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💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome :p💌 /np

Awww, you're so lovely o(≧▽≦)o

Thanks, now I'm going to have a good day hehe ✨️✨️🫶

Check this out happiness seeking people, might help:

And also wanted to precise that I don't think happiness is an emotion but more of a state which is less or more stable

https://www.tumblr.com/theambitiouswoman/761258117233295360/dopamine-givers-moving-your-body-sun?source=share

just remembered that happiness is only an emotion and not something i can ever achieve as a permanent state no matter how many milestones reached or goals achieved it is only ever going to be an emotion that comes and goes ! No matter WHAT!

I think happiness is being neutral most of the time.

Like feeling a little and just appreciating the everyday mundane.

For me, this neutrality; or lack of negative emotions, is peaceful. It is and has always been the key to my happiness.

just remembered that happiness is only an emotion and not something i can ever achieve as a permanent state no matter how many milestones reached or goals achieved it is only ever going to be an emotion that comes and goes ! No matter WHAT!

Ow gosh, everything checks out

Wednesday, 11th of September 2024

Need advice dear people

I have questions:

How is it to fall in love with someone you knew for a long time?

How does it feel when you're first falling?

How do you make sure you're truly in love?

How do you act when you're in love?

How do you behave or feel?

I seriously need some people who know about this stuff.

I've been going through some strange things for the last few months.

If only my friends knew how much I think of them, talk about them or sometimes even dream of them.

They're this important to me.

Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vanessa Bell (August 1908)

There's something I need to get out before going to sleep:

I don't like people who always take their stress out on others.

I don't like people who always criticize and don't even try to understand other's choices and differences

I don't like people who only see the bad around them, especially in other people, completely ignoring everything that's positive and just harshly criticizing others

I don't like people who feel entitled to give you their opinion when it has not been asked

And don't like being yelled at because I don't agree or understand a stupid and irrational social rule

I saw that from today on, September 23rd 2024, they were only right 100 days left until January 1st, 2025.

So maybe it's a sign for me to actually work big and accomplish a lot towards my goals.

Exactly 😎

Me seeing y'all interact with your cool friends on Tumblr while I just use this app as a podcast to speak my intrusive thoughts :

Time to ✨️go to school✨️ (wish I had slept enough...)

sleepy

Thanks for the reminder, but I can't fall asleeeeep !

Well I will keep tryingggg

sleepy

Let's go to sleep and tell each other at what time we're in bed.

I'll start: 00h10

sleepy

༻`` 27 Mar 24 — Wednesday

100 days of productivity 70/100

Something threw my whole day off this morning but it didn't end up being as bad as I though it would be and Im feeling fine again. I read 100 pages of The Light That Blinds us by Andy Darcy Theo. Those are pretty much the most significant parts of my day today. I really need to start studying and get on with doing things.

☀️ 7.20 🌙 10.45

I've also got myself a quote arm ^^

'Agus fagamaid sur mar ata se' -And we will leave it as it is.

I want more so if you've got any favourite quotes/sayings/idioms/messages or ones that are meaningful to you, I'd love to read them 😊

|| ༻`` 18 Sept 24 — Wednesday

I wasn't overly happy in school today, at least not for the second half of it as I spent it alone and with a dying wrist.

My art study is coming along sooo well! I'm super proud of it! But it is taking a good while and so I'll work on getting it finished tomorrow. All of that is really hurting my wrist tho, especially as I'm using colouring pencils (and the next one I'm planning on doing will take just as long and hurt just as bad... but we'll get through it).

I was honestly quite worried about driving back from school today because I wasn't in a good mood at all and I know how I'm like at those times.. But luckily I did calm down 🦎 quickly after putting on my favourite singer before the drive.

I also kept my mind off of school later and got new glasses! My prescription almost doubled but the frames are so nice!! Plus I got a few comments about how nicely they suit me which gave me such a good boost of self-esteem 😊.

Later I ordered pizza for me and my mum, got the amazing idea of bringing a bottle of apple juice to the formal after party where most others will be brining alcohol, talked with friends and rewatched a Medusa animation. I didn't revise Chemsitry as planned but I got a reference and idea for another art study and finished my Math homework.

I'm happy with how my day went after school 🌷.

Day 0 clean (didn't even realise I was doing it at first and I'm not exactly sure why I got so upset but I did)

Day 0

Floor time ☑️ // 🍊

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

Wednesday, 11th of September 2024

Need advice dear people

I have questions:

How is it to fall in love with someone you knew for a long time?

How does it feel when you're first falling?

How do you make sure you're truly in love?

How do you act when you're in love?

How do you behave or feel?

I seriously need some people who know about this stuff.

