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@respectthepetty @pangzi @heretherebedork @inonetoomanyfandoms @prapaiwife @bird-inacage @bibimbinge @clairedaring @sagegreeny @dimplesandfierceeyes

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thanks @sherrymagic for tagging me 😘

rules: without naming them, post 10 gifs of your favorite TV shows, then tag 10 people

I haven't done one of these in so long wow; most of these will be anime bc show-wise that's what I tend to consume!

just for fun, if some of my more active mutuals would like to do this: @errorkey @darkhoneybrowneyes @doublel27 @pondphuwin @dramalets @writtenendings @itoldsunset @purplew @sweatysock @theglimmmertwins

It's the way they love each other and the comfort and the quiet moments together, the way we get to see a glimpse into the comfort they can share and the tenderness at the heart of everything. (Fang can lean fully on Tan and Tan is quiet in his love when they are alone together, quiet and sweet and giving Fang exactly what he wants and Fang can even ask for what he wants, for his hair to be stroked, for more love and it's so perfect.)

LISTEN! While I was reading kimkenta smut (as one does 😂) my only though is that KENTA WOULD HAVE A PRAISE KINK! IF YOU THINK DIFFERENTLY YOU CAN FIGHT ME!!!

AND SO DOES PAT!!!

(And I might too, but that's a story for another day 🤭)

Oh help me, such an open display of affection. I think I just died.

one major thing ive had to learn about my pain and fatigue is that overexertion does NOT result in more sleep. a healthy person might have a busy, physically active day and then have a really good sleep as a result. When I do this, I can’t fall asleep at all, and i’m often in terrible pain. So I end up being miserable twice, first when I pushed myself past my limits, and second from the resulting pain and insomnia. So here’s my message to you, chronically fatigued person: don’t push yourself when you don’t have to.

okay but can we talk about fang. khaofang – this darling sweet elder brother fang – who doesn't know how to let himself be loved.

khaofang who doesn't think he can be loved because he's "too unreasonable" and "doesn't behave well." khaofang who was taught that love always comes with conditions. khaofang who is certain that everyone will leave the people they love – just like their parents did with phum.

khaofang, whose only wish is that tan offers him a warning before he leaves. if only so that he can prepare for what he sees as inevitable.

but he has tan. tan – this actual walking angel on earth tan – who knows that he is loved.

tan who is there every time fang needs him, ready to listen to his grievances and shower him in reassurance. tan who is unashamed of his love for fang, who will shout it from rooftops and whisper it in secret all the same. tan who promises fang a forever he never thought he deserved.

tan, whose only wish is that khaofang truly understands how cherished he is.

Fang really is so, so sweet and so, so in love and Tan might be louder about that love but that doesn't change how much Fang loves him back. Because Fang has never known unconditional love before this. Love has always come from being the Perfect Son, from always living up to his parent's expectation, from never complaining, from being the one who listened... but now he's loved for being himself. Tan shows Fang, every day, that you can loved for being yourself, faults and all.

And this is why he needs Tan. Why Tan's over exuberance and honesty are exactly what Fang needs in a relationship. Because he is sure he will be left behind. That any mistake he makes means that he will be left in the end, that he will be abandoned, that he is not worthy of being loved without being perfect. And Tan fights that with every laugh and every joke and every smile and everyone over the top moment as he jokes with him.

Tan knows more about Fang and Phum's past than most and he recognizes that in the man he loves and he recognizes that the man he loves? Needs big love, silly love, laughing love, joyous love, indulgent love, all that love he can give him.

Tan is just so full of reassurance and tenderness and love and it is exactly what Fang needs and deserves.

They love each other so much.

let’s see, how do I even begin to put this into coherent sentences…

it’s the way tan loves, loudly, proudly, shamelessly, and fang lets it heal the broken pieces inside him; it’s the way he lets himself be enveloped by tan’s protection even if it (outwardly) exasperates him. it’s the way fang reciprocates with his own acts of service, his quiet expressions of gratitude, and tan, who never expects anything in return, understands.

it’s the way fang smiles so freely, eyes twinkling and helplessly besotted to tan’s silly whims, when they’re alone, but also that he’s learning to be vulnerable out in the open, in front of their friends and in front of the world, for tan.

it’s the way tan is so quick to reassure fang of his unwavering feelings — that he’s content to just be in his presence, the confirmation that he will never leave him, his “I like every version of you” because it’s I see you and I know you and I love all that you are and all that you’re not.

it’s the way tan unabashedly worships the ground fang walks on, but fang has his own intimate altar of devotion that reveals itself more and more with each passing episode.

