Whenever I See A Video Recommended Like This And The Title Is Like: THEY ReVEAL This, ThIS And THIS And

Whenever I see a video recommended like this and the title is like: THEY reVEAL this, thIS and THIS and ✨M O R E✨ I’m like how much could they possibly reveal in 3 minutes 🤨😑

So I’m currently watching The King: Eternal Monarch, I won’t go into too much detail incase you’re planning on watching it, but BTS was mentioned for like 15 seconds. The show was filmed in 2019 and actually came out on Netflix in 2020. The caption was “BTS take the world by storm.” Thinking about it, they really grew a lot in 2019 and it’s kinda interesting/cool to think about how far they’ve come even in just 2 years during this tough time. Also my fan-consumed self was having an “oh my god, my heart 😊🥰🙃” moment because not only am I really invested in the show, I can’t fully express how much I love BTS. The worlds collided and it was such a cool feeling, to me 😅

Fun fact: I’ve been told I’m a very sedimental person and I don’t know if you can tell, but the things I say and the way I think about things… some people find it odd. Sorry if my thoughts don’t come off clear.

Hello,

I just wanted to apologize in advance. If I ever post anything that’s triggering or something that is just really personal and out-of-pocket, I apologize. I have posted some things in the past, but that was when I had like 2 followers and now I have a bit more. I usually write that type of stuff impulsively when I’m having a moment and post it impulsive and then end up deleting it. If I ever do that and you see it before I delete it, I’m sorry. I don’t want to be bothersome to anybody and I’m kinda worried I might say something.

That’s all I have to say. I know it’s kinda personal and not related to anything you probably want to see, but I felt that I had to say it.

This is probably gonna sound really selfish, but whatever. So basically, my 1 year army anniversary is January 3rd and I was gonna order myself an army bomb and open it on the 3rd. I was planning on ordering it pretty earlier because of the holidays and the PTD concerts…. But they’re sold out ☹️. Idk how fast weverse restocks either, but I’m worried I’m not gonna get an army bomb on my anniversary. I guess it seems worrisome to me because (tw or sad reality or something) January 3rd is the only day I see in my future right now. My 19th birthday is in February, but I don’t see that at all. I’m really having a hard time and I wanted that to be a good day, ya know. January 3rd seems so far away and almost impossible to reach so to have something I’m waiting for, I thought it would help. Yeah if I make it that far I’m gonna celebrate what BTS has given me the past year, but idk. I’m just being selfish and pathetic though because there are people that can’t even get things shipped too them or don’t have the money too. I’m just spoiled and complaining.

I’m talking about the vaccine here. Please be nice if you do read this

Okay I’m really hesitant/embarrassed/guilty about saying this, but I’m not vaccinated yet. It’s not because I’m against it or anything like that and I don’t want to sound like I’m making excuses, but I haven’t had a good time. I don’t hardly leave my house because of anxiety and other stuff, and if I do, I always wear a mask which I know is not enough. Nobody around me wants to get vaccinated and if we talk about it it’s always talk about how it’s a hoax and skepticism about the whole thing. It makes me upset. Currently in my state, it’s illegal for employers to mandate a vaccine but with the new presidential mandate, it might change. I need to get on my feet and get a job and I don’t want me not being vaccinated to be a problem. Plus I just want to be safe in general. I’m really thinking about sucking it up and getting vaccinated after the holidays. I’m just really scared. I’m really anxious about side effects. I’m okay with fevers, but it’s the nausea I’m worried about. It makes me really anxious when I am, and anxiety makes it worse. Side effects are my main hinderance. I’m also just kinda weird about shots. I’m trying to just suck it up and get it over with because I know there are people who can’t even get vaccines and so many people have suffered from Covid; it’s ignorant for me not to have it just because I’m anxious. I feel guilty about it. I’m emotional writing this. Anyways, I guess I’m asking about other people experiences and how to cope with it.

Please be nice if you do say anything. I understand the problem with not being vaccinated, and I’m really looking to fix it. I’m just looking for some comforting words I guess.

It’s the fact that Yoongi and Jimin are short, but they still stand 6 inches taller than me 😑😑

out of pocket for that shit