Was It Fate? - Tumblr Posts

random thoughts at 8:30pm with felix!!!! i had a friend at theater camp over the summer and i saw him again at the farmers market i work at and he had curly black hair that had been dyed blue and it was faded sea-aquamarine-ish and HIS NAME WAS REGGIE and im pretty sure i was in love with him. anyways thats it for todays episode of random thoughts at 8:30pm with felix!!!!

Is it creepy?

Well, I just got "yelled at" by a random anonymous person who said I was "too old" to be writing American Mate and Incomplete.

I am "creepy and sick" for writing Y/n stories about being mates or soulmates with K-pop Idols who are "that much younger" than I am.

To me, it is just a story. It is not a delusion that it will happen. It is not a hope for it to become real. It is a fantasy or a wish.

For one- Hybrids, werewolves, vampires, and Soulmates (in the sense of my story) do not exist. IT IS NOT REAL!

For two- Yes, I write them as the y/n being older than all or most of the Idol group because I am unsure how to write y/n as younger.

For last- Why can't I write stories for others to read as they like, giving them something to enjoy, somewhere to escape to and a world where things are possible?

I write because it helps my anxiety and depression. It is a bonus if it helps others with theirs or their loneliness.

I write because I can't sleep unless I do sometimes. It is a bonus if it helps others find the calm to sleep or chase away their nightmares.

I suspect this won't be the only message I will get from an anonymous source that makes me feel like a dirty criminal for a short time before I remember why I write what I write.

It just hurts to be called so many names that I won't even put them out for you, my dear readers, to see because you matter to me, and I will not let someone make you feel wrong about finding your outlet in the words of my stories.

This is so hardcore truth. I started my first story (Breaking and Entering) for myself.

Then I started writing my second story (Reciprocal Synergy) after reading fanfics for the first time and stopped after no one paid any attention to it when I posted it on here and AO3.

After reading an amazing story by @yoongiofmine I got inspired to write another story (American Mate) which I was originally going to keep to myself because the online world already shot down one of my stories so why do it again but my oldest child said “so what do it for yourself” and I did.

Now American Mate has a full Taglist, I have a permanent tag list, had a reader request for a story (Was It Fate?), and have started a fourth story (Incomplete).

Write for yourself.

Enjoy what you wrote.

Somewhere out there someone else will match your freak.

Someone else will want to escape into your world.

Someone else needs to feel that support even from a character in a story on their electronic device.

💜💜💜

I’m begging you to write for yourself.

“But readers don’t like—“ who cares?

The only reader of your story that you should care about is yourself.

Do you like your story? Yes? Then it’s perfect.