I will forever be in love with how tanfang love each other. they are so, so dear to me.

“I want to be both your safe zone and family”

Tan has a little puppy face next to this name in Fang's phone! And then Fang just keeps calling him because he didn't answer!? I love them so much. Fang's love is so fierce when he isn't being soft, a lot that worries and has high expectations because he's always had to hold himself to the highest, because he's the oldest son of parents who put their business above their children and so he's used to having to push to make himself heard or noticed but never, ever with Tan.

And I love this so much. Fang is obviously upset that Tan didn't answer and Tan doesn't get upset in return, he just instantly goes to check his phone to figure out wtf is going on.

Also just LOOK at that name in his phone! And the picture! They're so cute. And so sweet. And so damn smitten.

Tan takes the time to explain what happened and why and is so worried about Fang during it. Ugh, the way they care for each other is just so BIG. It's so evident that they're the center of each other's hearts and how much they're used to having easy contact and to never waiting and it's WILD to see, honestly.

Tan is always ready to fight for his boyfriend! You don't fall in love with someone for punching you by hesitating to fight. But even more important is just how he reads Fang, sees he's upset and instantly starts offering to help him with whoever is bothering him. And if you don't think Tan would punch himself in the face for Fang... you think wrong.

And absolute baby of a man who has never imagined his beloved's weaknesses or insecurities because all he sees is how much he loves him.

All reassurance from here, nothing but, the sweetness and the love and the humor that binds them together because Tan uses humor for everything and Fang needs that. He needs to be shown it's okay to be silly and to unwind and to laugh and to love regardless of how hard the day has been or how much you just want to be mad. Sometimes, you need silliness.

Another entry for the 'Fang only smiles this way for Tan' collection. Because sometimes love is a smile that shows your teeth when you'd never do that for anyone else.

you know what gets me about tanfang? it’s the way we can see fang express his insecurities only for tan to immediately dispel them without even realizing he’s doing it

fang worries that it’s boring for tan to always spend time watching him work when he could be with his friends. and tan responds with the fact that sitting and watching fang work is relaxing for him. that he loves looking at his cute boyfriend all the time

fang feels that maybe tan finds it weird or cringy when he acts soft and affectionate towards him. tan responds with how much he likes every version of fang and that the soft side of fang feels like it’s for special occasions, makes him feel bubbly inside

fang misguidedly takes his school frustrations out on tan and feels frustrated with himself for it. tan assures him he’s not unreasonable and does something to lighten fang’s mood

and none of these things feel like tan has to go out of his way convince fang that he means them because tan wears his heart on his sleeve when it comes to fang and he can see that tan is saying these things so easily because every word is 1000% true for tan

tan is just being his affectionate and bright self and probably doesn’t even realize that his sometimes over-the-top and cheesy lines actually mean so much for fang and i CRY

why would you like media that is good if you can like media that is bad instead and pace around your room like an insane person thinking about What If It Was Good

TO THE PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT FANG DOESN'T LIKE TAN!!! ARE YOU BLIND?!!! ARE YOU?!! 🙄

FANG FEELS SO MUCH MORE AT EASE AROUNG TAN!!! HE LOVES TAN!!! AND HE LOVES BEING LOVED BY TAN!!! 🔊 🔊🔊

IS FANG INTROVERTED? YES! IS HE A BIT INSECURE? MAYBE.

