Sometimes I Feel Like A Flower

sometimes I feel like a flower

maybe a peony or a rose

I imagine myself in the middle of nowhere all alone

sometimes I believe I'm a flower

A wilting flower trying very hard to hold on

I see myself trying to stay alive, but somehow, being stuck in the same place

I hate being stuck, I just really want to get up

why wasn't I picked

why aren't I part of a bouquet for a pretty girl

was I not pretty enough?

did I not smell nice?

did I do anything wrong?

why am I not being taken care of?

why was I left behind?

or maybe I'm succumbing to death but as always the only thing on my mind

is the same question of why? why?

✿ I have been so obsessed with flowers lately and I don't understand what this is but yh

saturday, june 15th, 2024 | day 17/100 | ♡.°୭̥ ୨୧

achievements: ✿ completed my daily tasks ✿ did my weekly cleaning ✿ went to the salon to braid my hair

reflection: ✿ I need to learn time management and actually do things on time, also I'm going to try and stick to my current routine until I can do it consistently for at least a week before adding other tasks to it

notes: ✿ learn to take constructive criticism(also learn to differentiate between them and someone just being rude lol) , not all change is bad

habit tracking:

morning stretch study time daily physical activity- I took a walk self-care practice a hobby read bible daily worship drink water 1L/2L

🎧 always and forever ~ Sarah Nathalie

🎀 His Princess and Her Night ~ Adrinette Fic (SeasofSilver)

photo credits: pinterest

wednesday, june 5th, 2024 | day 9/100 | ♡.°୭̥ ୨୧

achievements: ✿ I edited my notion homepage - kinda clustered if you ask me, so don't ask me ✿ I finally read my Bible. thank God ✿ did laundry

reflection: ✿ next time I eat I'll definitely not pick a drama because the amount of time I wasted watching that drama today was bad - but it was good ig, I mean the drama not wasting time

notes: ✿ I really need to fix my sleep schedule

habit tracking:

morning stretch study time daily physical activity- I did pilates self-care practice a hobby read bible daily worship drink water L/3L

🎧 He is Here ~ Kaestrings

🎀 The 8 show ~ I liked the main actor and though it wasn't eggzageratinly(this is not a word, i think) good, it was nice to watch

photo credits: pinterest

thursday, june 6th, 2024 | day 10/100 | ♡.°୭̥ ୨୧

achievements:

✿ I studied french on duolingo

✿ did some yoruba on drops

✿ I read a little of atomic habits (been reading it since last year lol)

reflection:

✿ today wasn't as awesome as I expected it to be, I slept pretty late so I missed morning prayer (sucks), I spent most of the day on tiktok which immediately kills my mind and just makes me feel awful and just sad and my mind is in pain. I hate entering tiktok but I started posting on tiktok, and it is really hard not to fall into the rabbit hole of scrolling

notes:

✿ I need to work more on my writing goal and really fix my sleeping schedule

✿ I look forward to better days

habit tracking:

morning stretch study time daily physical activity self-care practice a hobby read bible daily worship drink water 1L/3L

🎧 Haske ~ Kaestrings

🎀 just tiktok ~ my head actually hurts

photo credits: pinterest

tuesday, june 4th, 2024 | day 8/100 | ♡.°୭̥ ୨୧

achievements: ✿ I edited my school notion page ✿ I took a walk outside, and it was awesome ✿ stayed up for the hallelujah challenge finale

reflection: ✿ The Hallelujah challenge was definitely a great experience and I'll definitely join the next one, today was good and now that the challenge is over I'm gonna try and fix my sleep schedule

notes: ✿ I need to complete this week's task by Thursday because of camp on Friday which will also probably mess with my sleep schedule but it's worth it. This is a reminder for myself that I need to update a planner

habit tracking:

morning stretch study time daily physical activity- I took a walk self-care practice a hobby read bible daily worship drink water 1L/3L

🎧He is Here ~ Kaestrings

🎀 super nanny ~ this one was pretty sad

photo credits: pinterest

I'm so in love with physical activities, the aesthetic of it the feeling of accomplishment after a good core workout so good, but laziness has me by the throat (God forbid) and I wanna get out of this rut. also I had the most gut-wrenching dream yesterday.

DREAM GIRL HOBBIES PART ONE: PHYSICAL

A list for people who are looking for physical-related hobbies! Remember to choose any hobbies that align with your goals and values.

PHYSICAL 

♡ Running/jogging

♡ Yoga or stretching

♡ Pilates

♡ Sports 

♡ Soccer ♡ Basketball ♡ Tennis ♡ Lacrosse ♡ European handball ♡ Football ♡ Volleyball

♡ Cycling

♡ Swimming

♡ Gymnastics

♡ Horse-riding

♡ Archery 

♡ Weightlifting

♡ Dancing

♡ Ballet ♡ Ballroom ♡ Latin dance (salsa, cha cha cha, samba) ♡ Jazz ♡ Contemporary ♡ Zumba ♡ Hiking

♡ Rock-climbing

♡ Marital arts (Judo, karate, taekwondo)

♡ Surfing

creavity & intellectual goals here!