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featuring: Sakura Haruka x f!reader

contains: sakura is a needy, subby mess in this, riding, unprotected s*x, creampie, overstimulation, implied multiple rounds, praise, begging

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You and Sakura Haruka have been dating for two months and you’re starting to feel… on edge.

Not because of anything bad, of course. Sakura is a total sweetheart as a boyfriend, if not a little bashful - always walking on the curb side of the sidewalk, remembering your coffee order, sending you pictures of dogs he sees on his patrols throughout the day.

But if there’s one thing you’ve noticed, it’s that Sakura doesn’t touch you.

You kissed him on the cheek once and his head turned into a tomato. You managed to get him to hold your hand for a movie date and he blushed so hard he started sweating.

It’s cute but you’re both adults and you want something a little more. So you start to lay it on thick.

You meet Sakura for breakfast before his patrol, sitting on the same side of a booth as he scarfs down his eggs. You start light, resting your temple on his shoulder. Sakura stills for a moment before carrying on eating so you move to the next step.

This time, you slide your hand over his thigh, squeezing his leg.

Sakura nearly chokes on his breakfast, heat crawling up his neck.

“You look so handsome today, Haru,” you purr in his ear.

Sakura’s breath catches and you see his adam’s apple bobs as he swallows.

“T-thanks,” he manages to stammer out before looking sideways at you with one golden eye. “You look pretty today.”

You break out in a smile, reaching up to press a kiss against his cheek. His skin is hot as you let the kiss linger slightly.

Sakura leaves for his patrol, still beet red, as you wave him off. You don’t see him again until later that afternoon, when he’s having a break with some other Bofurin members.

You greet them all warmly before standing in front of Sakura, who’s sitting half-slumped on a bench with one arm resting on the back. He’s sporting a new bandage on his forehead.

You lean forward under the guide of checking his bandage, concern on your face, and let him see deep down the neckline of your top. You know it’s worked when Sakura’s cheeks tint pink, his eyes glued to your chest.

“You get hurt again, baby?” you ask him, running your thumb down from his forehead to his jaw.

“I-It’s nothing,” he says thickly.

You plant a kiss against the bandage before moving down to press a chaste kiss against his lips. You expect him to pull away but, to your surprise, he nearly chases your lips with his own when you withdraw.

Sakura blinks a few times, blushing furiously, as you smile and tell him you’ll see him at home later.

You’re home before him, leaving you with just enough time to choose the right outfit. You settle on a short skirt – too short to wear outside your home – and low-cut top with no bra.

That should do the job.

When you open the door to Sakura, he makes a choked noise from the back of his throat. You usher him in before wrapping your arms around his neck.

“I missed you,” you tell him sweetly.

Sakura’s cheeks are beet red but he reciprocates your hug, snaking his arms around your waist to pull you flush to him.

God, you look incredible. The very picture of sin. Sakura’s normally tripping over his words, not used to being treated with kindness or soft touches, but it’s quickly overtaken by a visceral need.

Sakura adores you. Every time you’re close, every time you touch, he’s reminded of the bewildering fact that you’re with him and every nerve in his body lights up. He had to run from the diner earlier because just you touching his thigh gave him a tent in his pants. He had to go back to patrol late from his break because he saw down your top and he needed ten minutes to calm himself down.

It's not that Sakura doesn’t want to touch you. It’s that he knows if he starts, he won’t be able to stop touching you.

You gently guide him to the couch, climbing on his lap to straddle him. Sakura’s hands immediately go to your hips as he looks at you with wide eyes.

“You’re so good to me, Haru,” you say, your voice sultry as you push his two-toned hair back from his forehead. “I want to make you feel good now, okay?”

Sakura’s awe-struck. He nods eagerly, licking his lips and tipping his face towards yours.

You snake a hand up his neck to cup his jaw before capturing his lips in a kiss.

Sakura inhales sharply through his nose, the feel of your pillowy lips against his making his heart set off at a gallop. You deepen the kiss, slipping your tongue into his mouth and Sakura tightens his grip on you, almost whimpering against your lips.

It’s like a dam breaks inside Sakura. He kisses you back frantically, his tongue meeting yours. His hands run up to your waist, squeezing you as if afraid to let you go. You move from his mouth to his jaw and then lower down still to his neck, kissing along his windpipe, and feel him melt under your touch.

You’ve never kissed Sakura like this before, never gone anything beyond a one-time hand hold and a few pecks on the cheek. But now you’re both filled with a desperate need.

You can feel his hard-on already, pressing against the thin fabric of your panties as Sakura bucks his hips under you. You push down, grinding against his bulge and making Sakura whimper.

“Does that feel good, baby?” you coo, peppering loving kisses across his warm cheeks.

“Mhm, fuck… y-yeah, feels s’good…” Sakura breathes out as you drag your clothed pussy along his length.

Even as his brain becomes addled with needy pleasure, he can’t stop his hands roaming over you. He reaches up to start groping your breasts, feeling the soft flesh between his fingers and your nipples hardening under his palm.

“S-Shit…” he mumbles.

How many times has he thought about touching you like this? More times than he can count – and none of his imaginings come close to the real thing.

