who are the Temporary Holders. But he sure as hell mind when he learns LB accepts for some other Holders to share their identity between themselves. To him, it seems unfair Alya and Nino could have that while LB and him cannot. Doesn't she trust him as well?

The rule was initially set for LB and CN to better protect their Miraculous. That was back when Fu was still around and it was mostly Ladybug and Chat Noir doing the work.

Now, things have changed.

Now, Ladybug is the Guardian. She has full access to the Miraculous and can get anyone on the spot. Plus, now she heavely relies on Alya/Rena Rouge for support and as a spy without Chat Noir knowing. Sidelining him.

Seriously, the secret identity is just one small part in the whole miscommunication problem their partnership is facing, but revealing themselves won't resolve the initial problem caused by their respective ghost.

When you think about it, at this point in the show, if Marinette discovers Chat Noir and Adrien are the same person, it will probably just feed her trauma about Chat Blanc. She might panic and accidently push Adrien further away in the process.

In case of Adrien, if he doesn't solve his fear of abadonment and if he doesn't understand Marinette's reaction, he will think Marinette hates him and is rejecting him, thus hurting him even more.

Anyway, it is however true the Ladynoir's conflict this season is causing their viewpoint about the secret identity to clash.

Ladybug prefers to respect the secret identity rule. Sure, it is not perfect and complicates some things sometimes for them, but that rule works and she will maintain it. It's safer that way.

On the other hand, Chat Noir is witnessing more and more injustice on his end this season because of that rule. He believed in its necessity at first, but now that he knows it can be bended and broken by others, he is starting the question the point behind it. Is is really for the best that LB and him doesn't know each other identities? Is it still relevant?

But what those two need isn't a reveal. The problem is that they keep avoiding one very important conversation they should have had a long time ago. Ladybug haven't spoke of her experience of that one alternate timeline nor of Rena Rouge's new role inside the team. Chat Noir is not talking about the fact he feels sidelined. They don't bring it up because their respective traumas is haunting them.

That is the root of problem : their trauma, not the secret identity.