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How to I change l my algorithm

So I made a mistake, and sought out Posts here on Israel and Palastine, and I should go off the rails and now it’s in my suggestion feed and I am going to find it hard to not engage with the gatekeep gaslight genocide crew and oh. No. Why did I do that to myself

I think some of my anxiety is the result of being found out and punished for any antis deemed problematic. And getting punished and banned and loose accounts and anything on them. And not thinking I broke any rules. I sort of had a. Inkling. But commenting in a snarky fashion on certain topics drove it up, and it took me so long to realize. And I don’t know if I would be banned here or if I should switch f. Accounts to start fresh and just behave and play nice. No fighting, no correcting, no sarcasms. No telling somone something is messed up. Being on sites where people don’t know me and are ok with me, because I am there. Expecting to live all these double lives. But I’m empty without social media.

Shame? guilt? But I deserve it. All my antagonism and darkness.

Ahhhhh

So tired of this feeling sick things

I think I’m breaking down

Wow. Threw up

Been 14 days no? The 4th ? Too soon.

Also sleep troubles

Less than 14. And again sep 9

11 days since last. I don't poop enough so I tt bloated and it puts pressure ony stomach?

I can't go a month without throwing up

A second and 12passed. Chest pain on the 12th. I think I'm getting nauseous. Had sushi yesterday. Had white rice today.

And some pain. Keeping a diet is so hard and I fail. Keeping food journal so tireing

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/pLyH46EAC2bBqvnA/?mibextid=oFDknk what is wrong with people?

Maybe leftover fried rice 2 times bad. Maybe it is melatonin related or lutamax related why I get sick

It's that time again

So apparently Zeus and Loki were really faunagender or something. Because his shapeshifting. Even MOGAI genders existed before tumblr.

Will the bad people turn ketsup into a hate symbol? In Israel you need very strict requirements to call ketsup ketsup. And people like to bring up rm 198 halpotype in Israel not being indigenous compared to the Palastine populations

So wake-up with that nausea and pain. On a 24th. Hopefully crab rangoons leftovers and eating General Tso’s chicken for 2 days is not a trigger. Not sure how many times I drank melatonin sleepytime. The only sushi I had this month was the cali with eel, and then the soft shell crab

May was an 18th I think. But for many months it was a 2 and 3. 12 and 13 .

It’s not delusional to think you are a car from Cars, f you share a body with other people ? Or if you talk to video game characters as well.

Spent 6 days in hospital for chickenpox. Was n ER for all around pan that was from Sunday night to Tuesday morning ( autoffill wanted something about Tuesday day ordimental ). I don’t think I flinched while I had the heart monitor , but when I did not need it anymore I started flinching again. So maybe it’s anxiety based. I caved and tried a Xanax , and t knocked me out. Gave me weird vi I’d dreams and I did not like how I felt afterwards. Also when I closed my eyes I just Shaw weird tight dots that wiggle.