Sakura leans forward, pushing your top up over your tits so he can bury his face in your cleavage. His hands move down to your ass, gripping you tight as he pushes and pulls your hips, encouraging you to grind harder. Every stroke of your pussy, even through two layers of fabric, is making his cock leak so much precum, it’s soaking through his pants.

Sakura’s lips latch onto your nipple, eliciting a sharp gasp from you as he starts to suck roughly, his teeth grazing you. You card your fingers through the hair at the back of his head, encouraging him.

“You’re such a good boy, Haru,” you tell him, your voice coming out breathless and lusty.

Sakura moans into your breasts and you feel his cock throb. Neither of you are undressed but he’s a mess already, all needy and handsy and desperate.

“P-Please let me fuck you,” Sakura whimpers. “Please, I’ll do anything, just let me fuck you, please.”

You pull your hips back, cupping Sakura’s chin to force him to look at you.

“Are you sure, baby?” you ask between soft kisses at the corner of his mouth.

Sakura nods desperately, his hips involuntarily bucking up. His cock strains against his pants, so achingly hard.

“I need to feel you, please, let me cum inside you. Please, baby, please, I can’t-” Sakura whines through gritted teeth, his hips still stirring at a chance of feeling your pussy rub against him again. “I need you so bad right now.”

The sound of his sweet begging only makes you wetter. You press a gentle kiss to his lips.

“I can’t say no to you, Haru.”

You reach down to unbutton his pants, pulling his cock free. He’s hard as a rock, the tip shiny with precum. Your eyes widen slightly – he’s bigger than you thought he’d be.

“Ah! F-Fuck…” Sakura gasps as he feels your soft fingers close around it, his hips bucking again, desperate to rut into you.

You pull your panties to the side, drenched with your arousal, and align your sopping hole with his fat mushroom tip. Sakura whimpers as he feels your heat, making you smirk. Having him under you like this, like putty, so needy and helpless, is making your clit throb with desire.

You slowly sink down onto him, his girth stretching you but made easier with the amount of slick between your legs. Sakura gives a long, relieved moan as he feels himself slot inside you, so snug and warm and tight.

“That’s it, baby,” you soothe him, slowly bouncing up and down. “Does that feel good?”

“So f-fucking good,” Sakura stammers, pleasure short-circuiting his brain and making it hard to speak.

He squeezes his eyes shut, his brows knitting together in the middle as his lips part. His hands are on your tits again, groping you, feeling them bounce under his touch as you ride him. His cock throbs inside you, engorged with how close he is to cumming.

You roll your hips, rubbing your clit against him with every stroke, bracing yourself with your hands on his muscular shoulders. Sakura starts to thrusts up, meeting your hips with his as he becomes more needy, more desperate to cum.

Sakura wraps both his arms around you, pulling you flush to him and raising your hips slightly.

“So close… so close…” he whimpers as he thrusts up, holding you in place as he ruts up into you. He’s so sensitive he could burst, caught between the need to cum and the need to prologue this feeling for as long as possible, your heavenly walls squeezing him so tightly.

He presses his face against your tits, sucking roughly on your nipple as he fucks up into you. Sakura’s cock bullies into your pussy, stroking against the spot inside you that’s making you drip like a faucet. You tug on the roots of his hair, scratching your nails over his scalp as you whisper hoarse praises to him.

Sakura’s eyes roll back inside his head, your nipple falling from his mouth as he lets out a deep moan. His mind whites out as his orgasm hits, a choked groan escaping his throat.

“Fuck… fuck…” he whimpers as you feel him come undone inside you.

Sakura doesn’t stop thrusting even as he spills his load, fucking it into you. His grip loosens slightly on you so you meet his thrusts, bouncing on his cock again as Sakura bucks and jerks under you.

“That’s it, let me have it all, baby,” you talk him through it softly.

You slow as Sakura’s arms tighten around you again, his face smooshed between your tits, his hips stuttering to a stop. You can feel him breathing hard against your chest, sweat coating both your bodies.

Gently, you pry him away from you and meet his lips in a kiss.

“You did so good, Haru,” you praise him, cupping his jaw.

You’re aware he’s still inside you when he throbs at your words, even as his face is dazed, cheeks pink.

“I’ll give you a few minutes and then we’ll do that again, okay?” You wiggle on his lap, Sakura wrapping his arms tighter around you as your walls squeeze his oversensitive cock. “Can you do that for me?”

Sakura nods eagerly, his eyes glazed over with lust.

“Yes, ma’am.”

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I needed to get one more Wind Breaker art out of my system. I sketched this a few weeks ago and I finally finished it.

RAAAAAAAAAGHHH

I stand Sakura Haruka from Wind Breaker

Don't change my mind...

Manga Spoilers... And A Random Theory Of Mine ?

Eeee... I think this is Sakura family? I don't know, maybe my guess is wrong...

But if this true... then fuc*k them then, like... I don't know what to say, but it feels like... Sakura having social anxiety maybe because Sakura parents also play a role, I can't say a lot, because we don't know if this true or not.

But, I have a feeling that Sakura is also being rejected from his family, because he used to be alone before.

And, if his family really care, then at least Sakura not feeling alone before right? Even though the whole society reject him, but his family care for him, then... Sakura would at least knew how to "look up and face them", right?

