Do You Have A Problem You Can Tell To No One Irl Because You Fear Their Judgement?

Do you have a problem you can tell to no one irl because you fear their judgement?

I do.

(And it kinda makes me crazy because I do need advice and emotional support

...but I'm just keeping it to myself for the moment to try and wait it out)

But truly, it IS a lonely feeling.

To be surrounded but to have no one to go to.

But sometimes,

It can also be because of your own sense of insecurity

That you don't talk to them

Or out of shamefulness

Because you know you are the source of the problem.

Friday, 16th of August / Vendredi 16 août

Those last few days I have posted nothing and it's normal.

I was just taking some time for myself, trying to disconnect from my phone and taking care of myself.

I just so happened to suddenly relapse in all of my bad habits and was not doing well mentally, but today it's alright.

I still have hope that my efforts weren't wasted by one very bad day. I will keep going and trying my best.

Let's not give up.

(I will take my time and not force myself to post, I just need a break from my phone to focus on the real life things that are important to me. Will probably update soon)

Anyway, stay well y'all. I hope that on your growth journey, you will not let yourself be beat down by one bad day or event.

Keep going, efforts build up, they are never wasted.

And let's have hope in the future.

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Normalize being kind & supportive for no reason

Sunday, 4th of August / Dimanche 4 août

Today I had soooo much fun.

We had a barbecue with my family, so we got to the parc, ate good meat, and I played frisbee.

Night quickly came and we were still outside.

Towards the end, we made the children go home, so it was just the older ones outside, it was so chill; we just talked and had a good time.

I am now very tired and will immediately go to sleep, in the hope of waking up early tomorrow (because during the holidays I tend to sleep till 12 and I want to change that)

Anyway, good morning, good evening and goodnight!

We will see how much I can accomplish tomorrow, with my first step being "waking up early" .

Bisou bisou <3

(Btw, yesterday I watched Inception and I am not the same person since, 100% recommend)

Saturday, 3rd of August / Samedi 3 août 2024

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I think today is going to be an alright day.

I just need to disconnect from my phone and move myself.

Less than a month left until school starts again, I want to improve myself before that and gain more happy memories and experiences.

Thursday 8th of August / Jeudi 8 août

I will try to describe my day in a more organized manner

Work/Focus: I focused for an hour today, did some sudokus, my focus isn't that bad, and the more I do sudokus, the better I become at it.

Since at the start of summer, I tried to slowly stop my scrolling consumption, I definitely did get better, mentally, physically, cognitively.

I literally feel like I got freed of my addiction to scrolling and short-form content, like I got back my control over myself and what I do and Im definitely happier like that.

Obviously, it's not perfect but the fact that I don't have urge to scroll anymore, the fact that I gained back my clarity of mind, the fact that I can focus half an hour without needing to be distracted or needing a shot of dopamine says a lot about how I improved just by cutting back from this destructive habit.

So I'm happier and proud because I actually did improve on my worst point.

(Because of this addiction I even failed this year's exams for my degree at uni, just so you know bad it was)

Health: ate pretty healthy, (apart from the burger and fries at 11pm), also walked a lot outside before and after that, 5000 steps

Main event: Tried to work on myself by doing actual work as said previously.

Then I visited some cousins with my family, I played Minecraft, it recalled me my childhood, I want to play that game again now.

Then, with my brother and the 2 cousins my age, we got outside at night, it was 11pm and we decided some fast-food would be good.

It was a short fun trip at night (it was so fun, I now have a good memory for life).

So we go out, it's dark, 11pm, we drive to a fast-food, buy burgers and fries and enjoy the meal over some talking. It was delicious.

Then we drove a bit more around the place where they live with loud music in the car.

And when we got home it was late.

My mother was waiting for me and my brother to come back so we could go home, we had to go by foot since we didn't have a car that would fit all my family.

It was a short walk; 15 minutes at most, they don't live far from us, it's one small neighborhood away and it's pretty safe (I live in a nice place in France so it's alright)

So we go home then, my small siblings are singing random things during the whole walk.

There's literally no one else around so we can run around, race, take poses on the road to take picture. We were just enjoying.

When we finally get home, it's 1 am.