I've Developed Somniphobia Gradually Within The Past Year Or So, But It's Gotten Horribly Bad Recently.

I've developed Somniphobia gradually within the past year or so, but it's gotten horribly bad recently. I get sleep paralysis occasionally and night terrors most nights- I have BPD and dream about my worst triggers and life experiences consistently.

Any other Borderline or Somniphobic people have tips? I'm getting pretty exhausted asking people to stay with me and sobbing uncontrollably when they have to leave.

Continuing to live for the sake of my friends, when all I want is to finally go home and see Jesus and be at peace, is the hardest thing I have to do. And I do it every single day.

So if you're on my list of people worth living for, please never doubt that I love you.

Never doubt that you're special 🖤

@foxtale-the-novisolant @betadeku @funnyartthingz

Nobody ever talks about how selfless it is to choose, over and over again, to not commit suicide. Nobody ever acknowledges the tremendous sacrifice suicidal people make every time we choose not to kill ourselves. When a person who is suffering so horribly that death seems like their best option decides not to take their one way out, and to instead remain in hell, day after day, month after month, year after year, because they don’t want to hurt the people they love, they are doing something extraordinary. Not killing yourself when it’s all you want to do is the purest act of love I can imagine. Dying for someone is easy - you don’t have to deal with any of the consequences, you have your moment of nobility and then it’s all over. But living for someone, when the simple fact of consciousness is literal torture for you? Every single suicidal person who ever made a choice to not kill themselves in a moment of misery is a goddamn hero in my eyes. Wanting to die and still surviving is an act of titanic courage and self-sacrifice. We deserve more credit for it.

ONE DAY YOU’LL BE WASHING YOURSELF WITH HAND SOAP IN A PUBLIC BATHROOM

PLEASSSEEE

Should I flex and show y'all my TFB merch collection after work I have been getting so many shirts (hottest thing a man could have)

I am learning that boxes do not make you complete. Placing a title on your life does not prove that you deserve to live it. It will not prove that you belong. You do not belong. Few do. This world is not our home.

Boxes are prisons. Don't be their prisoner.

Defy their expectations. Break free.

There's nothing wrong with you.

They simply fear what they cannot label.

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You do not have to prove that you deserve to exist. You can simply exist. You deserve life. Do not resent your own breath.

Thanks 🖤

A little reminder that the "scary" neurodivergents belong in the community too. The ones with intrusive thoughts. The ones who seem self-centered.

The people with ocd, bpd, npd. Stuff like that. They belong here too.