Soo... maybe Sakura is not having a loving and care family? I don't know... this is just a random theory of mine...

Anyway... Sakura have a brother... wow... I didn't expect that... but from what I can see... Sakura's brother is having normal hair I guess.

Btw... sorry for the grammer mistakes and all... I'm not good at english... :"(

Look at him... he so cute... and cool at the same time...

My Random Analysis about Muteki Song Meaning (Part 1)

Part 2 Part 3

Yeah 3 parts because I'm lazy as fuck.

Warning : MANGA SPOILERS, My grammar is bad, My Japanese is also bad, don't trust my analysis perfectly, typos

Oke, soo. Let's analysis the title song first

無敵 (Muteki)

To make this short, it's literally this (I already told you guys I'm not good at grammar and Japanese right?)

Invincible; unrivaled; unrivaled

無 (mu)

From Romanjidesu (English - Japanese dictionary)

(Mu) is clearly means as :

nothing; naught; nought; nil; zero

un-; non-

Meanwhile,

敵 (teki) means as :

opponent; rival; adversary

menace; danger; threat; enemy

So, if we put together, 無敵 (muteki) means Invincible. This honestly makes sense to Sakura's character, he is invincible, he so strong that he almost becomes undefeatable. Wtf am I saying?

Btw, the kanji have another meaning, because you know... hiragana etc.

Back to the topic, and then we go to the first lyrics.

“I'm other half (fragment) like a light I'll protect you”

“I'm invincible My heart hurts so much that it breaks”

This can be interpreted as how Sakura sees Furin, his friends, and the people at Makochi (Furin territory). 

From chapter 145 Sakura says “It’s because of them… that I started wanting… to be here. It’s warm, it smells so nice. … I’ve never been to a place… where I could stand so easily before. That’s why… I wanted to protect it.”

Sakura wants to protect the fragment of light he has. But, we know that Sakura is invincible, that ‘invincible’ also makes him suffer, it also makes his heart hurt. From what we know (from the anime and the manga) Sakura is always alone before he meets Furin and the others. 

From my interpretation, Sakura doesn’t want to be ‘invincible’, he becomes what he is because of the past itselft. Because of the rejection he got, it broke his heart, but he tried to hide it. And so, this makes sense to the next lyrics.

“I don’t want it, don’t come near me, even though you pretend to understand”

“I brushed away the hand you reached out because I’m a devil”

Son, the anime did a good job for showing Nirei in the first part, and then Suo for the next part (I know they also show Tsugeura, but it's not the main point okay).

We know that Nirei always wants to be helpful for Sakura, for showing Sakura the way to the top. 

“So, at the very least, I hope that when he’s lost, or when he’s in trouble…I can help him. I… want to be helpful to him! at least a little!” Nirei to Suo at chapter 57.

Nirei and Suo may not know what Sakura's past is, but they don’t pretend to understand. They are confused, yes, but they still want to understand Sakura, and want Sakura to rely on them more.

But, to protect himself, Sakura rejected it. Because he doesn't know how to handle it. This is literally what Suo said to Nirei after visiting sick Sakura.

“If you're given something you don’t know how to use when you’re in bind… it’s just going to make things worse, right?”

“As for Sakura-kun, I don’t think he even knew about smartphones… let alone know how to use one. This also applies… to friendship too, I think.” Suo to Nirei at chapter 57.

Sakura views himself as a ‘devil’ because of what people think he is, what people say about him, once again just because of his appearance. (Why the fuck men). Sakura refuses to admit that he can’t do this alone, he is scared of once again being rejected.

“If you smile for me, even my unbearable past”

“I’ll think it’s all worthless”

“Alone, I crouched down”

“I won’t forget that you pulled out my heart”

At first I’m confused about what these lyrics meant, so I searched for another translation, and I found this.

“As long as you smile for me, I can overcome my shameful past”

“I don’t think everything is worth it”

“Alone, I crouched down”

“I’ll never forget you pulling out my heart”

And I go back to chapter 58, when Sakura asks Kaji how to rely more on his friends. And I found this interesting, in the manga when Sakura monologues about not supposed to care about what the others see about him. 

But, all of his classmates are smiling at him (minus Sugishita), they’re seeing Sakura as who he is, and accepting who Sakura is. 

“... not a single one of them… chose… to reject you.” Kaji to Sakura at chapter 59.

Because of that, the ‘shameful or the unbearable past’ manages Sakura to overcome it, even though Sakura thinks it’s all worthless (because once again, he still ‘scared for no reason’ just like what Kaji said to him).

So, when he ‘crouched down alone’ in the darkness, he could never forget everyone who ‘pulled out his heart’. This literally means Sakura who is always alone, scared of being rejected, scared to accept everyone, scared for seeing who they’re, but now he finally can jump out from the tightrope.

(God damn… I’m very happy for this boy :’’’))

Anyway... end of part 1

I want to eat my oranges now

Bye :)

Yippeee, Wind Break another style collection vol 1 in my style, but this time it's Sakura (you guys know my favorite now)

Oh... it's not pure black...

Owh well...

Tutututuuu...

Just pretend we don't know the colour because this is my second attempt for using manga style...

