Is It Weird That I Feel Like Complete Shit Every Time Someone Yells At Me? I Mean I Annoyed Them It's

Is it weird that I feel like complete shit every time someone yells at me? I mean I annoyed them it's only natural they have this reaction and I'd probably have the same reaction if someone annoyed me like that and I shouldn't be a sensitive bitch about it yet here I am feeling like completely worthless shit. It really puts me down. It's like a wake up call to make me remember that I'm an annoying useless little shit and I should seriously stop bothering people and stay out of their way as much as possible.

“Guilt of your sin will make you NOT want to pray for forgiveness. Thats how Satan kills two birds with one stone.”

— marsblackmon101

“Guilt is a powerful thing,” he said. “It erodes something inside of you. A person can live with it only so long.”

— Wendy Webb, The End of Temperance Dare (via aboonoor)

You bought this to yourself you know. You just had to keep reading the wrong things and imagining wrong things and being ashamed to ask God for help because you don't deserve it. Yes exactly. You don't deserve it. So quit complaining. The consequences for your actions are very little compared to what you do. When will you change?!! Yeah just stay as the loser you are. Stay in the same place while everyone moves on and lives and learns. You just stay there and be a useless existence.

“I didn’t realize it, but the days came along one after another, and then two years were gone, and everything was gone, and I was gone.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, Babylon Revisted (via phreshouttarunway)

Moonchild lyric analysis

So if you haven’t listen to RMs mixtape. Personally for me I like it because of the mellow beats but powerful lyrics. Not everyone who is an ARMY will like this mixtape since it is more of a soft/soul rap. I don’t know how to explain it so well but I hope you get what I mean.

That being said I’m someone who really enjoyed the mixtape, moonchild specifically. Something about that song just spoke to me I don’t know what it is but I can honestly call it a bop. So I tried to do something different, I’ve never been the type to do a theory or lyric analysis because I felt like they took a lot of time and I couldn’t think creatively at all but today I decided to try one! I just couldn’t pass up the opportunity with this beautiful song so I hope you enjoy my lyric analysis on moonchild.

Please note that this is how I see the song. The way you interpret it could be totally different and that’s because we have different experiences but sometimes it’s nice to see how others percieve things as well

“We’re part of the moonlight aint a fantasy Can’t bring you the sunlight Gotta hide your heart We’re born to be sad, sad, sad, sad So start to be glad, glad, glad, glad”

We’re special and different. moonlight is different, mysterious, something unexplored by most. I think that is supposed to represent our personalities while sunlight is the status quo. Everyone likes sunlight, it brings morning and everything is in the morning. Sunlight here represents what society wants, what it tries to mold everyone to be but, we are different, we are moonlight. We can’t bring sunlight because we don’t know how. We should be sad/shunned/ for that but instead we embrace it. Let the world know we are moonlight.

“C'mon yo, moonchild, moonchild That’s supposed to be Yeah all the pain, all the sorrow That’s your destiny”

Moon kids, which im thinking are the different kids like I’ve said before are supposed to be sad that they are different. Try and be like everyone else

“see You know my life is like this We gotta dance in the rain Dance in the pain Even though we crashing now We gonna dance in the plane”

Dancing is something fluid and kind of unpredicting, it tells a story in itself. You have to be confident to dance  well. When word ‘plane’ comes up I think a field type plane. So where I’m going with this is that he’s saying be confident about who you are, it’s your life and it’s free/open for you.

“Even though we crashing now We gonna dance in the plane For us, more than anyone else, we need the night sky”

Even though life may seem terrible right now, keep staying optimistic and keep holding your head high because it will get easier and you will be comfortable about, easiness is the night sky since the moon is best seen at night.

“Even if I (try to) leave I’m unable to leave just once You said you wanted to die, but you lived as zealously as you, said such words”

I think rm, the I, in this sense is like our conscious or happy emotion so he doesn’t want to leave. Zealously means with great energy or enthusiasm and so I think what this means is even though you seem happy and enthusiastic you really aren’t and break down when others see

“You said you wanted to rid yourself of it but you string up another thread Even thinking that you shouldn’t think That in itself is a thought, you know That in fact we’re fated like this, you know That we’re smiling through never-ending pain, you know"

Even though you say you are breaking down and giving up you aren’t, you keep going for some weird reason. Your destiny is to be different and bring what you can to make the world better so you keep smiling even though everyone is trying to bring you down

“The moment you speak of freedom, you lose it, you know Do you know?”

As soon as you start hoping /speaking/ about something you want and crave for so badly /freedom/ it slips away from your hands.

“Again with those eyes being lowered I look at the night sky I’m going to show it to you: your spear, your time Do you know? Even in that lampost, there are many thorns"

The night sky is like a comfort zone/safe place. Somewhere that you know well and it won’t affect you as much as /day/. But even then things /lampost/ in the /night sky/ can have scary things wrapped around them /thorns/

“Look at the flashing lights one more time That glittering light, study it carefully Isn’t what’s called a nightscape a cruel thing: a spectacle made up of someone’s congregated thorns”

I think the nightscape here is like the worsts of everyone’s lives hence 'congregated thorns’ and you should study/observe them because they help you understand your own /nightscape/

“(But) surely someone will see your thorns and be comforted”

Someone will see your flaws and struggles and know they aren’t alone, weather that be because they are dealing with something similar, have dealt with something similar, or anything I that sort they know they aren’t alone and can rest better knowing that

“We are each other’s nightscape, each other’s moon”

You help each other out. Whenever one person is down /nightscape/ someone’s there to help you up and comfort you /moon/ but the /moon/ is sometimes hard to find and so that person will be hard to find as well

“C'mon yo Moonchild don’t cry When moon rise, it’s your time”

There will be a time where the normal ends /sun/ and people are em embracing what makes them different /the moon/ or taking the help the /moon/ gives them to leave their /nightscape/ and that’s your time to shine. It’s your time to show the world what you are capable of