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does it have to be this hard?

i mean i know this is nothing compared to other people's problems but damn i am so near to quiting coz i am not sure anymore if i still want this... i always thought of myself being the great one but come to think of it, i am not. i always tend to ran away from the challenges i have to face in life. i am a coward. i always choose the easy path. scared to try some risks. scared to fail. whatta scaredy cat! and now, here i ama again. trying my best to escape. whining and whining all day. i bet these people around me are sick of it already. i bet they wanna shove some papers in my face just so i won't be able to talk and whine. sorry guys... it's just that i don't wanna be a failure. i wanna be seen by other people as a strong woman. i wanna earn some respect from them. i guess it'll end up again just like the usual. me running away from it. unless, you're willing to be by my side and lemme feel that you sincerely actually care about me and that you'll help me overcome this ruckus. ah why am i like this? always a dependent girl... can't make her own decisions. can't protect her own happiness, needs and wants... JIA YOU KC!!! JIA YOU!!!