I already have enough shits with manga style... (but I will try again btw)

My Random Analysis about Muteki Song Meaning (Part 2)

Part 1 Part 3

We're gonna have a roller coaster of emotions son...

Warning : MANGA SPOILERS, My grammar is bad, My Japanese is also bad, don't trust my analysis perfectly, typos

Before we continue... there are additions from the previous part.

“As long as you smile for me, I can overcome my shameful past”

“I don’t think everything is worth it”

“Alone, I crouched down”

“I’ll never forget you pulling out my heart”

At this lyrics, the ending shows us this :

I think my analysis is kinda right but wrong... idk... but from this we know that Sakura finally can go out from the 'shadows'. But anyway... let's get started guys...

“What's behind those eyes? ”

“The heartbeat that makes even my selfish fists cry”

“I don't want to lose, I don't want to hurt you”

“I'll protect you, I'm invincible. My heart hurts so much that it breaks”

This is clearly when Sakura tells his classmates about who he is (in chapter 60, send help pliss). At first, he’s not looking at his friend's eyes, scared, shut his eyes, and questioning what’s behind those eyes.

“The heartbeat that makes even my selfish fists cry”

Ah, yes… this lyrics means how scared Sakura is for jumping out at the tightrope for the first time.

“What if there’s a place… where I can stand freely? Then, I…” Sakura at chapter 60.

Sakura… is always fighting, all that fighting just for proving himself, he has a value that the others don’t or have. But, because of that,  he doesn't understand what friendship means, he even just knew about human body temperature when he shaked hands with Sugishita. 

So, when the people in town, Furin, and his classmates are accepting who he is, it makes his “selfish fists cry”. Sakura's motivation for going to the top is just to prove himself is just like Choji. Reach the top of the mountain, and then find nothing but emptiness, and Sakura realizes that. 

But, when his classmates are trusting him for becoming the grade captain, his “selfish fists” are “crying”. This is what makes the third and fourth lyrics become more meaningful. 

“My body feels light. It’s easy to breathe. I never knew… a place like this existed… this is it. I want to be here.” Sakura at chapter 60.

“It’s because of them… that I started wanting… to be here. It’s warm, it smells so nice. … I’ve never been to a place… where I could stand so easily before. That’s why… I wanted to protect it.” Sakura at chapter 145.

These two monologues have a very deeper connection with the third and fourth lyrics. He wants to protect it, he don't want to lose it, he wants to protect it. (Fuck Endo men…)

And, because of that, “I'm invincible. My heart hurts so much that it breaks” have another new meaning. 

Literally, this also has a connection about Endo itself, we know that Endo saw Sakura have the “same colour” as Takiishi. Endo plans to “destroy” Sakura, and Sakura is almost given up, because he doesn’t want to destroy the place who accepts him. He doesn’t want to drag them down, even though he wants to hold on with his two hands, and it hurts his hearts to pieces.

“My tattered heart was distorted and crushed”

“It’s a little bit embarrassing that I can’t understand unless I try to know”

“I was trying to be bossy, and I was talking about a strength I didn't know” 

“My tattered heart was distorted and crushed”

Distorted in this lyrics can be seen as “A distorted thought or cognitive distortion — and there are many — is an exaggerated pattern of thought that's not based on facts. It consequently leads you to view things more negatively than they really are.”

This is when Endo fractures Sakura in chapter 144, and makes Sakura give up. Endo makes Sakura think that he is a walking bad luck charm that will harm the others. 

“After you’ve lost yourself to pure rage… I’ll inject fear and self-blame into your mind.” Endo at chapter 145.

OR, it’s when society rejects him, society views Sakura as someone who’s negative. ‘an exaggerated pattern of thought that's not based on facts.’Even though we know that Sakura is a very nice guy (his heart is so pure), the society still rejects him. The society just views him based on his looks (once again why?).

We can know this from eps 1, yeah not from the manga, but from the anime. (Good job Cloverwork! From adding this good detail) There's some guy who told Sakura to dye his hair all black. From this, we knew that because of his looks, because of his uniqueness, the society rejected him, and his heart was crushed because of that.

In the end, Sakura's heart is still getting distorted and crushed. (Son, nooo)

“It’s a little bit embarrassing that I can’t understand unless I try to know”

Kotoha and Umemiya realize that Sakura is not given up yet, given up to understand other people, given up to accept people, see them on the face. Sakura… is trying to know, and trying to learn. And Sakura did it, he wanted to understand more about Togame, and he was mad when Choji hit Togame, also he almost went to attack him.

“It’s because you don't give up on others, and you don't have to. But, the least I can do is look at you. That's why… if you look toward us. If you do that surely… you’ll find what you’ve always wanted.” Kotoha to Sakura at chapter 1.2.

“In order to accept someone… you have to lay everything open and face each other. You’re able to do that… and it looks to me that you want to accept others. Once you can do that… you could become whatever you want.” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 30.  

“I was trying to be bossy, and I was talking about a strength I didn't know” 

Sakura thinks he can go to the top alone. Thinking that going to the top alone will solve his problem about accepting who he is, but that’s not the answer. Sakura realized this after talking with Ume.

