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Made some system memes extremely specific to our system.

Explanation of the last one under the cut for anyone curious I guess??

- Johnny Ghost

Warnings for the explanation/rant(???): mentions of bullying, allusions to suicide, explanation of trauma (possibly seen as trauma dumping I guess??)

We have a bad habit of not defending ourselves when things happen, mostly because last time we did defend ourselves, we ended up being the “villains” and no one believed a word of what we said.

Anyway, we were bullied in middle school because a toxic ex friend decided to spread misinformation about stuff we did (making roleplays out to be real life, straight up lying and saying we did things we didn’t do, etc).

Fast forward 6 years. We befriend someone, and they remind us a lot of that toxic ex friend. Many alters are made extremely uncomfortable by them and refused to come near the front because of that. Blue themselves eventually became uncomfortable around this person too, though never admitted it because they’re a friend.

I will admit: we did do some bad things while friends with this person. But Y’know what we did? We apologized and fixed our behavior the second it was brought to our attention (we lack socialization skills and still need help figuring out what’s right and wrong in a conversation). One of which was purposefully triggering that person because it had been done to us multiple times. Even though we said we didn’t like it, the people who did it never apologized and called us sensitive.

However, the behavior was called out. We apologized. We tried to make it right. This happened months ago.

Fast forward another month and we break the friendship off because it’s not healthy. We try and be the adults. Ex-Friend makes another close friend of ours block us, even though they didn’t want to. We got extremely triggered by this. And I mean extremely.

Sierra, one of our protectors/persecutors (we love her anyway. She’s still learning. Give her time. She’s an introject of the first toxic friend from middle school), was the only one who was able to process stuff. Keep in mind, she was 13. She handled the entire situation poorly, calling those two out in a discord server we were active in before leaving. One of the mods reached out to us and Sierra explained everything the best she could, as she had also been dormant since 2018 and had been harshly triggered to the front by the situation. Dream managed to pull herself together and explain that she kept a mental list of the issues that were present in the relationship.

Sadly, we didn’t have any of the physical evidence because we were trying to remain mature about the situation and wanted to move more towards forgiveness than pettiness. Ex-friend had no intent of forgiving apparently, as when the mods had talked to them, they spoke about the things we had done as if they had recently happened and weren’t from a month ago or things we had apologized for and tried to do better on.

One of those things was something Simon (Book) had said to them in a moment of panic, not knowing what to do in the situation present at the time (an alter of ex-friend’s threatening to hurt the body of ex-friend). He said something he deeply regrets, and we won’t say what that is because he has indeed moved on from that. Even when he said it, he didn’t mean anything by it. It was a mental script of sorts in response to a traumatic situation for us that also caused us to relive old trauma as toxic ex-friend had been someone who would threaten to hurt themself if it meant getting their way. (Hell, they even blamed us for their attempted self-delete because we didn’t answer the phone while at a family Christmas party).

We now are dealing with the aftermath of having multiple people block us because of this. We received a ban from the discord server for purposefully triggering someone, and it appears that no one is really interested in our side of the story, mostly because Sierra’s immediate response when we received the ban was delete all social media so that all of these triggers and things could go away and not hurt the system anymore. She was a 13 year old thrown into a very stressful situation. We have recently talked to her, and she is growing up rather quickly in the system as well. She has since learned from her mistakes.

Simon and Sierra are truly sorry for what they did and how it had ended up hurting the system. However, we have expressed our care for them and how we forgive them for what happened, as they are attempting to better themselves based off of their mistakes.

And that’s what upsets me the most. We’re healing, yes, but it still hurts to have people we once thought of as friends block us when we never even explained our side of the story because we were acting in a fight or flight manner due to the extremely triggering and traumatic situation we were thrown in.

In both instances, both parties are at fault. Not one or the other. We reacted poorly to these situations due to them being extremely traumatic for us. It’s why we’re perfectionists, because every time we make a mistake this is what happens. We never explain our side of the story because it always ends with us never being believed.

