U Have Jalim, While I Have Kamil

U have jalim, while i have kamil

Both sounded so wrong in my head too, but i cant remember whats the right one when i first started.

So i kept wandering "kamil??? That doesnt sound right. What is the other one again?? Jamil? Kamil? Is the first one right? Now i am confused.." my brain try to gaslight me lol

LMFAOOO

Why Yosano's ability restriction is self-imposed

notmaraanalyzingyosanoagain

Anyway.

For a brief summary of Yosano's ability "Thou shalt not die" according to the original intro, it is an ability that can heal any injury as long as the person recieving it is close to death, which often requires Yosano to 'half-kill' them using her epic chainsaws.

HOWEVER, I believe that this restriction is self-imposed. I.e, Yosano doesn't *have to* half-kill people to heal them.

!!manga spoilers!!

This wasn't true in Yosano's backstory arc, however.

In the backstory arc, we see Yosano healing soldiers even when they aren't close to death.

The most obvious conclusion is that the severe trauma she got after Tachihara's brother's death lead to her ability being restricted, right? And I figured it happened at this specific panel-

Eventually, Tachihara's brother commits su!c!de, which leads to Yosano losing a lot of her memory of what came afterward, and it's presumed that her ability restricted itself at that time, due to the unresolved trauma.

But.

I think it's the opposite.

Yosano's ability 'cheapens' the lives of those around her, because she can save them even if they're seconds from death. She's too 'correct', something that can't function in a fundamentally broken world. That was Tachihara's brother's su!cid!e note.

This panel is from when Yosano is 14, just as she's being rescued from the facility she was kept at post-war. She clearly states, "My ability can easily save lives...so...the lives of those in proximity end up as something cheap." She believes she has no right to live because her existence leads to only suffering for those around her.

Ranpo tells her that at the detective agency, it wouldn't matter what her ability was. She wouldn't need to use it, because it was the only place in the world that would allow her to live because of her kindness and want to help people, simply, rather than twisting it into immortality.

I don't believe that someone who has suffered so much, seen so much death first-hand, when she was so young, would ever have any true delight in hurting people. I don't believe Yosano is masochistic or insane - her act of half-killing people is something that, in her mind, gives her the right to use her ability, because they would literally die if she did nothing.

Instead, it's her kindness that leads to her using her ability so gruesomely. She can't bear to cheapen someone's life, so she believes that she can only heal them when they are close to death. It is more 'wrong' perhaps, but in a 'wrong' world, it is what is much more 'righteous'

It also serves as protection for her - fewer people would come after her, want to kidnap her if her ability was so restricted.

What I'm trying to say in this very convoluted manner is that Yosano doesn't *need* to half-kill people - she does it to increase the worth of the lives around her, to protect herself, and to allow herself to live with a little less guilt.

Even if her ability is naturally restricted, I think it's this psyche and manner of thinking that lead to its eventual mutation.

~I hope you enjoyed and it makes some kind of sense, feel free to send in questions/requests/opinions on bsd things as asks!

a/n: azura are you proud i finally finished this 😭

wuh woh

so so i was playing twisted wonderland

it froze on a screen (..it does that a lot if i leave and come back i think? or maybe its internet issues. so i didnt really pay it any mind)

and like. i could turn it on and off but itd just go straight to that screen, no log in necessary

which confused me. but it was just that screen. but you couldnt interact with it

so then asking google for help. faulty instructions. TURNS Out, that those instructions are for like newer phones. *headbang* i rue the day my stuff is so old that trying to get help would be a struggle and a half.

i only figured it out cause in a help post someone linked to

Apple Support

Restart an unresponsive iPhone - Apple Support

If your iPhone has a frozen screen or becomes stuck, learn what to do.

and instead of doing the volume thing you're meant to "Press and hold both the Home button and the side button or the top button until you see the Apple logo (this takes around 10 seconds)."

maybe id get more results though if i searched 'for iphone 6s' and stuff but still.

happy birthday azul

honestly i skipped the summon so i dont have a screenshot lol, and id already tapped out of the screen before i had the thought of 'maybe i should screenshot' so here.

coincidentally, i just started the story where we meet him for the first time lol. took those gems gained from the fight and then nom. also i think my characters are criminally underleveled. Like. i do lessons often when it gets refilled but ive been putting it towards leveling other characters. like.

off topic time

so i looked at titles on the wiki. and people had really cool titles with their own stuff. and i kind of wanted my own.

i groovified like the ceremonial robes riddle and the like normal uniform one. i dont know what the name of it is called but like the average uniform where the only difference is the color shirt and stuff i think (if you zoom in, you can see a groovified dorm uniform riddle lol)

but so that kinda means i wasted a bunch of materials for characters im never using

talking about characters i have

My normal team:

Riddle (Dorm Uniform), Epel (Dorm Uniform), Idia(? I think) apprentice chef i think w/ ace, and the 5th is usually support character (as in someone else's) i think but for lessons i had like labwear kalim.

but. uh. so now i have azul. so i guess i need to replace one of the chefs??? (i mean ace can still be there during lessons since there's room but he probably wont be used again. ...wonder if itd ever be a good idea in games to have a button to undo all the materials you spent on something so you can re-use it)

probably ace because they're both red and green (don't ask me what spells there are i dont know, im horrible at remembering what does what in turn-based games, its a godsend theres auto)

edit: in a battle Azul (the game one): How poor and unfortunate you are (or something like that).

My Azul: How poor and unfortunate you are.

its always kind of really funny when they both say the same thing cause they're the same person. happened with riddle too. i dont use leona tho so missed opportunity for last book

deidara meet deidara

he looks so much more blonde when you're looking at the side that covers his face

(honestly, as someone who has never seen the naruto anime or manga, ive completely lost track of whats going on lmfao, we just get bits and pieces of dialogue and follow anime story but we also dont sometimes [because we aren't naruto so sometimes we're off fighting diff peeps??? and then im confused on whats going on])

OFf topic now

(Gaara is a story-only addition.

My team's like. Sasori, Kurenai, and Deidara. and well I guess us the player, who is the kakashi look-a-like?

anyway since im yapping about my team, for like ranked battles, at one point you can add an extra team? i just kinda threw it together from characters i had. Itachi who I had on my main before Kurenai, but i needed a healer so. Hashirama Senju (New Year), which you got from joining during the thing which is when I first started playing. Kakashi who would've been on my main as a character I like, but he's also so much weaker and I've already invested too much in current characters. And Haku. Pretty sure he's weaker as a two-star but he's a favorite and I'm not budging.)

im pretty sure position means something but i just randomly placed them down

Lil' Guardsman

is great

if you like papers please, then you'll definitely like this game

its like medieval-y

art is great

music is great

voice acting is great

and the story is enjoyable

My favorite part so far: Chloe.

im not even going to tell you why you need to experience it for yourself LMFAO

sample of the game (this is from the tutorial):