The ‘strength’ this song talks about is the strength to accept others, Sakura doesn't understand this, and this explains from what Ume says to Sakura before. Thinking that he couldn’t reach the top because he never allowed anyone into his life before.

Sakura didn't realize these two important things, accept who he is, and accept the others. Willingly to face them.

“You should talk to them… really look at them… and understand them. Or else, you’ll never really know what a person is like.” Kotoha to Sakura at chapter 2.

“Let me stay here, I want to be here”

“No matter what I do, no matter if I lose”

Sakura never wanted to be alone in the first place. Humans always want to be accepted by others, it’s something that is very important.

“Feeling accepted is a basic psychological need that can have a profound impact on our emotional well-being and mental health. When we feel accepted, we feel valued, supported, and validated, and these positive feelings can have a ripple effect throughout our lives. This is a deep-seated instinct we all have; to be accepted and to belong somewhere.” 

This is what Sakura is not able to have, I don’t know if Sakura has good parents or not (but from my theory, no). Sakura wanted to be accepted by the others, but because of his looks, he was not accepted by society, he was left alone. He’s not belong anywhere, until he found Furin, Makochi, and his friends. He feels accepted, he feels valued, supported, and validated by others.

So, when Endo insults his friends, and Furin. Sakura defended his friend and Furin, he was mad, and because of this Endo had a chance to make Sakura give up.

“Don’t you… dare… talk about them!!!” Sakura to Endo at chapter 144.

And this is why these two lyrics have a very deep connection to Sakura, Furin, and the people at the town.

Sakura finds comfort in Furin and Makochi, he finds peace, he finds a place where he belonged to, where he needed, where he was being supported, valued, and the most important thing is Sakura feeled validated or being accepted by others.

“What’s more… they’re such good people… I don’t even know how to handle it. It’s because of them… that I started wanting… to be here. It’s warm, it smells so nice. … I’ve never been to a place… where I could stand so easily before. That’s why… I wanted to protect it.” Sakura at chapter 145.

(I’m not crying… you guys are crying…)

Can we're just agree that Young Kee did a very good job for expressing Sakura's feeling through a song. Like... broh I want to cry now... Next, is the last part of the analysis... preapre more tissue now... .

And... Kotoha and Umemiya sure is a good siblings for Sakura (and Tsubaki, don't forget that too).

My Random Analysis about Muteki Song Meaning (Part 3)

Part 1 Part 2

Finally it's finish... and sorry for the long wait...

Warning : MANGA SPOILERS, My grammar is bad, My Japanese is also bad, don't trust my analysis perfectly, typos

“I can’t even notice beautiful things”

“The clown monster that I was forced to know will try to tame me”

“I’m sure it will gently bare its fangs”

“My heart began to shrink, with an ambivalent sense of justice and evil”

“With love even in the despair that there is no eternity”

Sakura didn’t realize that his friends were all trusting him, the beautiful things that Sakura can’t even notice because of Sakura's distrust and fear of rejection. ‘The clown monster’ is symbolized as Sakura's fear of rejection that always haunts him, that ‘the clown monster’ will surely someday bare its fangs to Sakura. We can see this from chapter 60, Sakura believes that the only path that will allow him to accept who he is just as wide as a tightrope. 

“My heart began to shrink, with an ambivalent sense of justice and evil”

“With love even in the despair that there is no eternity”

First, we need to know what this word are talking about : 

Shrink, ambivalent, and eternity. Okay, so english is not my native language, and I need to search the meaning from google first, and I got this conclusion.

Shrink as a verb is to become smaller, or to make something smaller, meanwhile as a noun is a clinical psychiatrist or psychologist. called also headshrinker. And, I think you guys know what I mean.

Ambivalent : having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone.

Eternity : time without end, or infinity.  

Sakura knew that he had to trust his friends more, and rely on them more. But, he is scared people will leave him because of what he views as ‘weak’, he refuses to admit it, this is why Sakura’s heart began to ‘shrink’, and ambivalence began to emerge in his heart. We can take reference from chapter 58 of the manga. 

Kaji gave a really good explanation for Sakura, if you guys forgot. Kaji uses a coffee bottle as an example, when Kaji changed the labels on the coffee bottle to Green Tea, Kaji still viewed this as a coffee bottle. The Green Tea label is a metaphor as the outer side of Sakura, where Sakura insists that he can do anything alone, he refuses to believe that.

And, the Coffee inside it, it’s a metaphor as what Sakura understands. Sakura understands that he can’t do this alone, he can’t do much on his own, and he has to rely on his friends more. 

“... How much you insist that this is Green Tea… to me, the inside is still coffee. Just changing the label… doesn’t mean that what’s inside changes. So, when you can’t do something and you refuse to admit it… then, it’s the same… as faking and insisting that this is Green Tea… when the inside is coffee.” Kaji to Sakura at chapter 58.

So, when Sakura confronted all of his friends, all of his classmates. That’s when Sakura begins to trust all his classmates, he begins to ‘love’ the place where he can stand so easily. Like, look at him, he laughing, and smiling for the first time in the manga. 

