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๐๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ณ๐ท๐ฆ, ๐๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ.
-epiphany (Taylor Swift)
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"๐๐ธ๐ท'๐ฝ ๐๐ช๐ท๐ฝ ๐ท๐ธ ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ป ๐ผ๐ฑ๐ช๐ญ๐ฎ ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ซ๐ต๐พ๐ฎ
๐๐พ๐ฝ ๐๐ธ๐พ."
-hoax(Taylor Swift)
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๐ญ๐๐ ๐ด'๐ ๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ด'๐๐โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.
-peace(Taylor Swift)
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๐จ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
- my tears ricochet (Taylor Swift)
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"๐๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ซ๐๐๐ ๐จ๐ ๐ ๐จ๐ฅ๐ , ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐ฆ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ."
-invisible string (Taylor Swift)
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"๐ธ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข?"
- the 1(Taylor Swift)
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๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ข
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"๐ฌ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ด ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐."
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I can't get enough of all the songs on FOLKLORE. The Stories that @taylorswift tells are brilliant. Everytime I listen to the album or any song of it, a new idea pops in my head. Unfortunately I can't deliver all of them but here's another one for THE LAST GREAT AMERICAN DYNASTY.
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โthe last time

pairing: anthony lockwood x sibling!reader
summary: you always throw yourself in harms way to save your friends and especially your brother, this one might've been too far
warnings: mentions of dying and getting hurt
"what the heck happened, lockwood?" barnes was folding his arms "we talked about this"
lockwoods eyes wandered from the ambulance and lucy and you back to barnes. he almost couldn't look him in the eyes. barnes was right. this wasn't the first time this had happened. actually, they had a few conversations about it already and lockwood could see that barnes was at his final point.
"this is exactly the reason every other agency has supervisors"
"we aren't like the other agencies" lockwood quickly argued
"believe me, i know" barnes was massaging the top of his nose "the other agency aren't causing me headaches"
"i'm sorry, inspector"
"this isn't the first time i heard that, lockwood" barnes sighed
"i know" lockwoods eyes wandered back to your shivering form "but it will be the last" he assured "i promise"
"i will take you up on that" barnes nodded, before his eyes turned softer "i'm really sorry for what almost happened today" he patted the boys shoulder
"i know" lockwood nodded, biting his lip as to stop the tears from flowing. barnes pity didn't make it any easier.
the inspector send lockwood another brave smile, before he raised his hand to wave at lucy and you, finally walking off to his car to leave the scene.
later in the evening when you were all home and you were laying in bed, lockwood came to talk to you.
"hey" he muttered softly, sitting down on the edge of your bed
"hi" the guilt was already crawling up your neck
you were a bit stunned when he got straight to the point. "you realize that this was extremely stupid, right?"
your eyes wandered to your hands that were playing with your book.
"what was is this time, y/n?" lockwood continued after your lack of an answer "you fell out of a window" he reminded "just a few metres more and you would be dead right now"
"i'm sorry" you muttered
"why do you always do that? why do you throw yourself in that kind of danger? why don't you never think before you jump?"
you shrugged your shoulders
"we talk about this a million times and you never change the way you behave on cases" he closed his eyes shortly, trying to keep his cool "i pull you out for a month, you come back, behave for like two days and then everything starts all over again. you nearly die every second, barnes is waiting to ban us from the job and the bills pile up more and more. i don't know what do to, y/n. i don't know how to fix it"
you weren't used to see your brother like this. his brown teary eyes stared at you and you felt like crying too. never before had he let you know anything about the struggles he was facing. he was your older brother after all, he was supposed to solve everything on his own. or at least that was what he always thought his job was.
"i don't know how to help you"
"help me?" you repeated "you don't need to. there's nothing wrong with me"
lockwood sighed. more exhausted than ever before. "stop pretending you're okay for a second, alright?"
"i'm not" you protested weakly. you could see in his eyes that heknew you were lying
"you don't have to prove anything. not to me and not to anyone else" he assured. then he leaned forward, inspecting you closely "why do you always save our lives at the expense of yours?"
"i don't"
"yes, you do" he nodded "that is why we are having this conversation now and the last hundred times it happened"
you sighed, knowing that he wasn't going to just leave it
"i'm trying to pay you back, anthony" you said, finally giving in
"what?" he asked stunned "pay me back for what?"