IS TAN LOULD? YES! IS HE A BIT OVER THE TOP? YES! DO I LOVE IT? YES! 😅 AND MOST IMPORTANTLY FANG LOVES IT!!! 😂

TAN BEING LOULD AND OVER THE TOP ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVES FANG IS WHAT MAKES FANG SO AT EASE BECAUSE FANG NEVER HAS TO QUESTION TAN'S FEELINGS FOR HIM!!! 🤦‍♀️

AND BEING LOVED LOOKS SO GOOD ON FANG!!! 🥰

DO NOT INSULT MY BABIES!!! 😡

It's no joke when we say "The Lita Brainrot"  is real like I swear no other show has come close to making me as obsessed as this ONE series ! Paisky has ruined me for GOOD. Their story was perfect despite all it's flaws infact I think it was these flaws that made it perfect for me ! Ofcourse I have watched other shows but NONE has captured my heart the way this show has ! 🥹🥹 I have lost count of how many times I have rewatched this show. Countless edits I have made for them and I still want to make more. 🥹🥹😍 I can talk about Pai and Sky forever 😭😭😭 Their magic was one of a kind and to know that this was Fortpeat's first series together makes me all the more emotional and now we are getting their 2nd series in like 10 days and Iam so excited to feel their magic on screen after 2 freaking years 🥹🥹😭😭

There's something about Fang being constantly overprotective of Phum and the way he worries about him and his tiny injury and the way Tan distracts him but also the way Tan reflects that protectiveness back onto Fang and shows him love the same way he shows love to the most important person in his life and the way Fang smiles the most with Tan but also the way he's admitted that love to Phum but told him not to tell Tan but Tan knows, Tan knows and so he protects Fang. (He doesn't try to protect Phum because Phum has Fang and doesn't need more but Fang needs Tan and his protection and his tenderness.)

Wouldn't be cool if there was a thriller where every 10 years a person dies in the exact same way and it's been going on for so long that all the investigators and police forces believe that originally it was one killer and then over the years there's several different copycat killers because all of the victims dying the in the exact same way. But it ends up being one vampire; the vampire tries not to kill humans for blood and it restrains itself a while, but every 10 years or so they get so hungry and then lose their sense of self control that they actually end up killing a person. And so for the last thousand years is just that one vampire committing killings all around the world (since they can't stay in one place otherwise people would realize something's up).

And it would be so cool if at first it's just written in a one-shot-style of all the different crime scenes, and then it went to the POV of the main character who is an investigator. Also, if the investigator wasn't the team leader of the investigation team, because then it would allow for more exploration of the power dynamics; Power dynamics that just operate within that specific investigation team and then power-dynamics that operate within the entire police force, especially in situations with a higher-ups don't believe in vampires.

Or, there could just be a series of missing people all over the world instead of dead people. Missing because the main vampire has turned all of its victims into other vampires, and the victims would have had to run away from their homes because the main vampire told them that the humans would kill them if they found out that the victims were no longer human.

E.g All the Twilight vampires were initially missing people, and Carlisle Cullen being the main vampire.

Maybe if he was a little less fuckable we wouldn’t be in this mess

I love love love people who talk during movies/shows!!! Oh, you have a theory about what is going to happen?! You want to do a character breakdown?! Please do!!! I can read subtitles and listen to you ranting at the same time!!! Better yet, let's pause the movie!!! You hate this character, why do you hate them?! You love this character, why do you love them?! Tell me!!! I don't tend to rewatch movies/shows but I will if you want to watch it with me and tell me what you think about it!!! You think this show is boring?! Tell me why?! How would you make it better?! You love this show?! Tell me why!! I want to know!!! (This rant may have been inspired by me reading @respectthepetty part-by-part reaction to LITA's prapaisky. Whoops. 😂)

Pride Petty Watch - LiTA (Sky/Prapai) 2/3

It took me much longer than expected to make it through the first two episodes of Sky x Prapai's arc in Love in the Air, but Prapai called Sky his boyfriend out of nowhere, so now I understand that he is Manifest Destiny-ing his way to love, and for the non-Americans, that's bad. Like real bad.

Let me be like Prapai and keep marching forward even though all the signs are telling me to stop.