But, He knew that there’s no eternity in this place, everything is going to change, and what Sakura fears is that Makochi, and Furin are going to suffer because of him. Literally this part reminds me of chapter 145, and chapter 146, where Sakura almost falls into despair. Look at Sakura eyes at the beginning chapter 146, and the end of chapter 146. He looked so down, he almost fell into despair, but glady Suo, Nirei, and Tsugishita helped him. This can be seen in chapter 146 cover chapter.  

“Wobbly and tattered, I still wanted to stand”

“If only I could meet you with bare love”

“Taking unders and heaving dead, because it’s worse than that, I’m invincible”

“An outsider full of traumas, even it it’s devilish”

Aaaaaaaaaa I've always wanted to cry at these lyrics, my heart… okey, let’s get back to the point.

Even after what happened in the past, Sakura still wanted to understand people more, he still didn't want to give up yet. He said, he already gave up on being accepted, being judged, and he doesn’t care about what others think of him now. So, why is Sakura still thinking about the others leaving him alone? Well, that’s because he still wanted to ‘stand’, he still wanted to face the others.

Of course, it’s not only that, Sakura still wanted to stand and protect Furin, even though he was wobbly and tattered, and this brings us to the next lyrics. If only Sakura can love Furin with all his heart, maybe he can face them without hesitation. He can see the others as who they are, no more the feeling of being scared of being rejected, and he can trust them on what he can see. He… can stand freely.

 “Taking unders and heaving dead, because it’s worse than that, I’m invincible” 

For the sake of God… time to brainrot my brain again.

Oh, wait… nevermind, now I remember Umemiya said to Sakura that he will never lose to reach the top. Now, you see what I see.

Remember, when the Shishitoren arc finish, the geng plus Choji and Togame having a picnic, yeah that’s what I’m talking about. ‘Taking unders and heaving dead’ also can be seen as ‘give up’. For reaching the top, Umemiya told Sakura, that no matter how difficult the path, no matter how unreasonable the climb is, and no matter how absurd it gets, he will never lose. 

And, because of that, giving up became something that is worse, because if sakura gave up now (fighting Endo), he couldn’t reach the top. And, so once again “I’m invincible” has another meaning, this has become more than just a sentence, but it’s become a declaration, and promise. A declaration that Sakura will never give up again, and a promise to reach the top.

“An outsider full of traumas, even it it’s devilish”

Before, Sakura is just some random outsider that comes into the town, bringing full of traumas on his shoulders alone. Viewed as someone who is ‘devilish’, we can see this as problematic, or even troublesome. Sakura, and the society view Sakura as problematic, and troublesome to deal with, and we can see that clearly in the first eps of the anime, and the entire series of the manga.

“I want to protect you, I want to love you, my heartbeat makes me cry”

“The smell of blood sweetly wafts, malice stretches out”

“I want to hold you tight for the last time to the point of breaking”

But, he wanted to protect, and love with all his heart the place where he belonged to, the place where he cherished, and open up his heart. “my heartbeat” can be seen as Sakura without any hesitation went to Shishitoren teritory, Roppo-Ichiza, and Gravel, all of this just for the sake of Furin, his friends, and the place where he belongs. 

“makes me cry” because Sakura doesn’t want to lose all of this, he realizes how precious Furin and Makochi are for him, so it’s okay for him to cry, and begging the other team to help him, because the important thing is that Furin is still safe. 

“The smell of blood sweetly wafts, malice stretches out”

Time to remind you guys that english is not my native language… so it’s time to google again…

Malice : the intention or desire to cause harm (as death, bodily injury, or property damage) to another through an unlawful or wrongful act without justification or excuse.

I… okey this reminds me of Endo…idk, because the next lyrics is literally about Sakura wanting to hold tight on his friends. Okay, let’s talk about that later. 

Idk why, but maybe this lyrics is talking about the Noroshi arc (yeah, I know it’s not the arc name but idk I'm too lazy to read the whole manga again).

The malice this lyrics is talking about, is about Noroshi. Noroshi is the ‘malice’, but mainly it’s about Endo, and ‘the smell of blood sweetly wafts’ is talking about Sakura. From the beginning of the arc, Sakura is already being targeted by Endo itself. 

Wafts : The scent of climbing roses wafts through the window.

For Endo, Sakura has the same spark as Takiishi, because of that these lyrics make more sense (I think?), and Endo wanted to have Sakura on his side. Like we see in the manga. So, the next lyrics make more sense, Sakura wanted to hold on with his own two hands, he wanted to hold tight his friends. Even if it means he almost went broke. 

Because…

“I won’t look away from your eyes anymore”

He won’t look away from his friends anymore, this time he won’t fall to the abyss for the second time, because his friends are there to hold his hand tight. 

So, Sakura will face it, he won’t look away anymore. Let’s take chapter 1 and chapter 146 as examples of it. At first Sakura is scared to look at Kotoha and the people in town, he looks at them, but he gets scared, then glances away.

But, then at chapter 146, Sakura is facing Sugishita. No more fear in his eyes, he stood there with confidence. You guys can see the parallels of chapter 1 and chapter 146,  btw there are some Tumblr users who realize this before me, so I’m gonna copy the link for you guys. 

Anyway, in the ending scene, there’s Umemiya. You know, the fact that the animator showing Umemiya at the beginning and the end of the scene is literally perfect. Umemiya tells Sakura that he was given the status, he doesn't take it, he can’t become the top alone. And that is why the opening shows Umemiya, that’s because Umemiya teaches, Umemiya becomes the mentor itself.

