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The paradox.

I say I’m a survivor but what piece of me survived? Who am I? How do I know I am who I’m meant to be if I can’t figure out which parts survived and which parts I’ve lost?

There's just fragments of things I used to be and have borrowed from other people

a mess

I seem to have around three moods concerning my weight gain fetish...

1. Fantasizing about being in a relationship in which my s/o is enabling me to gain weight by appealing to the foodie in me.

2. Fantasizing about sharing a living space with other men, and (a) I'm enabling weight gain in the other men or (b) we're all gain weight together.

3. Browsing through various pictures of food porn and fantasizing about eating each thing I see and enabling my own weight gain.

i wonder how i would be described if i was a character. how would an author write my life, my flaws, my pain, my joy? how would i be seen through their eyes?

more sad poetry because it’s been a while