In my first year of teaching, I was told I couldn't want the grade more the student did. I was reminded that some students don't want A's. Some students just want to pass the course, and that's fine. I need to take that approach with Prapai because he held Sky while he clung to him and cried for the nightmares to leave him in peace, yet in the morning, Prapai slings it back in Sky's face and makes it callously sexual. Clearly, Prapai doesn't want points for Slytherin. He does not want an A in decency. He does not want to pass "Go" on the board. Whatever he wants is between him and the demons he is fighting because obviously this ho does not want to be saved.

"Let me help you" - Look at that! As soon as you let men go, they wanna come back correct. Asking to help instead of forcibly inserting himself. Wow! So you are capable of not making everything aggressively sexual?

I'm watching you like a fucking hawk, Slytherin, which if you want to pass this course, you will note that hawks eat snakes, so basically I'm telling you I will devour you whole if you make another wrong move.

"That's all I ask," he says as he asks for EVERYTHING. "I will not restrain myself next time." "You cannot escape me." "Has he blocked this number?" Sky, babe, hon, bestie, rob this fucking man in his sleep. Take the watch off his wrist, the money from his wallet, and the audacity out of his mouth. These are the queer wrongs I'm trying to support this month.

"You should be spanked" - So 🙃 . . . IGNORING THAT! As a lifelong member and advisor of Greek life (fraternities and sororities are different for BIPOC), every time I see these university rituals, I always wonder what is the equivalent of a compliance officer in other countries because This. Is. Hazing.

And now Payu and Prapai are just hanging out at university activities like THEY DON'T GOT JOBS! Payu has a room in a garage, a room at his house with a toy car collection, and a terrified mechanic hiding under cars, so the man has got bills. Prapai has companies (plural) to run, and an overworked and rightfully annoyed (always in red) secretary holding down the fort, yet he is on a little vacay. Women in GLs - big bosses and screwing at work on company time. Men in BLs - FORGETTING THEY HAVE JOBS!

*Regina George has entered the chat* So you agree? You think you're a bad guy to Sky?

Every time Payu or Prapai mentions getting a reward (for not assaulting the boy they are chasing after especially when that boy is in a vulnerable position), I think of the conversation between Uea and King in episode five (part one) of Bed Friend when King asked for a reward and Uea said "The fuck you just say? Get outta here with that noise" then he left. Uea would eat these men alive.

The thinnest of ice, Prapai. I can see the freezing water rushing underneath. That's how thin the ice is that you are on, sir.

Because Prapai is confessing to sleeping with three other people since he began stalking Sky (no shame, as one slut to another, I'm actually very proud he admitted to it), can we get a STI test? We got condoms, so miracles can happen.

*squints* Is that a heart on your chest, Sky? No, I'm not angry. No, you're not in trouble. No, you're perfect. I'm just working through my own stuff, so I'm gonna need a minute to process this.

If you wanna live that chismosa life, you gotta be aware of your surroundings. Amateur.

Yeah yeah yeah, the wind needs the windmill or whatever dumb shit Dangerous Romance said. Now go make the lapel pin of it, and GET BACK TO WORK! This reeks of nepotism because there is no other way you would still have a job.

Prapai calls Sky by his name, no honorifics. Prapai sleeps on the floor. Prapai asks his mom for advice on how to care for someone. *squints* This is sus af.

And now he is swerving advances and doing his job. *squints even harder* Are you actually trying to pass this course now?

I, too, would be sad if rope was spewing out of my shirt like that.

Prapai just swindled a key to Sky's apartment without asking Sky for it. WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO FUCKING PASS THIS COURSE?! I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOUR ASS AGAIN NEXT SEMESTER!

I play with my ears when I get tired, so now I feel even more connected to you Sky, and PRAPAI IS KISSING YOU?! NOOOOO! STOP!!!!! HE'S TIRED! LEAVE MY BOY ALONE!

"I can't guarantee your safety if I stay" - It was a fake out, and I have lost years off my life because of this show. YEARS!

The first step is admitting you have a problem are the problem. *growth*

I'm not going to question the aerodynamics of riding with that project on a bike, but I will state that Prapai is the prefect example of the MAME Extremes I wrote about in the previous post because when he is good, he is really fucking good, but when he is bad, he is The Worst™ so can't we just find an in-between?