There is also one Tumblr user who has the theory that Umemiya chose Sakura to be the next leader, and that is a good theory.

This also happened at chapter 55 and chapter 59, Umemiya told Sakura that he liked all of his friends, and at chapter 59 Umemiya encouraged Sakura to trust his friends more. 

“Sakura. The reason why you couldn’t move… was probably because you saw your friends all beat up. Don’t ya think? If that’s the case… then there’s only one reason why that happened. It’s because… you like them.” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 55.

“Trust Kaji. Trust your friends. And jump right out there… with everything you’ve got!” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 59.

Conclusion : 

I love this song, Young Kee did a really good job of explaining Sakura's feelings with the song. 

Sakura is really one of the complexes I love, well not really complex if you compare it with Monster characters.But if it’s Shounen we’re talking about, then yes. Like bro, I really like how Satoru nii-sensei portrayed Sakura struggles with drawing, and how he is learning to accept who he is, learning to see his friends based on what he sees, the struggles and the anxiety that make me move.

Anyway thank you to Jamong for the lyrics translation on youtube,

Lyrical-Nonsense , and

MatchLyric

People who liked and read this nonsense paragraph. Like, I type this analysis in Google docs, and it’s almost 12 pages. Like wtf men, this is pure blabbering nonsense I say.

But, anyway, thank you, and see you guys on my next fanart then :333

PS :

I think it's time for me to go back at Twisted Wonderland fandom, and I'm still grinding for Floyd card... help...

شکسته که شکسته کی اهمیت میده بیاین کار جدیدو ببینین-

اگه این دوتا یه جایی باهم ملاقات میکردن قطعا شو با خودش فکر میکرد ایشون بچه ی ایزانا و کاکوچو ئه😔😂

راستی بعدا بیزحمت یادم بندازین عکس کامل ژاکت های شو و اعضای کیوگای رو براتون پست کنم

خوش باشید

*وی نقاشی را پست میکند و در میرود*

Idc who cares about a broken glass check out the new drawing-

If they ever met shu would think he's izana and kakucho's child for sure😔😂

Btw guys pls remind me to post the full pic of shu and kyogai members' jackets sometime

Have fun

*posts and runs away*

HARUKA SAKURA

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Crazy how rendering works.

Fuck this shit. I'm moving on to that other show with gojo and megumi. Hopefully they'll get a better ending there.

This boy needs pats. Pat pat. wushuwushuwushuwushu 🫳🫳

Cuddling/making out with wind breaker boys! (Please include sugishita 🫂)

𝘊𝘜𝘋𝘋𝘓𝘌𝘚!

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Sakura Haruka:

- If he’s the one getting cuddles, this man would be incredibly flustered. He’s that one cat who would just go wide eyed when their owner pressed their face against their stomach or that one cat who would hiss or meow because of their owner not letting go of them.

- But aside that, he won’t push you away and slowly accept the affection, awkwardly wrapping his arms around you. (Touch starved boi)

- He’ll slowly relax & will accidentally fall asleep sometimes, if you get lucky seeing it.

- Now, if you’re the one receiving cuddles, he’ll probably just raise his arms up like a red panda, too flustered and embarrassed to explain he wants to cuddle you that you need to be the one to initiate or get closer to him so he could wrap himself around you. Or he’ll just plop himself on to you.

- He likes being the little spoon. - Give him kisses and a tight hug. He needs it. - Lastly, when he gets red or falling asleep, he likes to hide his face against your neck. - He’s a cat. Confirmed.

"Fine..." - Haruka Sakura

BONUS: How does he kiss? At first, his kisses are quick and quite rough from the force because of being too embarrassed but once he gets used to it, his kisses will be gentle but still quite hasty and awkward. He gently holds your head as well, making the kiss deep and sweet. <3

Umemiya Hajime:

- Gentle but energetic.

- A big cuddle bug. Literally a big bear with a big heart. -v-

- He’ll always get his chance everytime to hug or cuddle you. He doesn’t care if it’s in school, at home, or anywhere.

- Will get pouty if you avoid or decline him. So don’t. (Kinda has a Bokuto personality, in my opinion.)

- When cuddling, he likes pepper you with kisses before giving you a big kiss on the lips and would laugh with his cheeks bright red.

- He’s neither a little spoon nor a big spoon, as long as he can get hold of you then it’s enough for him.

- A human heater. Good for winter but a curse for summer (/j). You really need an aircon or a fan if he really wants to cuddle in summer. -v-’

- Would yap for hours about his plants.

- If he accidentally sleeps while cuddling, be ready for the death grip. He won’t let you go or either join him to sleep.

"MWWWAH!" - Umemiya Hajime

BONUS: How does he kiss? Well, he takes his time kissing you. His pace is calm and his kisses are soft but sometimes has an “energetic” kind of kisses that is sweet but long and a big kiss when he has too much energy or too much sunshine-y. After all, he’s a boy with a ball of energy that we love. (‾◡◝)

Togame Jo:

- Gentle 2.0 but mix it with teasing.

- He’ll savor the moment or tease you in every chance he gets.