But we’re moving on, and we’re healing. Slowly but surely. It just sucks that we can barley interact with the Taleblr tag now because a lot of people who we followed blocked us.

It just takes some time, I guess. :)

We just kinda needed to get that out there. Won’t drop names because we aren’t trying to call people out or cancel them. Just trying to explain the meaning behind the last two memes I made.

got another insys interaction featuring tim (yes, the marble hornet)

Our host:

Nah you see it's just cognitive dissonance, you know the thing where you disagree with yourself, that's totally how that works.... This is normal.... Everyone probably thinks like this.

Rest of us: (continue existence)

Learns what systems are

Host: OOOH wait what ?! How did this happen ?

Rest of us: no that checks out

We're making a JoJos bizarre adventure OC at the moment and it's pretty fun buuuuut we're also acutely aware that she is somewhat likely to become an introject so we're trying to make sure her life isnt toooo bad just in case.

When your OC accidentally introjects

If our host gets a job, but we switch or co-front during work hours, it means more than one of us is working. Therefore, systems should be paid the hourly wage multiplied by how many system members there are. In this essay I will

Big sweet giant Earth ghoul(Mountain/Pebble) vs twink fire ghoul(Alpha) place your bets/j

More alters that would get us fake claimed and why, part 2-the electric boogaloo

Frost, Gideon, Briggsy, Grumly-Legends of Avantris fictives, fucking DnD alters

All of our Yaelokre fictives-Popular source. Cole, Clem, Perrine, and Kingsley are all 12-14 in canon but in system they are about 15-17 and oh my goodness!! They have romantic attractions!!

Bubba-A mute alter, fictive from a horror movie

Billy-A very unstable alter, "problematic" source, has tics

Lucifer-From?? The bible???

Max-Literally us a kid, does not remember our mom dying

Zeke-A therian.

Charon-A FUCKING FURRY, LITERALLY OUR FURSONA??/SRS

Mittens-A whole ass cat

Michelle-Pretty much our mom

Nick-Heartstopper.

{REDACTED}-An introject of someone who hurt us

Jace-Again, our partner

Jerome + Lachlan-Old Minecraft youtubers we used to watch

Please ask me abt my system, I beg of you

Have you ever considered making a sys quote book?

-//🍁//

I will now, please have a list of my favorite inner sys quotes I've heard recently.

"I swear to Satan himself if you don't stop I'm gonna make you relive your trauma by doing it again." -A pissed off Air ghoul to Alpha (context: Alpha was burned alive and fire doesn't effect him in sys)

"I didn't know she could sound that beautiful." "She's a selective mute, not a terrible singer." -Alpha and Croon about Clémmie

"I don't wanna shower:((" "Well we're going to." "But why:((" "Cause we stink." "And? Briggsy already makes us that way?" -Croon and Alpha again

"You ever been rammed into by a small goat child? Neither have I until just now." -Bellringer

"The ominous ringing of bell's tells us she's near." -Ember about Bellringer

"Leslie and Billy fight like cats and dogs, I'm surprised Leslie hasn't caught rabies yet." -Briar

"Do you think Alpha was the first pig roast?" -Ember (Context: in his memories Alpha was burned alive)

"Jokes on you I'm an orphan." "I can tell." -Terzo and Phantom

Being a system is a lot like those good cat vs bad cat of the week things.

Like for example!!!

Good cat of the week is The Bellringer, she got us actual food so we didn't have to eat junk food and even got us heartburn medicine!!

Bad cat of the week is Chucky, he tried to throw a fit in the body and ended up getting kicked out of front.

You guys see what I'm saying??

THIS POST ISN'T FOR ENDOS!! ENDOS DNI!!!!

Sys quotes part two, the electric boogaloo cause I'm bored and got nothing to do

"Well she's a whole goat, they're completely blind, and you're a loonatic." -The Croon to the other Harkers.

