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I feel like I'm having a panic attack but without the panic. My heart rate is normal, my temperature is fine and stuff. But I just feel wrong. Idk how to explain it. My chest is heavy, I feel gross, I'm squirming, and I just feel this massive guilt on my conscience. I feel like I should be panicking even though I have nothing to panic about.

What do you think they’re talking about?

Febuwhump Day 7: Suffering in Silence

Fandom: Miraculous Ladybug

Summary: Adrien deals with being a hero.

  Being a superhero is any child's dream. Adrien no longer understood why. It seemed he just kept getting hurt. Often his body would be in pain but it was more than that.

    Adrien's head hurt. Not in the way you can take two Excedrin for. The things he had heard and seen. No one ever really saw the damage up close. No one saw the damage done to the people before the magic ladybugs fixed everything.

    There was no one to talk to. Ladybug had a friend of hers. She had a steady life. He had a father who couldn't even tell he was hurt. So he stitched his mouth shut and smiled. Adrien had gotten good at fake smiles.

    Loud noises scared him. The boy jumped at them. Sometimes he would grab Nino, frightened. But he always just thought that he was jumpy. Even if it had been worse since Monarch got a hold of the miraculous.

    Walking the halls of the school that always felt like it was getting destroyed was strange. It hurt. The memories loomed over his shoulders like a ghost. Focusing on his schoolwork became an extremely difficult task.

    It was time. Adrien tried to find Nino for most of the day. He felt safe with him. He wandered around the school when the bell rang. He had tried to tell him to talk to him after school in class but he was quieted by the teacher.

    The next day Adrien found him before classes started. "Hey Nino, can I talk to you?"

    "It's not a good time. How about after school?" He said.

    "Yeah. What's going on?" Adrien was nervous.

    "I'm trying to find Alya but I haven't seen her. I wanna make sure she's okay."

    'oh' That's what ran through his head. Here Adrien was, ready to tell someone what he had been though, both as a hero and as the neglected son to the famous Gabriel Agrest. "I'll help you find her."

    Maybe today was not the day. So he kept walking around, feeling the weight of the world on his shoulders. Yes everyone looked at Ladybug, but he kept her sane. Of course he didn't mind but worrying that your partner might break down on you in battle wasn't fun.

    At the end of the day, Nino had disappeared. Adrien took that as a sign. Maybe he was just supposed to go through this alone. Suffering in silence was another thing he had gotten used to. His father never listened so he found ways to deal with everything.

    Life didn't seem to be his biggest fan. Talking to Ladybug about the battles felt unfair. She was there, she didn't need his problems with hers. The hero was already cracking anyway.

    There was no one to tell. Plagg never saw it as a big deal, Nino wouldn't listen, his father wouldn't make time to listen, nor would he let him continue. Then of course there was Ladybug who couldn't know his identity.

    For a moment Adrien thought to tell Marinette. She was tough. She could take it. But she wasn't exactly a good liar. But he trusted her with his life. He loved her. But he couldn't do that to her.

    So silence it was. Adrien dropped the idea of telling anyone and just went back to jumping without anyone knowing why. He couldn't come up with a story quick enough and just seemed paranoid.

    There was no one to talk to. But he had gotten used to it. Even if it would be nice to talk to someone, Adrien would suffer in silence.

Febuwhump Master List!!

So I am so very late but oh well right? Anyway it was a lot of fun and I definitely look forward to next year! Febuwhump is one of my favorite Promt challenges!

Each fandom has a color which will be listed below! My favorites have a star beside them! All summaries/warnings are with the story!

Star Wars Rebels, EPIC the musical/the Odyssey, The Bad Batch, Star Wars The Clone Wars, Miraculous Ladybug,

Day 1: Helpless

Day 2: "I Love You" (Alt Prompt 2)

Day 3: "Bite Down on This"

Day 4: Obedience

Day 5: Last Words (Alt Prompt 7)

Day 6: "You Lied to Me."

Day 7: Suffering in Silence

Day 8: "Why Won't it Stop?"

Day 9: Bees

Day 10: Killing in Self Defense

Day 11: Time Loop