Swenyo Xvii - Tumblr Posts
Last edit: DEC 2021
I’ve been studying, deconstructing and reading between the lines since I was little... The art of Tarot reminds me the power in playing pretend.
I’m a silly sage, queer latine (boricua heyyy) I like manga and comics and indie films. INFJ-A life path 8.
My strengths as a writer are for exploring my imagination as I ground metaphysical ideas. So I design formulas that make esoteric concepts wayyy more approachable: check my services page for more!
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? the current background on my blog is pretty cute but my themes a mess well at least i updated my about
im repurposing this old blog for my entries + analysis so im excited to share ideas and experiences
when i think on the state of kpop over the past decade i don’t even see it as moving into “mainstream” but actually parting from material boundaries within the global industry. digital streaming is largely incompatible with western “mainstream” artists anyway. there’s another conversation to be had about how the western standards rule global charts. so it wouldn’t be accurate to conclude the development of kpop by those standards. of course popular media is extremely derived and constantly subject to comparison. it’s just that the phenomena of global internet is what actually accelerates popularity. ppl just haven’t caught on to the lack of relevance the music industry actually has, the more that we go digital!
saw someone pulling cards for kpop members... i’d never thought of that lol
? it’s confusing when the writing assumes an omnipotent pov even though it’s clear that the reading is by proxy + automatically apart from the person being read, i think ppl fail to understand the role of the reader is to use their own voice so the message can speak for itself
anyway i’m of the belief that everyone should read their own cards! it connects you to your inner voice
i listed them upon first instinct and decided that the order was based on the nature of blockages that each planet correlates to…
my bottom four basically have a chokehold on the 3rd dimension as it stands bc the collective is largely focused on conscious development: technology, politics, material profit, so much that we stress the left-brain by linking it with our mind = the gut (blocking the throat and solar plexus chakras)
since society expects us to do jobs that we hate, in order to survive instead of truly thriving, we perpetuate our disempowerment on a physical + spiritual level, which reflects on our conscious awareness + our ability to envision a better future (blocking the third-eye)
misanthropy + apathy are grossly stunting our collective development, since ppl are devoting their life to shit that doesn’t fulfill them, it breeds cynicism + depression (blocking the root and crown chakra)
? venus is kind of a middle league bc it serves as a gateway into the third dimension, as the planet of love + war, what she brings into your life depends on the content of your heart’s desires, its a truly neutral sphere that is equally protective as it is destructive so…
my top four are mainly the outer planets, its just that they each carry really distinct energies which i believe are more easy to recognize, since they’re such bold tones
!!! i recognize jupiter as the surprise, scintillating on the horizon of what you will be after a surprise call to action, how you respond reflects how you’ve grown
!!! i feel neptune as serendipity, the smallest things that really bring you bliss + continue to revolve around you bc its meant to be in your life, without trying
!!! pluto as courage, which defaults by your personal understanding of whatever you feel capable to do
!!! uranus is top tier because she accelerates chaos by the rhythm of divine timing, bringing revelations that humble us + instill our reverence for life
those top four are pretty controversial for the level of impact they can have, but ultimately we are no judge of the planetary bodies + it only serves us to build a relationship with the divine wherever it meets us, of course the higher dimensions don’t always find us favorably… it’s your job to make room for them through your spirituality
Life Path Spectrum
the lessons of your life path depends on your ruling planet which corresponds with your life path number. while everyone is on their own life path, we are also each cycling through our own monthly cycles. this means that each month within a given year will present a focus towards the different lessons within your personal chart. so you have a ruling planet guiding you through your life purpose, but you also have monthly themes which are meant to progress that growth...
! my guides describe this phenomena as having a prominent color varying through different palettes or schemes. your prominent color being represented by the chakra corresponding to your ruling planet. of course the palettes/schemes are representing the changes according with the monthly theme.
using the chaldean numerology method, we can find our life path + ruling planet. to then interpret with the corresponding chakra color!