Don't you go pointing your scrawny finger at my boy like that! You're lucky he even still speaks to you. Shut up, five! A ten is thinking!

Prapai spending all his money on Sky. Prapai deleting all the numbers from his phone. Prapai getting the lapel pin. Prapai cleaning Sky's apartment. Prapai being honest about wanting Sky without being aggressive or crass. *squints so hard my head hurts* This is how Joe must feel with Ming in My Stand-In because I want to trust your ass, but my God, do you make it so fucking hard. I'm begging you to not screw up after this. PLEASE!

I've seen this scene eighty different ways from my dash, but hearing Sky tell Prapai to get bored with him quickly so he can move on while internally begging for Prapai not to get bored knowing what I know about his ex . . . it is salt in the wounds, poison in the wells, and the phone call from within the house. It is painful, deadly, and terrifying.

Prapai listening tentatively as Sky finally tells him what he actually likes to eat. Prapai responding with little tidbits he has learned about Sky along the way. Prapai giving shoulder kisses. Prapai asking about the ex. To quote RuPaul, "don't fuck it up"

Sig is the realest of all these boys, and I would give him the softest ear bites, the best thigh kisses, and the most amazing blowjob because that's what he deserves!

Prapai - Claim me. Own me. Mark me!

Sky - Gross.

While all of Payu's after scenes only made him look worse as he embraced the Manipulate-Mansplain-Malewife way into Rain's heart, all of Prapai's scenes make him seem like the biggest simp, and I am, once again, pleading for balance!

So now on to the next episo - - -

Wait a minute . . . I know this scene

This is where Sky gets in his head and distances himself, so Prapai breaks in and reads the journal. Oh no. Oh no no no.

*lays face first in a field of lavender*

I need liquor, ice, and a blender. They are all needed for different reasons. No, I will not elaborate.

Pride Petty Watch - LiTA (Sky/Prapai) 1/3

The crowd picked Love in the Air as the first show to ever move off of my Petty List, so I'm watching it and recapping my experience, and oh boy, is it an *experience*. I wrote about the first seven episodes in two parts [here and here], so it's time to dive into the next six episodes!

Woot woot!

I had to make sure I didn't click on episode one again because it's the same scenes showing again. This is the third time they have been shown? Fourth? I'm here for one thing and one thing only. Quit bullshitting LiTA and GIVE ME WHAT I CAME FOR!

Oh my God, my heart just jumped into my throat with this music and this lighting behind this devil.

I know how their story starts. I already knew. I will be not be upset at him. I will not get into my feelings about this even though this music and lighting are hellbent on making Prapai seem like The Worst™

I would love to claim "pink = 💕love💕" but not today, Satan.

Sky saying "Where's the condom?" as more of a demand rather than a question and the arch of his back are an appreciation post in themselves. This is transactional and he is not here to make friends.

WHY AM I BEING SHOWN RAIN AND PAYU AGAIN?! If you don't have enough material for thirteen episodes, just say it! Because my boy disassociated, went on autopilot, and is now tucking this nightmare away in a dark corner of his mind in true Trauma Compartmentalizing 101 fashion, yet I gotta see Payu and Rain's Daddy x Baby nonsense another round?! I only respect one person in this house and the rest of these men can choke. I wrote what I wrote.

Hold up, Prapai was AWAKE when Sky left looking like that? And now he is reminiscing about it in all black with that black rose of death lapel pin? *Arthur Fist*

I support queer rights AND queer wrongs, but this show is testing me like I'm fucking Frodo having to deliver a ring to the depths of hell in the month of Pride. Sky just went home and cried on his bed, while this woman is talking about getting over heartbreak because Prapai can't stop thinking about this one-night stand. I cannot be queer and *here* in these conditions with el diablo smirking every two seconds.

KinnPorsche, my old enemy, we meet again. Didn't think I'd see you here, but it tracks because where there is a rich bastard incapable of getting over the poorer man he wrongfully exerted power over, there will be a robe, wine, and a sex worker. (That boy looks like the Memory in the Letter lead)

"I feel sorry for your prey" - Everyone is too busy looking at the metaphorical weather that represents the characters to notice the red alert standing right there.

