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Mostly reblogging it to remind that wanting a life to follow the script in my head and wanting it to be full of chaos and plot twists AND having it intense and full of passion AND suffer a lot is not contradictory.

I don't know

Random anxiety in my chest

About finances, about life, about lack of certain things, about lack of certain chemicals in my brain and some situations.

I miss shallow distractions, having which, helps me cope with life's reality.

I miss having essence and texture in life

I'm in such discomfort of thawing my rigid disconnected self

Want my life to follow a script in my head. Want it to be filled with chaos and random essence- healthy or unhealthy. Mostly unhealthy. To keep fuelling me to avoid the mundane peace of sorts.

I want life's plot to have twists and turns and intensity

I want a life that matches the Intensity and passion of my heart and mind

I dont know

Excerpts from the diary of an old rotten soul

ADHD brain during downtime?