I've been going through some strange things for the last few months.

GUYSSSS!!!!

The Sci Journal has been published!!!

Find it by searching: thescijournal.weebly.com unfortunately you do have to type out the whole thing rn, goggle doesn't show it with just 'thescijournal' quite yet

About the website:

"​What quickly grew to become a small community project, The Sci Journal is a place where students of any kind come together to share their interests and grow their love for research.

Once a month we will produce article entries aimed to inspire and educate based on a variety of science-related subjects such as astronomy, medicine, programming, and many more."

Our first article has been written by @becloudedsagacity about the immortal jellyfish and it is so so interesting!! (this is not just self promo— I geniuenly find it super interesting!)

I'm so so happy and proud and excited and omgggggg! Can't belive this has happened!!

I have been so blessed with your expression of interest and those that have helped with its creation or tools for it ❤️❤️ I would really appreciate if you could check out the website, see if its something you might be interested in (for either reading or also contributing to), and if you could reblog this to reach more people 💕

Our current (& amazing) team: @jasmine_008 @chefeader @breathing-soil @uncontrolledfission @qnamvnin @elu-xx @thecollapsingneutron @pharmagene @me-be-bubbles @myseniorliving @larstudy @chaotic-but-cute @becloudedsagacity @paramnesia9 @juneability @theamazinglilskate @sparklingstarr-tv @chaiandcuriosity @mikachem @scaryaxolotl @usuallyobsessedtumblr @nenelonomh @hyacinth-dancing-in-rain @nyxscave @studyobsessedgirlie

Thursday, 5th of September

I do feel good.

Even though I often relapse in my bad habits, I've been managing to improve more and more.

Failure is part of the process. So I keep going.

You may not realize it now, but your failures are also part of your growth.

Just don't give up.

Trust yourself, you're a big damn human being. We are capable of so much. What others can do you also can.

What others can study, you also can.

And if others can be happy, you also can.

Have trust in the world and in yourself.

Just dont give up, as long as you keep going, one day it will pay off.

I think life will eventually be alright

4th september, wednesday

Tuesday, 30th of August / Jeudi 30 août 2024

Well, august is about to end.

Here in France it means that school will start in a few days for young students. And a few weeks for university students.

This feeling that something is about to end kinda makes me sad.

I had lots of first times this summer and made so many memories.

Maybe this coming year of school will be better than my last (it couldn't even be worse anyway, for mental health reasons I failed all my exams).

Because of this bad experience I feel nervous, scared that it will happen again. But because I worked hard to improve this summer, I have hope that I can do better.

I've always been a good student until the last year, I can still do good, I just need to do the right things and have my life go in the right direction.

ANYWAY THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT;

GOOD NEWS; I PASSED MY EXAM.

It means that I can now start the practical lessons for my driving license, I will finally get to drive a car hahhahaha 😆.

I'm so happy.

I was kinda stressed, but today, when I was out with a very close friend, I got the results and immediately announced the news to my parents and closer friends.

They congratulated me, they're so precious ✨️🥺.

My mother was happy and same for my father, he also told me that he didn't dare ask me about it in case I failed and I was feeling bad about it.

He was worried, he's so precious.

That was surprising because usually, when I have tests and exams, they don't really give much care to it since I always manage to do well, they know they don't need to worry.

But well, since this one is to get a driving license, I guess they did give more care to it since it was a different type of exam.

I literally spent so many of my summer days working and they saw that.

I'm happy.

I think the reason I can feel this happy is because I managed to get rid of my dopamine addiction over time. It took so much time, struggles and failures but I sure did.

I feel more present and able to enjoy my daily life.

I stopped being so lazy and don't feel this mentally unwell anymore.

So maybe, life's not so hard in the end, I just needed to get back on track.

Get myself back together.

So I'm happy. And feel more connected to those around me.

I'm not really an emotional type of person, but right now, I feel like I have lots of love to give.

That's what you call happiness I guess.

That's it for today.

One advice for those who read this; no matter how many times you fail, keep trying to achieve your goals, failure is part of the process, we humans are strong, and nothing is impossible.

You will see results for sure. Don't despair and just keep making efforts.

That's it for today.

Have a good day or good evening.

Je vous aime, à la prochaine fois !

Wednesday , 28th of August

Today I took the theoretical exam for my driving license.

Kinda anxious, I don't know what the result will be.

Have to wait until tomorrow.

For the rest life has been good.

Managed to wake up early and be productive.

Did some stretches and worked out a bit.

"Fake dopamine" those are the perfect words to describe it.

source: zach progrob

Sunday 25 of August

Just me sharing some kinda random thoughts, good luck reading all that;

Writing takes time so I kinda took a break to have more time to work on myself.

