Post Traumatic Manifesto Oc - Tumblr Posts
new tptm oc dropped
chat meet mirror girl (eyestrain warning)
(text: THERE'S NOTHING LEFT / I THREW IT ALL AWAY / WHEN I DECIDED TO BITE BACK)
i did that thing where you use only the shitty ibispaint default palette colors
her top and skirt are supposed to be reflective but i am NOT good enough to render that yet..... also this was just minimal rendering/sketch soooo :|
she has gloves and a high shock that resembles balljointed doll limbs so yeah thats what those are, and a choker for good measure
lore drop below cut (cw: self esteem/image issues, depersonalization, bullying/mistreatment)
so like.... her Deal(tm) is like struggling with self image, depersonalization and maltreatment from those around her. imagine her as like a mix of chemical girl and disposable girl.
the main issue, and what spawned her name is the self image and depersonalization. she looks in the mirror and she doesnt see herself. she just sees some. vessel. body. she doesnt see her soul when she looks into her own eyes. she just sees cold, dead irises like glass eyes on a porcelain doll. a disconnect near impossible to describe.
the way she's treated doesnt help. she's treated incredibly horribly, often only being treated nicely when people want something from her. played with like a toy and then discarded over and over. even though she was normally kind, after awhile, that kind of shit starts to wear. time passed, she got bitter. and as she got bitter, her image got worse. she started to seek more and more attention, good and bad, lashing out at people, and becoming more of a shell than she was before. at this point she's nothing more than a pretty doll. placed in front of a plastic vanity to gaze at her lifeless reflection for hours on end.
i'll make a carrd or fake profile for her eventually but here's the info that she'd put on there:: - 23, she/it - hpd, bpd... probably more - in love with anything shiny and retro as well as dolls
blinkies:
last seen listening to: One of Repetition by Nekomushi
quote: ☆ did you know the liberty bell is a replica? ☆
i'll write up the journal entry when i make her mockup page
edit: horribly done icon
the kanji in the background is kagami / 鏡 which means mirror