Solve It In Private - Tumblr Posts

Think I'm gonna hide out on tumblr for a bit. VRChat and Twitter are bringing me so much anxiety because of how many people I've met who refuse to listen to or believe that someone I follow whose been through trauma. Being completely honest, before I even knew what I was even doing, I was the same way. Being groomed and constantly surrounded by people who like a certain type of shit Will generally get you interested in that shit. You do it to feel cool, to feel safe in the community even if that community isnt really safe. Of course, as soon as you find out it's bad you gfto and try to stay out the best you can but trauma (especially ptsd and childhood related trauma) can bring you right back to where you started because the feeling of being "back there" can be gratifying for mental se//lf ha//rm. I trust that the person I follow is safe and doing their best not to go back to that content, recovery is hard and relapsing is unfortunately part of the process but every time you get up from being knocked down is another time you're better than your past. I believe that most people are just trying to do their best to be better than yesterday, and I guess if I get cancelled for that it's whatever. I'm just scared of losing community. I'm scared of being hated. But either way, I'll go on. I know it. I know I'll be okay. No matter who I associate with and no matter who hates me I'll be fine. My anxiety will pass and I will recover.