"If you were to make out with someone...would your jaw just...lop off..." -Toby to Briggsy

"I'm thinking about going to church again cause of you heathens." -Adam

"You don't want me to be your dad, I can barely take care of myself." -The Storyteller

"If I had a nickel for every Scarecrow guy that became my favorite character, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot but it's weird it's happened twice right?"-Zeke

"Do you think if we begged Omega hard enough she'd let us get a tattoo?" -Toby

"Torbek doesn't understand what's going on.." "Yeah at this point neither do I, big guy." -Torbek and Ocean

"No amount of therapy will fix what Zeke has going on." -Ocean

"You just inhaled that burrito huh? Didn't even give us time to chew?" -Cos

"Look at her, what a fuckin fat ass." "She's not fat?" "She tried to steal our nachos??" -Cos and Zeke

may we purpose a sys quote?

-//🍁//

"About to start praying again."

"*laughing* why?"

"I've sexualized the old men again."

"Forgive me father for I have sexualized the old man."

-Toby, Adonis, Zeke

"Your trauma made you stronger"

all my trauma did was give me voices in my head, and a ton of identity issues but-

okay.

a quick poem about our host's experience being diagnosed with DID

Diagnosis A pile of papers rest on my lap My history laid bare Yet it reads like fiction

I peer at the white-coat and tilt my head ‘Surely, this is a story?’ He shakes his head and explains

My mind fractured Far before I was old enough to remember it He explains my mind is in little parts ‘alters’ he calls them

The definition reverberates through my consciousness “Alter: a change in character or composition, typically in a comparatively small but significant way.”

I shake my head, a laugh bursting from my chest Humorous; stop messing with me He frowns

‘I’m not.. you have a personality disorder’

If I have a personality disorder, the world is flat He hands me another leaflet Dissociative identity disorder, formerly Multiple personality disorder—

my eyes blur before I can read the rest suddenly it makes sense every day, you’re a different side shame washes through my body

he says they have names and suddenly i feel ill

A kindly voice murmurs reassurance I can’t see her But she’s as real as my beating heart "Welcome to the family, kid"

*cutely redesigns your DID flag*

Playing around with our DID design assignment, tonight, and I made a thing...?

Look, it's just for funsies (and the assignment), I'm not expecting everyone to suddenly use my flag lol but I'd like to know, what do y'all think?

Coined for DID/OSDD (ie. complex dissociative disorders).

I took inspiration from the existing DID/OSDD symbolism in the Venn diagram (which is also a logo I'm using in the assignment). The colour scheme is inspired by the existing orange for DID, and the teal used in the OSDD flag coined by a deleted user on r/OSDD (and I've always thought of DID/OSDD as teal and orange!). The stripes are uneven to represent the fluctuating nature of having a CDD system, alters. The greenish-brown stripe is for amnesia and jarring day-to-day interruptions. There's a bit more meaning in it, but I can't remember right now.

I did a reverse image search with it, and it seems to be rather close to the pro non-traumagen "PMSC&" flag (according to pluralpedia..) and a little close to "venngender" which I hadn't heard of either until literally now... but…. apart from that little overlap… I think it's okay! Besides, there are only so many colour combos in the world!

Hope you like it!!

I can't tell anyone not to interact with this post: this is the internet, after all.. but we would appreciate it if it remained in DID/OSDD/trauma system spaces only.

I really hate the term 'headmates' because of its origins, 'alters' feels too clinical for casual conversation… normally we just say 'the sys' or 'the others' but I wish I had another term fjhfj

I have a small list of ideas for alternatives

mindsharers

echoes / echoforms

facetselves

mindfragments

inner entities

mindshifts

inner fam

brainmates

mindmates

headfellows

sysmate

but i dont really dig any of them :( any ideas?

