Mr. Roshehearts

Mr. Roshehearts

(chapter 4 of the usurper from the wilds. unless you know context it doesnt really mean anything, and if u know it youve probably played it)

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Mr. Roshehearts ? Never heard of her! Or him.

Why Yosano's ability restriction is self-imposed

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Anyway.

For a brief summary of Yosano's ability "Thou shalt not die" according to the original intro, it is an ability that can heal any injury as long as the person recieving it is close to death, which often requires Yosano to 'half-kill' them using her epic chainsaws.

HOWEVER, I believe that this restriction is self-imposed. I.e, Yosano doesn't *have to* half-kill people to heal them.

!!manga spoilers!!

This wasn't true in Yosano's backstory arc, however.

In the backstory arc, we see Yosano healing soldiers even when they aren't close to death.

The most obvious conclusion is that the severe trauma she got after Tachihara's brother's death lead to her ability being restricted, right? And I figured it happened at this specific panel-

Eventually, Tachihara's brother commits su!c!de, which leads to Yosano losing a lot of her memory of what came afterward, and it's presumed that her ability restricted itself at that time, due to the unresolved trauma.

But.

I think it's the opposite.

Yosano's ability 'cheapens' the lives of those around her, because she can save them even if they're seconds from death. She's too 'correct', something that can't function in a fundamentally broken world. That was Tachihara's brother's su!cid!e note.

This panel is from when Yosano is 14, just as she's being rescued from the facility she was kept at post-war. She clearly states, "My ability can easily save lives...so...the lives of those in proximity end up as something cheap." She believes she has no right to live because her existence leads to only suffering for those around her.

Ranpo tells her that at the detective agency, it wouldn't matter what her ability was. She wouldn't need to use it, because it was the only place in the world that would allow her to live because of her kindness and want to help people, simply, rather than twisting it into immortality.

I don't believe that someone who has suffered so much, seen so much death first-hand, when she was so young, would ever have any true delight in hurting people. I don't believe Yosano is masochistic or insane - her act of half-killing people is something that, in her mind, gives her the right to use her ability, because they would literally die if she did nothing.

Instead, it's her kindness that leads to her using her ability so gruesomely. She can't bear to cheapen someone's life, so she believes that she can only heal them when they are close to death. It is more 'wrong' perhaps, but in a 'wrong' world, it is what is much more 'righteous'

It also serves as protection for her - fewer people would come after her, want to kidnap her if her ability was so restricted.

What I'm trying to say in this very convoluted manner is that Yosano doesn't *need* to half-kill people - she does it to increase the worth of the lives around her, to protect herself, and to allow herself to live with a little less guilt.

Even if her ability is naturally restricted, I think it's this psyche and manner of thinking that lead to its eventual mutation.

~I hope you enjoyed and it makes some kind of sense, feel free to send in questions/requests/opinions on bsd things as asks!

a/n: azura are you proud i finally finished this 😭

U have jalim, while i have kamil

Both sounded so wrong in my head too, but i cant remember whats the right one when i first started.

So i kept wandering "kamil??? That doesnt sound right. What is the other one again?? Jamil? Kamil? Is the first one right? Now i am confused.." my brain try to gaslight me lol

LMFAOOO

what monster have i spawned...

To deceive someone who trusts you is to enter a hell that can take you to the brink of madness.

Dazai Osamu, “Eight Scenes from Tokyo” from Self Portraits