it's my drama. appreciate my flaws & learn from my mistakes. it's okay to cry your heart out but don't forget that there's always a second chance. be strong but don't forget to be yourself. you can be wild and carefree but don't forget to be serious at times. oh remember to laugh too! life is amazing and unfair at the same time... deal with it even if it's not the reality that you wanted!
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Yes, I Admit I Am SELFISH.
Yes, i admit i am SELFISH.
I always think of what is best for me. I only care about issues i am involved with. I want everyone's attention on me! I want my family and friends to always notice me. I am SELFISH. Is that enough? Do you want to know why i am like this? Why i am so SELFISH? Well then why don't you start showing that you really actually love and cares for me... Why don't you try telling me i am important to you... Why don't you say you're proud of me... Why don't you stop expecting me to be the perfect?? Should i stop being SELFISH? Let me ask you something... When will you start recognizing my little sacrifices? When will you be honest to me? When will you tell me i am enough for you and you don't expect me to be the best? When am I going to gain self confidence? Or how am i going to believe in myself when i don't even feel my importance because of you... Am i asking for too much? Am i not allowed to be like this? Should i blame it all to myself? I don't think so. Why? Cause you made me be like this. Yes, i hafta blame it you too. I need you to know what i really feel. You will never know the real me unless you start understanding my feelings... I just want you to acknowledge me, to love me, to tell me you are proud of me... And to be honest with you, until now i still don't feel it. You still don't understand me. You still don't know the real me... Now, tell me again why i should stop being SELFISH...
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i do not want to recieve another kind of this invitation because i dont want to say goodbye to anyone… Gawd i want to go to his memorial service so i can at least bid him a proper goodbye but i dont think they will expect me there to think that i am not close with him at all… I hope you are happy up there. I know you are with God and the angels and saints now… Be my angel too. this just made me sad again. I wished the notification i will get from him is a post saying ‘how are you?’ or even ‘who are you?’… Not an invitation to his memorial service. I regret not making a move to be one of his friends. He would have been a good best friend. Gawd i still cant believe he passed away already… Im going to miss you, my Blue :’(
waiting for nothing.
AAAAAHHHHHHH! maloloka ako ng wala sa oras! para akong tanga na nag-aantay sa wala... sana man lang sinabihan mo ako na hindi ka na ulit magpaparamdam para naman at least nakapaghanda ako... Nahuhurt kasi ako ngayon eh. Di ko alam kung ung puso ko ba ung nahurt or ung pride ko lang... Sana lang pag nagparamdam ka ulit you'll stop treating me like we're really close and acting so nice to me again kasi baka next time mahulog na talaga ako sa iyo. Baka bigla na lang ako makapagdecide ng basta basta... and tell you what i really feel about you. I think di mo magugustuhan yun. So please, wag ka na lang bumalik and let me stop this confusion habang maaga pa. Fuck i think i am screwed!!! Tanginang pag-ibig yan!!!
Snape's one true love.
Yeah you can tell that i just watched the final part of the Harry Potter series. And this for me is one ofthe best movies i saw. This part of the series is what i liked the most. It was on the part where Snape’s flashback of his ‘love story’ that caught my attention the most. I wonder if that kind of love does exist?… Where can i find a selfless man like Snape in this lifetime? Do they even exist? Gawd i cant help it but feel sorry for him... but i am also very grateful to him for being such a kind man. He showed what love is. He protected the son of the only woman he loved. That for me is true love. for a man like him, who sacrificed and became selfless even though he doesnt have to. I salute Professor Snape with all my heart. How i wish there are other people like him in this world. I bet our world will have a better future if people like him exists.
Paulit-ulit lang??
Gosh anu ba ang gusto mong iparating sa akin talaga?? You were there again. I was being the stupid me again. I was crying... begging for your love as usual. I was hurting. I was hugging you, asking the same question over and over again... "Why cant it be me? Why?"... I know its impossible for you to even notice me but why do you keep on coming back in my 'place'?! Why do you keep confusing me with my feelings?! We both know that it will end up just like before. And in that moment... I saw myself crying again coz just like before... you said you cant love me. You told me i cant be the one for you. I am tired. I dont want to see this happening again. I dont want to let a single tear fall just because you hurt me again. This should end now... But i dont know how... I am not ready yet. But i feel like it should happen... I'll make sure it will happen. Sooner or later i'll end up accepting it anyways... It'll hurt but i'll get used to it. I know for sure you dont even care. And its not an issue to you at all... All im asking is to know the truth from you personally. When will that time come?? Idk when exactly. But i'll try to be prepared. When am i going to have the courage to 'talk' to you again?? I hafta end this.