= SUN
= MOON
= JUPITER
= URANUS
= MERCURY
= VENUS
= NEPTUNE
= SATURN
= MARS
clearly, we listed two more planets than there are colors in a rainbow... we’re actually working with ten chakras total, though we retract PLUTO’s life path zero for obvious reasons! that leaves us with just two extra colors:
SUN = violet crown
MOON = indigo third eye
JUPITER = orange sacral
URANUS = blue-green high heart
MERCURY = blue throat
VENUS = green heart
NEPTUNE = magenta soul star
SATURN = red root
MARS = yellow solar plexus
PLUTO = black earth star
add up the digits in your full birth date, and reduce until you end up with any number from 1 through 9 exclusively. that is your life path and then assigns your prominent chakra color! but for your monthly cycle you will only take the digits of your birth day + month. that number (1 through 9) you then add 1 month to reveal the color which starts your monthly cycles.
for example, as life path 8, my ruling planet SATURN assigns me the prominent color of the root chakra: RED. while my birth month + day = 9 so my month cycles begins at 10 = 1. the SUN adds VIOLET to my palette during the first month of the year, INDIGO during the second month etc.
11/20/21
the cards i pulled for myself under the full moon:
X of Cups -- Page of Wands -- Knight of Cups
my emotional state has taken a huge improvement in the last month, it’s been like six months since i moved out of pennsylvania back to puerto rico + what was difficult at first was reacquainting with estranged family, because i held a lot of shame around not pursuing contact with them in the past ten years, but i realized that narrative was negating my experience as a child immigrant, the anxiety i was internalizing was distracting from the opportunity to learn about my family and immerse myself with the place i was born
my mental state is better for the realization that i know what i want, i recognized that my love language is quality time + i can’t expect that from everyone bc i know that we’re only able to give in the way that we know ourselves to be capable, but i used to take rejection seriously personal as i struggled to accept my social anxiety throught adolescence, which was really just my underdeveloped indicator for psychic boundaries as a clairsentient person, so being in this new dynamic where i’m reintroducing myself to family who only knew me as a toddler is a direct challenge of expressing my personal truth
my water houses are all ruled by fire signs, which this pull is bringing a focus to as chiron transits my 8th-- the house of my natal saturn, planet of my life’s lessons
my current manifestation cycle is pointing towards the kind of work that is possible for me through the type of values that i exude + what is inherent to my journey, it’s very important for me as a writer to recognize my voice, that means understanding the influences behind my personal experiences a.k.a what beliefs i allow to drive me in life
self-transformation in my expression of duality
during my month of JUDGEMENT; with the moon’s influence over the earth star chakra, the lessons within my 3rd house are brought to surface
i’m reading a spanish book that my aunt lent me and i haven’t decided if i like it; “Manual de Supervivencia” by Marta Salvat
i’d already read “Tu Eres Yo” by the same author for the same reason; my aunt directly recommended it + while i’m realizing this is great practice for my spanish i also feel really conscientious of the fact that my aunt gave me these books despite the fact that it’s a proficient level of spanish vocabulary, all the while she is constantly correcting me when i speak spanish
it really gets me so pressed as it interrupts my train of thought, i really could appreciate the gesture in general except... it’s not helpful coming from family that hasn’t been apart of my life growing up... it’s very patronizing + not at all the way that i learn personally
with the lessons of my 3rd house PLUTO, i’ve learned how to live in my own path + repurpose the pain of being socially ostracized into my individual self, i’m not meant to wait around for ppl to explain things to me bc i’m actually a natural inquisitor, i’ve always managed to entertain my own interest/curiosity although society would rather expect that i assume the pity of growing up without proper “culture” or “traditions”
ppl have always treated me like i was different despite the fact any taboos i broke were on default of my life’s circumstances... i believe part of my self-transformation means acknowledging what makes me so different, its the way i know how to recognize the unconscious beliefs that ppl chastize their selves with + i use that to guide myself in investigating my own beliefs
!!! anyway i’m very happy bc i love these books for what they are, its helping me integrate spanish through spiritual concepts which i already understand, the author Marta Salvat goes deeply into the unconscoius projections which we navigate to understand eachother’s internal world
??? it was just so confusing that someone who doesn’t spend time with me to give me a beautiful gift like that LOL but it’s clearly bc my family unconsciously doesn’t see themselves as worthy with enough insight to help, which is perfectly find considering that i know my personal destiny now
quality time is super important for me to receive from my learning environment, but i didn’t have such relationships as a child no less estranged from my birthplace... i think its very dense for them to expect that i should be a fluent speaker, it really hurts my feelings as my elders blatantly deflect their responsibility over my education
though the books i’m reading are quite literally giving me confirmation that i need to focus on improving for me-- speaking spanish or whatever it is; i’m not the same little kid who gets overwhelmed by unwanted attention doing anything to avoid it, i actually recognize when i’m doing something unexpected that could change the coarse of my growth, i have to want that growth + teach myself
12/01
The cards I pulled for myself:
V of Pentacles -- X of Cups -- VI of Wands
December begins my personal month of The World... which represents Jupiter’s influence over the Root chakra. Jupiter sits in my 6th house where I learn how to contribute through my lifestyle. My emotional state has been recovering from isolation, I can tell because even while my time online has averaged to 9 hrs a day the past three years, I’m not taking on and digesting all of the energy in the same way.