On God, if a man called me like that without telling me his name and proceeded to just . . . be creepy, it'd be on like Donkey Kong. I was raised by Sidney Prescott from Scream and if a man wants to play games over the phone, then he needs to be prepared to die. And what is it with this show trying to distract me with with these problematic men working out? I know they are attractive, but as Michelle Visage stated "stop relying on that body!" AND NOW CREEPY TEXTS, and the only thing Sky thinks is a "man like that wouldn't be into [him]" . . . BL boys would greatly benefit from feminism.

Prapai, you have to get less creepy. You just have to because this is not it, my man. You are throwing out the beginning-of-a-psycho-killer vibes and I cannot. I simply. Can. Fucking. Not.

Sky is pissed at Rain, threw the flowers, and has Prapai listed as "Psycho" so it's clear who has the brain cell of these weather boys, and it's the one whose back is hurting FROM CARRYING THE WEIGHT OF THE DAMN WORLD ON HIS SHOULDERS!

I will not be swayed by the sunflowers, the fact that Prapai is aware Sky is a Sad Boy, or the blue. As far as I'm concerned, by the end of this episode, Prapai is still the devil. NEXT EPISODE!

The energy between these two is giving me GMMTV "brothers," and that is not a compliment.

I'm not going to fault Sky for not throwing away the flowers because reuse, recycle, re-

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?!

*took a six hour break and contemplated the meaning of life, made an avocado smoothie then poured rum in it, started doing yoga then ended up in savasana, which means I just laid there and looked at the ceiling, and finally I remembered the gorgeous Zani is in this show, so I returned*

This boy is me and I am him. I'm so chill that if I got any cooler, I'd be an ice cube. Just chilling. So chill. The chill is immaculate. I am meditating. I am praying. I am one with the storm. I'm the chillest. Climate change no longer exists because I'm just, so, fucking, chill. ~Let's continue~

I don't want to give Prapai any credit because I already told my mom I hate him which means we are sworn enemies in this life and future ones as well, but him noticing that Sky spaced out even though he immediately jumped back into flirting mode, and him reinforcing that he thinks Sky is attractive in any state including this one should be an issue because he is still focusing on Sky's body, but he doesn't know Sky well enough to have anything else, so . . . one whole point for Slytherin, I guess.

Rain is not a real one and if Sky was a rapper, this in when he would have dropped the ultimate diss track cementing his place in academic rhetoric for all eternity. Even if I didn't know about his ex, I could have read that expression, but Rain? Once again, one brain cell, and Sky has it.

I want to give Prapai the points for the food, but he doesn't even know what Sky likes, so this is White Man Ambition at its finest. Thank goodness that Sky is throwing it awa-

NOT THE FUCKING RED AGAIN!

Dear Reader, I'm going to level with you here one and a half episodes into this arc: I now fully understand The Fuckery. I greatly appreciate the 126 people who picked this show because this is the perfect example of what I keep reading about a MAME series. The abrupt shifts between aggressive flirting, dick jokes, and trauma is jarring. I knew the kidnapping was coming for Rain, but hearing Stop say that Rain would be sexually assaulted by his gang of men if Payu didn't stop fighting back was the most violent moment of an already physically violent event that, strangely, did not affect me until that very moment. I know what is coming for Sky, yet having these intercuts of Sky's abuse, although effective, are humbling in a way I was not expecting. Because what I had thought I was walking into was a trashy watch with gratuitous sex talk and some drama, but what I'm experiencing is a lot of emotional discord as the story swings between extremes while refusing to balance itself out. There is no middle ground in this show. I will continue to be petty about this watch, but I get it now in a way I was never going to grasp without watching one of her series and I'm graciously realizing I would not have survived TharnType because even as Prapai connects the dots that something *very bad* has happened to Sky based on his interactions with Sky, he smiles because . . . well, because.

So even though Sky and Prapai's arc is smaller than the first, my watch is going to be in three parts instead of just two because . . . well, because.

