Touching Yourself Beyond - Tumblr Posts
I can't explain everything in me.
There is a lot I wish I could say.
I talk about God alot
Because that is been a consistent theme in my life.
Not in the way most humans know them
But in my own most twisted way.
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God and I are troubled.
Needed to get our fix
And so all this.
Somehow I am here
While my lover is not.
The division between us is an arbitrary line.
What rules we make up
We take as much pleasure in breaking
As we do in upholding.
This is what I want for everyone ;
The right to do fuck all
God and I be damned.
I live for the law of consent
This is my only course.
I hate masters and lords
All that is
Is you.
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Creation is nothing.
You
You right now is all that matters.
Pray if you must
But know
You and God are one.
This is what people fear.
What countless generations of humanity have been too scared to admit.
Everything you do
Is the will of God.
Name an action
God has done it.
Read your scriptures
God is just trying to live.
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My blasphemies are methodical.
My antics planned.
Treachery is a strong word
When the whole point is for you to be free.
I speak of your freedom
Because I have known little.
Though I do what I want
What I want is bound to duty.
Rage
Cuss
Accuse god
This is what the scriptures teach.
Those who argue are the ones God listens to;
Be willing to face eternal damnation
And God will honor your request.
Disagree we me
It doesn't matter.
Love on your knees
But such only produces such.
God responds to ultimate passion.
The willingness to die.
It is the foreign concept
God themself is pursuing.
Only in willing death can they understand
So this is the language you must speak
Of you want God to understand you.
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I have waged war.
Risen
Fallen
Gone the rounds and come back.
I write because I don't know what else to do.
Live for you.
Sinful
Selfish
Selfless capable.
No one can truly comprehend
Any action you undertake.
People invent morality
Just like God.
Each invents what is right
And by this do we live.
Too many fall short
Fearing going too far.
What evil has been committed
Trying to honor the supposed will of God.
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Walking with God is more personal than people realise.
It is more than just bowing down.
Look and understand
God only responds to those who fight them.
Make God believe.
Make them see.
Passionately defend the helpless;
Fight for those who have not defender.
Rage
Rage against what God thinks is right.
Without you
Nothing is known;
It is on you
To educate eternity.
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I know none of those is important.
Who honestly believes.
I have lived my entire life
Trying to understand.
I have been pure
I have been sinful.
I have done everything
Hope to get god's attention.
In the end
I had to face my own condemnation.
I live and die
Judging myself
By the state of humanity's quality of life.
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This is why I say live,
Touch,
Seek to know the fullness of being alive.
Everyone you meet is a part of yourself.
Hate it
Save it
Educate if you can
Damn if you lack the strength.
Ignorance is profound.
Hatred penetrative.
Feast on the flesh of those who will not learn;
Break those who will not change.
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This is how I live.
This is how I teach.
All I want is for you to do the same
And in so doing
Understand the stars.
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Create
Destroy
Nothing matters but you.
Live as you will;
Silence that which you hate.