I used to wallow in my envy for others who seem to have it better than myself, and I allowed that to take from what happiness or peace I found in my own life. I recently commented on a discussion about learning appropriate language to express your intellectual opinions and the irony of engaging in nuanced discourse with people who won’t ever understand your point of view. I realize my experience in both of these sides, for example in my lack of education I compensate by teaching myself with whatever I have access to. The 5 of cups shows how we measure our values based on what is structurally coveted. By depicting two sickly characters waging against the harsh of nature while the Church window glows over them. I’m emotionally mature enough to understand the poverty that my “privileged counterparts” face, is just a different form. (My guides tell me it’s a lack of character value.) My mental state has cleared up so much. I think I’m still too obsessed with social media and I definitely catch myself reading far too deep into arbitrary information. But I also recognize my inner voice apart from the collective consciousness. Which I feel that is what I find addictive about the internet-- as a looking-glass into the collective. I no longer take my own emotions out of context from where they belong: in myself. Social media is especially confrontational about what people feel, constantly in demand of emotional exchange. People learned to bet on false projections which they know cause arguments or controversies, because that’s how they find the attention they need. I have an entirely new approach to utilizing the internet in a way that allows me to appreciate connection with the collective. I believe this connection is what motivates me to share ideas and stories. (My guides want me to write about my addiction.)
Variants of a digital collage I edited
in lullaby lime + pale sorbet
Muses of multiplicity: Sagittarius — Gemini
His own shape / His own pen / His own construct / The Magician
12/13
Cards I pulled for myself:
Strength -- II of Wands -- III of Swords
This major arcana is important as my life purpose card, symbolizing Saturn’s influence on the Heart chakra. I’m going through some manic phases right now as my living situation dramatically changed this year.
As of recently, my brother’s girlfriend who’s lived with us for over 5 years finally moved out, only after being dragged over from P.A all the way to P.R. It’s been really hard for us to find work, and even as we had family to rely on, it doesn’t feel sufficient beyond monetary/situational support. However we have been given an amazing opportunity to live on some other property, owned by an old friend that my mother reconnected with by chance. And because of that, I’ve been so much more available to invest attention solely into my work! Right now, Pluto and Venus have made a conjunction within my 5th house right on top of my natal Neptune. The Neptune direct has reactivated my 7th house, conjunct my natal Venus. I’ve been feeling queasy from my heart and my sacral, I think I’m just recognizing what it’s like to have creative power. I have SO many projects in the works, which are a culmination of all my best skills and special interests. But again it feels like I’m headed towards the drop of a roller coaster...
I’ve been wrestling over strategies to break out with my writing, trying to get a good layout of different platforms I can utilize. But it’s more important to me how I can connect with people beyond my services, because I really want friends more than I need followers. The II of Wands is letting me know that I don’t have all the answers right now, to gauge where my work is going to go or how it’s going to impact me. But the full Moon on Dec 18th will happen over my natal Moon in Gemini, which should reveal exactly where I should direct my work.
The III of Swords is a awry picture of a heart pierced by blades, in a thunder storm no less! But looking at it right now, I feel oddly at peace. This is my queue to surrender in relationships, just like Venus and Neptune are guiding me to do. This is actually an sublime transition into my incoming personal year 6, where I’m sure that Venus will purify my desires so I can attract what is meant for me.
a maurable render for my sibling + also their spectrum chart which I will use to teach them astrology
Justice
A collage I edited with wonderful art by Trungles/art.