~Let's continue~

I'm going to try really hard to give Slytherin points here, *grinds teeth* so even though this man is stalking Sky, he gets credit for showing up, which according to the great philosophers, is half the battle. Also, I know his lapel pins are important, so the sunflower and the bee after he gave Sky meaningful sunflowers is a nice sentimental touch, but he gets no points because HE COULD'VE OFFERED THE BOY A RIDE! The perfect pitch was right there, yet he swings and misses.

I don't listen to true crime podcasts, but I feel confident that most cases start with a stalker using several devices to contact their victim after his primary mean is blocked. Basically, I need Prapai to do as Sky's shirt says and "CHILL THE FUCK OUT!" I'm trying to give him points but he refuses to exhibit any level of chill. None. No chill. Not ice cube. Just sad hot puddle of zero chills.

I felt *something* between Sig and Som when they were arguing across the tables in episode seven, but now I know Sig is trying to instigate a fight with Som just so he can have that boy's hands around his neck. I respect it.

Sky is having a breakdown because of the onslaught of texts Prapai keeps sending him from multiple devices and as he huddles in the fetal position begging to be left alone having bursts of anger, the phone begins to vibrate signaling more texts are coming through. The director, Ne, also served as an editor on Only Friends, and if he whispered in Jojo's ears to make Ray's bathtub scene just as gut-wrenching as this, I just wanna eat some soup with Ne and know like "You good, boo?"

I am fighting for my life in these trenches!

Rain picked up Sky's phone and told Prapai to come to the hospital. Rain? Rain who was on his knees begging for Sky's forgiveness after he gave Sky's number to Prapai? As in the Rain who was told to stay out of Sky's business? Like the same Rain who Sky looked in his face and told him he would never be with Prapai? THE RAIN WHO IS NOW GIVING PRAPAI THE KEY TO SKY'S APARTMENT?! That Rain?!

"I made a promise to Rain" - Pero like . . . why do you have to make promises to not fuck with unconscious and sick people? Cause shouldn't that be a given? No? Mmm. Interesting development.

I have only watched two episodes. TWO! I'm not even halfway through this AND I know how this ends. No amount of knowledge or spoilers has properly prepared me for this journey, and now I'm scared and I want my mom to come pick me up.

But here I am. Clicking on the next episode.

pinche cabrón

I would really like Moo and Gun to meet! And Tinn and Kang to meet! The chaos that would ensue!!! 😂😂😂

Moo is the perfect bl lead. he is genuine, honest, kind, self aware, flirty, corny and owns it, wants to openly talk all problems out, a walking ray of sunshine and the most gay teen boy ever. i love you Moo

Fiction.

"We are not fiction,

Fairytales don't exist"

We are not fiction,

We don't get a

Happily ever after,

Just because we

Want it.

I can't

Be loved unconditionally

Just because i want to be,

For we both know

That that type of love doesn't exist.

Likewise,

You can not

Wish to love me

For we both know

That we are not meant to be.

...

We are not fiction,

There are no rules

Of what can and

Cant be.

There is no

Rule saying that

You can't be

Loved unconditionally.

And that I cannot love you,

Just because you don't

Believe that you are deserving of so.

"We are not fiction,

Life doesn't follow a script"

Love Sea the Series: Trailer (Tongrak's Love Story with the Island and it's 'Ocean')

You know me, I'm back with another analysis. This time in response to the Love Sea trailer. As I was writing this, it led me to frame our two central characters' differing outlooks as follows. Let me explain.

Tongrak 'We're not a work of fiction, fairytales don't exist' Mahasamut 'We're not a work of fiction, life doesn't follow a script'

STRONGER THAN FICTION

"Didn't I tell you, I don't believe in love. I don't believe. It's not even real to me. Between us, there's nothing more than sex." What seems to fundamentally scare Tongrak is the very idea of love itself. A belief that prevents him from accepting that anyone could love him, or that he has the capacity to love anyone in return. Because love is a construct. A fantasy. A work of fiction. Love to Tongrak is just a fairytale, it's not rooted in reality. The passages of love in his novels could never truly imitate life.

So understandably he begins to feel shaken when his relationship with Mahasamut challenges everything he thought to be true. That what he's experiencing is in fact inspiring his writing. Because it surpasses fiction.

