Kind Of Revisiting An Old Thought Here For A Bit, Because Its Struck Me Once Again How Intense And Unfathomable

Kind of revisiting an old thought here for a bit, because it’s struck me once again how intense and unfathomable Vishnu’s love for Lakshmi really is; even if their relationship is occasionally fucked.

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the feminine urge to mourn lost cultures and empires. for your heart to ache every time you remember how many languages no longer have speakers, how many ruins are abandoned, how many people lived happy lives before you. to feel melancholy and longing every time you study history - of this world or another, even fictional. to want to play a role in history, but in the same time fear dying, passing, being forgotten like those thousands before you.

Not Ramayan being about sacrificing rights for the greater good while Mahabharata is about demanding rights for the greater good, I- 😭

When she’s walking away from him but he grasps her hand from behind to stop her and that just pause for second to just look at each other before speaking >>>>>>>>

tbona finally arrived in my country, in my language, and i did a very useful re-reading 🥹 i have a few points to highlight!

❥ evangeline is a seventeen-year-old girl who has nothing in her life. she has no friends, relatives or family. she is alone. she is a deeply lonely character. in this book, what she clings to is a chance to be happy with apollo. that, to me, fully justifies her “attachment” to him. everyone judges her a lot for fighting for apollo, but she herself says that she just doesn’t want to be alone in the world. she wants to be loved and she wants to give love, and that’s not a flaw. in fact, it’s a very human and real motivation.

❥ for me jacks is a difficult character to crack and i mean that as a compliment. it makes him very interesting to me. i feel as naive as evangeline when i say that he is more than he says he is, because his actions always shows more. there are all these hints throughout the book that point out who he once was, who he tried to be and failed, and how he constantly seems to be fighting a battle with himself. i don’t know if my vision is partial, but all i can think about is that he tries to keep eva away from him and fails.

❥ which brings me to another point: he is much more aware of the situation between them than she is. to illustrate, we have the scene of lala’s party. evangeline feels crazy jealous of jacks and blames the stones and, in addition, also uses the stones to justify the jealousy he felt. meanwhile, jacks tells her that the situation between them is not going to work out. he’s aware of where the two of them are heading (dare i say since ouabh.) she tries to convince herself that there’s nothing going on there, but he knows. he knows what he’s feeling and he knows he can’t get carried away by it.

❥  which, again, reminds me of another point! from the beginning of the book, in the first few chapters, he acts affectionately. he has a genuine interest in keeping evangeline not just alive but well. he doesn’t want to put her at risk, he doesn’t want her to get hurt. (interestingly, he’s such an asshole to everyone else that even his friends can’t believe he has this genuine interest in taking care of her. and he really does. despite that, chaos is aware, also since ouabh, how much jacks cares. he talks, on more than one occasion, about how evangeline affects jacks and could be the death of him.) we know he needs to keep her alive, but he doesn’t just do that. he worries. he gets to be affectionate, he helps with luc, with marisol, he gets irritated when he learns that she has been cursed, he gets offended when evangeline suspects him, he’s jealous of apollo. he just can’t help it, and we have this whole interesting construct of him trying to keep her at a distance but by the time they get to the hollow, he just doesn’t want to let her go anymore. he gives in to what he wanted all the time. he seems uncertain when he tells her that she’ll forget everything, and was very close to becoming the next petra and his addiction would be evangeline. for evangeline is what he really wants but cannot have.

❥ i have a few thoughts on the valor family, aurora, lysander and jacks himself, but this post might get too long. 👀

i just love jacks as a character, i think his story with evangeline is very well built and it makes perfect sense in my head. only smart people understand the depth of it 😌 

Bro I can tell Siya Ke Ram had a big budget