Asking the system whether they want to use parts language (each alter is part of a greater whole), or person language (we're multiple people sharing a body) is always so funny because this happens

fronter, talking to someone else: yeah, we're all part of a greater whole, don't worry, we're all the same person :)

alter: [screams as if the devil just bit their earlobe] how dare you!!?!??!?! I'm a person!! aND I'M NOTHING LIKE YOU

vs

fronter, talking to someone else: so it's like- we're all individuals- sharing a body, and we all have names and feelings and-

alter A: . . . what are feelings?

alter B: ??? what is a name . . . . ?????

alter C: wdym I'm sharing a body with these imbeciles, ew

alter D: ..aren't we parts of a greater whole, cus the brain split to deal with traum-

alter C: shut up, Jessica.

Blinkies requests open in asks :) I'll be making them with blinkies cafe :))

One of these days I'll figure out how to make user boxes too lol

bringing this one back

Researching DID as a system always leads to this.

Purple links.

Someone's already looked.

And we forgot.

Random (sometimes rather specific) system shout outs!

You can totally be more than one <3

And hey, some of these can apply to alters individually, but I'll probably do hyper specific alter shout outs eventually lol

Shout out to systems who like animals but can't be around them for some reason

Shout out to late discovered systems

Shout out to systems who form extremely close friendships or want to but don't have anyone

Shout out to bilingual or multilingual systems

Shout out to trans fem systems

Shout out to enby systems

Shout out to trans masc systems

Shout out to systems who experience gender dysphoria but don't know where they fall on the gender spectrum (or if they do at all)

Shout out to systems who don't give a shit about gender

Shout out to cis systems (cis-tems.. heh)

Shout out to LGBTQ+ systems who don't like labels

Shout out to LGBTQ+ systems who love labels

Shout out to straight systems

Shout out to chronically ill systems

Shout out to systems who adore a particularly obscure fandom

Shout out to sapphic systems

Shout out to achillean systems

Shout out to straight aromantic systems

Shout out to aroace systems

Shout out to systems who can't get diagnosed

Shout out to systems diagnosed with PSTD

Shout out to systems with small head counts

Shout out to systems with lots of fragments

Shout out to questioning systems

Shout out to undiagnosed systems

Shout out to autistic and ADHD systems

Shout out to polyam systems

Shout out to systems that use mobility aids

Shout out to systems over the age of 25 (y'all are NOT appreciated and talked about enough in this community)

Shout out to systems that developed chronic illness due to their trauma

Shout out to systems who experienced disassociation their entire life and didn't understand it

Shout out to systems who can't/don't want to date

Shout out to systems who despise mirrors

Shout out to systems who are at or are going to university or tertiary study

Shout out to systems in the trades

Shout out to systems who can't work, either temporarily or permanently

Shout out to systems who are 'out' about being a system

Shout out to systems who love literature, film and art

Shout out to creative systems (whether that's visual art, dance, music, writing or anything else!)

Shout out to systems who will never tell anyone that they are a system

Shout out to systems with a bunch of littles

Shout out to systems with no/few littles

Shout out to systems where their main fronters don't match the shared bodies age

Shout out to systems who need a nap

Shout out to systems who struggle with being vulnerable

Shout out to systems who overshare and then immediately forget what they said

Shout out to systems with hidden alters

Shout out to systems who are insecure about their headcount

Shout out to systems still in abusive or unsafe situations

Shout out to systems who like "kids'" media

Shout out to systems who carry a safety item (whether that's a sensory fidget or a teddy bear or anything else)

Shout out to systems who struggled in school

Shout out to systems where their favourite fandom became unsafe

Shout out to systems who like chickens

Shout out to systems who can't drive

Shout out to systems who work full time

Shout out to systems who like dragons

Shout out to systems who related a little too much to Inside Out and/or Inside Out 2

'What's it like to be a system?'

Me:

ID: Discord screenshot where my name and profile picture is scribbled out in red. The words 'Damn imposter syndrome got hands' are seen. End ID