So, those past few days have been great.

The key is really to get back up everytime you fail. There's nothing else that will help but being persistent in your efforts.

Anyway, 2 days ago I watched a video on YouTube that inspired me a lot. It was a girl that filmed herself throughout her teenage years and she put all those short videos into a long chronological one.

I felt nostalgic, it brought back this feeling of sweet childhood and the simplacity of life.

I deeply believe that by evolving, we humans have lost something essential; I couldn't describe it with simple words, but it's the fact that not being connected to the rest of the world makes you feel more alive in the moment.

Being able to enjoy the mundane everyday life. Getting to enjoy all the small things around; like time spent with family, friends, sharing a meal, getting interested in what's around, creating, enjoying hobbies, being proud of every small thing we did. Just being happy. I believe that this simplicity is partially the key to happiness, and we forgot it with the rise of social media, and this infinite content.

We're way too connected to a digital life to be able to enjoy our real one.

Anyway, that's just an opinion I formed with my personal observations and experiences.

What I wanted to say is that after watching this video (btw it's called "documented my teenage years" by Lili Saori), it brought out many feeling things from deep within my soul. It made me envy this simple happiness and joy I was able to have in the past.

So, I just decided to keep going in my process of self-growth. I also decided to disconnect a bit more from the digital world to enjoy more the present moment and my family.

I feel like it worked.

Those last few days, I did go out with my family, and I felt more joy those days than I used to, like a peace of mind. The more adequate way to describe it is that, It feels like since I'm curing myself from my addictions (like from phones and excessive dopamine) I gained back the ability to taste and feel the peacefulness and sweetness of life.

Which is why I've been feeling kinda euphorical those past few days.

I've also worked on my faith and I feel like God is helping me accomplish all of that. I always forget it, but everytime I go back to my faith and try to strengthen, I start to feel peaceful and fulfilled again, and everything else I try to do starts becoming easier to.

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Well enough for my thoughts.

Now what I actually did is that is that I studied and practiced my faith more.

I did no work concerning my driving license, I didn't feel like it so it was kinda a resting period to first heal the essential; which is my soul.

It wasn't at all perfect because I fell back into very bad sleeping and eating habits.

But you know, failing is a part of the process.

There are things I've been trying to improve on for such a long time, since we're so impatient we tend to change the change immediately, but it's a process so it comes slowly, with failures and successes.

After this reflecting time, I kinda had this clarity of mind where I figured out lots of things.

So suddenly I woke up after 4h30 of sleep, feeling super energized, after trying for an hour I couldn't go back to sleep so I just decided to work. I worked for 2h, and I feel very proud because I had lost my capacity to focus and work like that for a very long time.

Short form content had very badly messed me up. It's even the reason I failed almost all of my exams of this year, even though it's my first year of uni. Which is why I have to redo to year.

I was completely unable to study even though I used to be such a good student through all my school years, it made me feel so miserable. I don't want to go trough that again.

And school starts in 2 weeks again and I am scared of the same thing happening to me again, wanting to work but being unable to.

But I will do my best and swear to not let myself down again.

Anyway, I worked a lot, then slept again for 3 hours, and I woke up feeling very good.

I spent lot of time with family and felt kinda high on life.

Everything made me happy.

Talking to my parents, with my siblings, etc..

Because I'm usually so distant with them.

I love them but never show it. Like I have no emotional connection to them. But I do.

I'm just not a big feeler. But anyway, it's nice to feel truly happy again after such a long time of despair.

Being happy and having small moments of joy in between your struglles is not the same.

And after that, I also worked a whole lot again on my driving license.

I almost spent half my day on that.

I thing in 2 or 3 days, I will be able to take the exam and finally go to the practical step.

For the moment I'm taking the theoretical test and I have to learn all the rules and advices for learning, there were more than I hundred lessons I swear.

It makes me so excited to think that I will finally get to drive a car, (even though it's for learning for the moment.)

Well, that kinda was a long monoligue.

But writing has this healing effect on me.

The inside of my head is so unorganised, writing slows down this thought process and makes it more clear and organized.

It's a form of self-help.

Anyway.

If you read this, well done, that surely was not an easy or entertaining task, but I appreciate the time you've given to it.

Wish everyone the best.

Keep going. Efforts are accumulated and failing is part of the process. Just get back up and do not lose sight of your goals.

Nothing's impossible, just give it time and you will see your results.

Sending love, bye ! 👋 🩷

*boops your nose* send this to ten blogs you think are lovely and deserve a boop on the nose (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

Hehe, you are also lovely 🤭💗

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