- If you decided to plan to cuddle with him, don’t regret your choices ‘cause this man won’t let you go. Even if you need water or want to eat.

- He likes to have his hair played or getting pats and would always snuggle against you. He likes to comb your hair with his fingers as well.

- His voice is like a lullaby, like it’s deep and throaty but comforting that it will really make you sleep like a log without knowing.

- I know this man has some kind of laziness, so whenever he wants to cuddle, he won’t say it and rather plop his weight on to you like a cat landing on top of you that it hurts.

"Do that laterr..." - Jo Togame

BONUS: How does he kiss? Lazy. He gives lazy kisses, either in your lips or peppering your face. He likes to hold your face, softly rubbing his thumb against your cheeks. Would tell you compliments, teasing, affirmations, etc. /v\

Kyotaro Sugishita:

- Sleepy cat.

- Just like Togame, he likes his hair getting played and being combed by your fingers.

- This boy likes to lay you on top of him rather than to the side and wrap one of his arms around your waist.

- His grip around you is neither tight nor loose but he would unconsciously tighten his grip when he turns to his side in his sleep.

- He is also the most difficult guy to wake up to. But for you? He'll wake up as soon as you kiss his cheek and forehead and softly call his name.

- There are times when both of you sleep until midnight. Literally skipping dinner and lunch. -v-'

"..." - Kyotaro Sugishita

BONUS: How does he kiss? Sleepy kisses. His pace is slow and soft, never rough. He likes to peck your lips more than the long ones. He would always hold your head, and after he kissed your lips, he would go for your forehead and cheek, just like you always do to him to wake him up. (^///^)

______________________________________ FINALLY DONE AND THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING ANON AND HOPE IT REACHED YOUR EXPECTATIONS! <33 STILL THINKING IF I MAKE A PART TWO FOR THIS FOR HIRAGI AND TSUBAKINO AND MAYBE FOR THE OTHERS SINCE I HAVE RUN OUT OF IDEAS RN WHEN I DID SUGISHITA'S PART ahahaha ANYWAYS, THANK YOU AGAIN FOR REQUESTING ANON AND HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT! <33

(Edit: Still have 10 slots for those who wants to request! <3)

Xin: *Checking out a cookie* Sakura, do you have any siblings? Sakura: No?? Xin: But isn't this your siblings? *Shows an Oreo cream* Sakura: ... Xin: You also have a lot of little siblings too. *Show a packet of little Oreos inside it* Sakura: ...... Xin: (‾◡◝) Sakura: I swear to god...

Sakura Haruka says: Trans Rights

I wake up at 6 am for what ever reason and- HATSUNE MIKU THE MOVIE?!??!?!

(Project SEKAI the Movie: The Lost Sekai and The Miku Who Can't Sing)

Screenshot is from the live on YouTube: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EGN6LA1ChAA

NOT BOUT TO HOLD YALL.....🥱

. I ship very hard 🫶🫢🤧

ARE YOU YOU READY TO RUMBLE?! 🫨

Can't wait till they air volume 14, I'm ready for this gang war arc.

And shi...lowkey...might start writing about Suo fine ass😭🤧

(P.S ART IS NOT MINE...found them on Pinterest😍🖕💓)

How the Wind Breaker boys act when they've got a cold

ft. Sakura Haruka, Umemiya Hajime, and Kaji Ren

cw: none

notes: slapped down some HCs for three of my fave boys while half asleep and on lunch break so pardon any mistakes

Sakura

"i can take care of myself, like i always have, so get out!"

he's scared any sickness is perceived as weakness

and no one has ever cared for him ever, regardless of whether he was sick or injured, so you trying to take care of him in any capacity is so confusing

like, is this what normally happens when someone is sick? other people...help them??

softly complains when you do things for him, like making him food or making sure he always has water on hand, but he never seriously tries to stop you

he likes these new, warm feelings he gets when you're around, and it's when he's sick he realizes that he doesn't think he can live without you anymore

will probably do his best to return the favor when you get sick next - he's clumsy at taking care of others, but he wants to do his best for you

Umemiya

big baby, of course

just a huge sookie baby

wants to be babied by you so much

everything is terrible when you aren't around when he's not feeling well

which means everything is terrible for the people around him

he can't get comfortable, his food never tastes right, he aches all over, and he always feels too hot or too cold

but if you are there with him, he feels so much better, even if all you're doing is sitting with him on the couch, running your fingers through his hair, holding him

if he so much as makes a passing comment about his throat feeling a bit sore, you bet Hiragi is finding you ASAP because there's no WAY he is dealing with a sick Umemiya

Kaji

when you aren't around, he's even easier to piss off

HATES not feeling like himself, whether that be with the monster inside of him or when he's wiped out from an illness

basically like a guard dog in pain, lashing out at anyone that gets too close

everyone around him can FUCK OFF

but with you, he's totally docile

your hand feels so nice and cool on his feverish skin

you know what he needs without him having to say it

will probably make a fuss (groan, sigh) if you get him up for a bath or shoo him out of bed so you can change the sheets, but makes no move to actually stop you from doing it

secretly loves you doting on him when he's vulnerable like this (though probably not as secretly as he thinks considering he'll be clingier than usual)