"for saving me and sacrifing so much to take care of me"
he almost looked angry at that "what are you talking about?" he asked "you don't owe me anything, alright? there's nothing you would need to pay back! and when it comes to a dangerous situation i'd rather get hurt than have you in the crossfire"
"no" you shook your head in protest "when it comes down to it, there's one of us that needs to survive and it's not me"
you could see the surprise in his face, before he had even said anything to that. his eyes welled up with tears again. the question he asked next would've probably been deemed silly by you, if it weren't for the seriousness of the conversation and his voice breaking while muttering the words. "y/n" he said softly "do you even want to be alive?"
you gasped, taking a moment to comprehend the weight of that question. "yes" you answered, truthfully "but i could never let something happen to you, don't you understand that? you're all i have left and i couldn't live without you, it's pretty selfish probably" you shrugged your shoulders "i didn't know what would happen to george and lucy as well. none of us is qualified to lead an agency, so they would probably lose their jobs. you're important to all of us, anthony and in comparison no one would care if i suddenly disappeared"
"i would" his voice made you look up "i will always care about what happens to you and though i understand your reasoning i cannot accept it. i wouldn't forgive myself if something happened to you and george and lucy wouldn't either, you're as important as everyone in this house and we won't tolerate you acting like your life doesn't matter"
"but i-"
"no buts, young lady" you giggled at that "i'm your older brother and as long as you're living under my roof, you're going to follow my rules. that includes not jumping out of windows before knowing for sure that there is water underneath them or better not until i told you to jump or it is the safest option to survive, you hear me? survive"
"okay" you nodded
"we will work on this together" lockwood assured "and i will try to not get myself in any situation that would even make it necessary to be saved, alright?"
"sounds good"
"but you're still grounded"
"fine"
he hugged you, happy that you had been honest and that you accepted what he had told you. he kissed your forhead. "after all you're all i have left as well, don't you forget that"
"i won't" you said, looking into his eyes and feeling a bit of the guilt disappear into thin air "i promise"
I love all of Taylor swift's song, but the 'Burned out innocent child turning into an adult doing her best even after every piece of her breaking' genre of her songs will always hit home.
You're On Your Kid
I can do it with a broken heart
This is me trying
& more.
โfuck you, my child is completely fineโ
the taylor swift songs your child relates to most are mirrorball and this is me trying
This song has no right to be this relatable,
LIKE IM NOT EVEN A FOLKLORE GIRLIE BUT SOMEHOW IM A MIRRORBALL AND TIMT GIRLIE???? MAKE THAT MAKE SENSE???
reblog and put in the tags a song from each album that you would add to the setlist
reblog and put in the tags:
the 1 or willow? cardigan or champagne problems? the last great american dynasty or gold rush? exile orย โtis the damn season? my tears ricochet or tolerate it? mirrorball or no body, no crime? seven or happiness? august or dorothea? this is me trying or coney island? illicit affairs or ivy? invisible string or cowboy like me? mad woman or long story short? epiphany or marjorie? betty or closure? peace or evermore? hoax or right where you left me? the lakes or itโs time to go?
We love getting several hundred words into a fic stable then deciding you hate the premise and it's terrible and you hate everything.
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2. Whatโs a book/ series youโd recommend? I love the book Howlโs Moving Castle I think Iโve read it four or five times.
3. Whatโs your dream job? Iโd love to learn and do video editing. For films or music videos or both.
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5. Where have you always wanted to travel to? Iโve always wanted to go to Seoul, South Korea of course, Australia, Scotland, Japan, New York, and Hawaii.
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taylor swift this or that: the sad songs that make me cry edition
hoax or my tears ricochet? exile or coney island? evermore or tolerate it? the 1 or cardigan? this is me trying or happiness? last kiss or i almost do? all too well or back to december?
Short moment
We fill all photography cards
Trying to save our position,
Where we laughed, we played
And we met the sunrise.
Autumn brings colorful moments
Full of fallen leaves and
Last of the sunny days of this year,
Which we carefully keep in memories.
Yeah, this autumn was wonderful,
So what can annoy us in winter?