"Everything is up to you to decide. You can pay me as much as you want. But what you can't decide on paper, is that you can't make me stop loving you. You have no right to do that." Mut seems to insinuate that as an author, Tongrak is used to controlling the narrative. This is where he feels most safe, until Mut came along and threw that into jeopardy. Here, Mut seems to declare that he isn't just some character in Tongrak's story. Nor are his feelings. He has agency. Their feelings for one another aren't just lines on paper. Real life does not operate in this way, it veers off script. That's the beauty of living. Mut's life is one dictated by the elements. One that teaches you to be resilient, to take what life throws at you by embracing the curveballs. And love is no different.

A TRANSACTIONAL AGREEMENT

Tongrak offers to pay Mut initially as a means to get him off his back. "How much do I have to pay you, to stop you bugging me?" This is then used increasingly as 'a convenient excuse' that escalates as the plot ensues. I predict that Tongrak continues the guise of paying Mut as a pretence to spend time with him.

By doing so, Tongrak is creating a false of security that is twofold. One, that he's able to keep Mut by his side as long as he pays him. Two, convincing himself that Mut's motivations are driven by financial benefit. Framing this as a transactional relationship means Tongrak doesn't have to face what is developing beneath the surface. This also instils an illusion that he can procure the outcome he wants, which is to keep Mut by his side.

As Tongrak's feelings grow, this becomes an even flimsier front. "How much do I have to pay, if I want to take you to Bangkok with me?" You can hear how desperate he sounds. Whether it's a matter of pride or otherwise, Tongrak seems inclined to attach his request to an incentive. He may be too afraid to confront the possibility that Mut could willingly leave his life behind for him - because that would be out of love and not monetary gain. So Tongrak gives Mut a reason to do so. A reason he deems fit. One he can live with. I think Mut can see through this too, and plays into the whole charade, but ultimately all Tongrak would have to do is ask. "I'm willing to be your dog." (Just say the word).

"If someone who is not highly educated like me understands, between the two of us, there is nothing more than an agreement, right?" Even if Mut is very emotionally mature, and plays along to make things easier for Tongrak to swallow - Tongrak is still trying to deny feelings they share which have long gone past just an 'agreement'. (You do feel something for me though, right? This is just smoke and mirrors but you do care about me, right?)

THE FEAR OF DEPENDENCE

In the latter segments, Tongrak displays evident dependence on Mut. It's as if Mut's aid in his survival on the island has now imprinted on his life as a whole. Tongrak gradually embraces the guide that Mut is, to lead him on an adventure with no particular destination. There's every possibility that this is what Tongrak was afraid of. Of relinquishing control. Perhaps hesitant to do so in the hands of someone younger, more boisterous and seemingly carefree. Someone he wrote off as a "dumb kid" with little substance.

The diving scene could very well be a metaphor for this. Tongrak agrees to do something that requires trust in Mut's expertise, by putting his own safety in Mut's hands. And when he does run into trouble, Mut is there to literally bring him back to life. He begins to recognise that Mut is a man of responsibility, someone he can rely on.

There have been hints that Mahasamut is also going through his own battle with loneliness or isolation. Fort says "and now Tongrak is by your side, you are not alone." MAME also comments that "Mut is the guy who is as strong as a castle. The wind and waves can't hurt him. But Fort proved that a strong man can cry." I think that as Tongrak starts to realise how much comfort and reassurance Mut provides him, he'll want to return the favour. How can he be that same emotional support for Mut to lean on?

What we're about to see is not just Tongrak's love story with Mahasamut, or 'an island', but a whole other life he may have never lived, had they never met. Mut's interception into his life is rewriting the narrative he had consciously or unconsciously dictated for himself.

Note: As with any of my metas, I am basing my interpretations on what I have seen alone. I haven't heard any spoilers from the novel.

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(I am OKAYYY I am definitely not insane about this ! I definitely havent watched it a infinite amount of timesss like a totallyyy normal person)

If you tell me that nanon is not a cat, then you are a liar!

The way Garfield looks up like a cat lol 😭😂