Years Later - Tumblr Posts
This text would have been Sept 2017, which is right before he cut me off long enough for me to wake up.
Emotional update: this doesn't hurt anymore. And the memories of this happening become blurrier as I get further away from it.
I does, however, invoke anger. It shows his audacity and cruelty, which undoubtedly some other poor soul is suffering the brunt of now.
It makes me sick that people like him exist in this world.
He’s going back on some parts of our separation agreement, so I have been looking for texts in case I need to submit evidence. It’s not relevant to our agreement, but I found this.
Context: I told him that I was going to be participating in my local Take Back the Night event. I was raped when I was 19, so it is close to my heart.
He sent me this message after kicking me out of the house again after I visited him. It happened a lot. My memories can be foggy at times so I am not completely certain why I was vacated this time. However an educated guess is it was one of the times I protested him telling other people about my assault. He used it to garner sympathy from the girls he wanted to sleep with - I was a monster and this was one of the reasons. He wanted so much to help me, but I was a lost cause.
With the event so close, the feelings were raw. I may have gotten a bit sassy. I told him it wasn’t his story to tell. So he’d shove me violently toward the door and tell me to “Leave!!” Then proceed to spam me with hate for the following hour.
I haven’t had one of these nights for a while now. But reading this again punched me in the gut. The worst part is, later on in the conversation I excuse him because I knew he “only denied [or doubted that I was raped] when [he] was really hurt.”
This one hurt really bad then; I remember driving home and being worried I’d crash my car because I couldn’t see through my tears. Or my misery. I’m ashamed that it still hurts now.
The Ninja will literally go batshit crazy if they hear these 6 words one more time:
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"There's something I haven't told you"
SCREAMING SOBBING THROWING UP
While everyone is fantasizing about mermaid!bakugo, or barbarian!bakugo, I'm thinking about a Princess and the Frog au, where a selfish, spoiled, hedonistic yet broke prince!bakugo arrives in New Orleans after his parents cut him off to get some real experience or marry a rich young lady, but morphed into a small, slimy green frog by his selfish desires formulated by a shady old man all for one.
Then he meets Y/N, a seeming, lonely princess crying in her bedroom. The baby blue dress fitted faultlessly around her body isn't the only thing that's sparkling in the moonlight. All while he's allured by her beauty, he would rather become human before he could begin wooing.
However, this costly dress, phony tiara, or identity doesn't belong to her, but her best friend Yaoyorozu whose busy charming the "prince". Tears from your dreams bring crushed damages your mascara.
𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒:
Kirishima is Louis, Ray is Hizashi (present mic), and mama odie, as crazy as she seems, is either kayama (midnight) or chiyo (recovery girl), change my mind.
Bakugo first starts to fall in love with you during the hunting scene, of course. He tries to forcibly stop them, as his goal is to marry a rich girl, and not you, a stubborn little waitress born on the small side of town. The feelings only deepen themselves as the story progresses.
As soon as he turns human, it's like his personality did a flip, not that it changed that much while he was a frog. However, he refuses to tell you directly that he loves you, even when he's holding your hand in marriage, even when he's helping you achieve your dreams, even when he's spinning you around the roof of your restaurant.
This is one of my first then one of my latest digital artworks! Looking at the two side by side really makes me feel better how much I’ve improved 😂
Used to use medibang paint now on procreate or clip studio depending