Depending on how you utilize the Tarot, you would be expressing it’s innate variables in exponential quantities. Basically you are interacting with a system programmed to output the values that you define yourself. It’s like calculating with a formula of drawings, or even playing with dolls.
The Major Arcana are designed to hold a large value. Some of us confuse this value as the SUM of it’s significance, which is more mathematic than esoteric. Since the astronomical (scientific) truths programmed into it literally reflect universal (divine) values in the first place. But it’s just that you define these values because you are meant to interact with your subjective narrative. The art of Tarot comes alive through your individual spirit!
The Eleventh Major Arcana is significant as the universal value of Justice. How do you value Justice? Your perception of Justice will reflect back to you in this card. I interpret Justice as difference; personal truth versus honest intentions. People can be truthful about what they perceive, while reserving their emotional honesty. Conversely people are capable of expressing their honest intentions, while their reasoning is far from the truth of the matter.
Justice requires the precision to determine where our feelings are separate from reality. If people focus too much on the duality of good versus bad, they will extricate the polarity of real balance. Real harmony does not survive off persecution and judgement, instead it is sustained in radical empathy. Which recognizes the human condition and strives to develop deeper moral understanding. Instead of basing your truths on strict information.
--- My dream of an Elephant ---
I was on a night drive with my mom, though we didn’t know where we were going. I knew that we were to meet someone who had previously delivered something to us. But we recognized them as family that didn’t like us... so we decided against going in case that the situation would turn hostile.
We ended up going to the next house, which was the same situation, where the person also didn’t like us. Yet my mother approached the house anyway, because it was trickling with water; we saw a giant fountain in the shape of an elephant. My mom was met with an angry woman that I didn’t recognize, and I left after she followed her inside the house.
There was a beach nearby, but I had to cross this apartment complex that looked like a jungle gym... It was full of characters that reminded me of middle school. I tried to ignore them as they taunted me, but some of them flirted with me too. If I looked them in the eyes too long they would draw me in close-- like energetically.
Each person seemed to dissipate as an abstract shape, while I climbed a scaffolding from the side of the apartment onto the beach... it wasn’t until I reached the top of the complex that I met someone on the beach who gave me the sweetest kiss ever.
--- July begins my personal month XVI ---
The Tower; with Neptune’s influence over the High-Heart. This arcana represents an event that miraculously shifts your reality... Which can be as subtle as lighting, or as harrowing as a puffy cloud. Neptune is a divine masculine sphere working to descend divine energy into the material plane. We can work with his powers of metaphysical emergence through the Soul Star. This is what allows us to have an immersive spiritual experience while we are on Earth.
Neptune’s influence over the High-Heart is meant to manifest a miracle in disguise. Most people are not open to receive miracles from the divine, because society has brainwashed them to sink into the 3rd dimension. Our higher-self works through the Soul Star, which is never blocked. Except our higher-self will act to support us through whatever level of consciousness that we can be reached. The beliefs that you are attached to can be a way for your guides to shield or protect you. However, people with very strong attachments will manifest huge bouts of struggle as the divine reclaims its presence in their life.
That’s why this card is pretty notorious for it’s symbolism. Neptune in your chart defines your highest potential, but you don’t get to experience it unless you’re doing the work to allow the divine some sacred space in your heart. The High-Heart chakra is even more-so distorted by people’s limited understanding because humanity is still going undergoing a Heart chakra awakening. You can’t expect to ascend into 5D overnight... there’s real 3D work to practice and only by turning to your innate divinity can you begin to witness real miracles on Earth.
--- The planet of my highest potential in my 5th house ---
This is the house of pleasure, where the expression of your soul desires attracts more of what you need. It’s where you grow into your power as a magnetic, creative force, or become engulfed in your own insatiable impulses.
My 5th house is largely ruled by the sign of Self-actualization, which reinstates my sense of character. I’m someone who learned to be proud of myself, and see my own progress when others treated me like I’m disposable. Neptune has taught me that envy is a self-imposed illusion. It’s a perfect pill for escapists who need to deny that they set their own standards... I’ve struggled with my personality for so long because I kept expecting for people to make space for me to fit into their world. It wasn’t until I realized that I could make my own world-- that I belonged to my own lane and category, did I actually start to respect myself.
A huge marker of my adolescent period was about my self-expression as a culturally displaced, visibly queer kid.
Hey, hope you're having a great day! I was wondering if you do a chart reading for and tell me anything stands out
Hi there! @dweepika
Right off the bat: the majority of your placements are within Air and Fire houses, which work to externalize the physical and metaphysical through the power of YANG expression. It shows that your life purpose relies on your ability to share and communicate your beliefs with the world around you.
What I find interesting about your chart is the Stellium of planets within your 9th house. The house of higher-knowledge, and pathways to self-enlightenment. While natural ruler of the 9th house, Jupiter, sits in your 6th. As a life path 3, you could consider that Jupiter is the planet who rules over your major life lessons. While the Stellium is highlighting the area (9th house) where you attract the most important lessons for your growth!
The life path 3 is all about a culmination of momentum. So people with this life path have a natural inertia that they were born with, for instance the stories surrounding your family's migration which somehow carries a strong association to a specific industry. It denotes abundance in a qualitative sense rather than quantitively, you see. People can be rich in ideas, secrets, diseases. But your life path has to do with realizing fulfillment, so you can enjoy the value of abundance.
Although Saturn is directly across that cluster of planets in your 9th-- as the planet of soul accountability, she will not necessarily be available to you until you overcome specific attachments in this life. Many people seem to recognize Saturn's impact for what it is: impactful... except she's not often revered for what she's capable of, and rather people fear her. Or worse, they consider her a masculine planet.
The outer planets are generally not worth mentioning when talking about personalities and compatibility... simply because they're worth more than that.
They work in higher dimensions, so that's why they introduce intense energies into our lives. Most of us are usually too preoccupied with worldly problems to keep up with them.
For instance Jupiter is an androgynous planet, seeking (masc) to be fulfilled (fem), and in your case he wants to get energy through the self-transformation of your lifestyle! My instinct is that he is very blessed to work with you. However you won't necessarily feel supported by him, not until you overcome those attachments I implied earlier.
The first six houses within our chart reveals our soul-wavelength. Which is important to understand in order to connect with our life-purpose in the first place. It's all about the 3rd dimensional consciousness and how we personally express humanity-- emotional intelligence, mental health, sexual wellbeing. Throughout our journey in life, that is all literally subject to change.
The outer planets don't wait for us to be ready! All they know is manifesting.
Within your chart I see that you are learning self-expression of your communication, in order to experience contribution of your higher-self within this life. Saturn, or Jupiter for that matter, cannot co-create with you unless you know the boundaries of your beliefs. The 3rd house deals heavily with how we're socialized, how we internalize behaviors and perpetuate the unspoken policies of our tribe. It can be as tangible to you as your native language, or as illusive as an inherited illness.
At large, the attachments you struggle with can be dispelled by the diligence of your 6th house. I see that you can connect with Mars to process the density of mundane life... I get the sense that you're a subdued person who appreciates focus. Maybe you find anxiety conducive to your productivity? That sense of urgency might've been what liberated a lot of people in your situation, such as your own ancestors.
If you are fortunate enough to connect with your family history, I think that would be a great source of inspiration, to help you realize a life purpose. Your 9th house planets: of conscious information, unconscious personality, higher potential, and also the point of magnetism (Chiron) are all involved in developing your relationship with story-- the narrative of your life matters a lot to you, because you need to fulfill a sense of connection with the past.
Mercury is the natural ruler of the third house, seeing how it's in your 9th house while Saturn occupies the 3rd, I imagine that someone in your family loved storytelling a lot and you inherited that dream in some form.
Lastly, I would guess the nature of your attachments has to do with a Third-Eye blockage. I would be interested to hear you talk about how you view success, and how people close to you achieve that (family, loved ones etc.) because that could shed light on your unconscious desires.
Let me know if I could help clarify anything ok!
What do you mean when you say "In her chart her [planet] is in the sign of "self-actualization"?
Hello! This is following a model of teachings by Naomi Goldrich which I studied with her tutorship. But let me try to explain how I understand it.
While each of the planets offer us lessons throughout life, the signs are what they actually teach to us. As each of the twelve signs are representing different qualities of the human condition... Then we can derive certain meaning from our natal chart:
Sun in Leo would mean, you will learn Self-expression (Leo) through the lessons of your Unconscious personality (Sun.)
Moon in Capricorn would mean, you will learn Self-actualization through the lessons of your Subconscious emotions.
Hope this helps.
