Ramblings Of A Mentally Ill Machine - Tumblr Posts

just got animal well on sale and went in totally blind

"beat the game" but i know theres more. fun so far

solved the uv egg puzzle

interesting and satisfying bit i enjoyed

immediately blasted with new information i dont know how to interpret

this game is for insane people isnt it

im gonna be here a while

been thinking about dizzy (the ship) a lot and i actually really like it

theres something about the inherent tragedy of it

i might not be able to make awesome fanart like all the people on here but i am very very good at rambling so heres my unedited unrevised thoughts about it

lizzy and doll are what historians would call "very good friends." they do everything together. despite the differences everyone else sees between them, they know each other and understand each other and care about each other. and in the case of dizzy, they want each other.

the thing that you have to understand about these two characters is that they have one similarity. they are very good at putting up a front.

doll shows this very well, we see her being a bit silly and expressive and fun a few times but as soon as its her time to enter the spotlight and enter the cast of main characters properly, shes a totally different person. her front, her mask, is a person who is cold and calculated. someone who is capable and independent and mysterious. nobody knows what she wants and she wants it to stay that way

lizzy. i dont think people give her enough credit for this. shes the popular girl. her entire thing is putting up a front. nobody, and i mean nobody, is actually 100% Like That. she is very good at performance. playing a role for an audience. lizzys front is one of disinterest. of compliance because it is the path of least resistance. doll is her friend after all, why should she care if she becomes a serial killer just to enact a revenge plot. anything for her besties.

and thats a very interesting dynamic to me. doll pretends not to care about anything to hide the fact that she does care. shes trying to save the world after all! and also maybe a certain drone in particular. and then theres lizzy. lizzy pretends not to care about dolls actions to hide the fact that she does care. about doll.

like are you seeing what im seeing. these two want the best for each other. theyre both trying to protect each other. but in their very unwise attempts to hide the truth from each other. to not hurt each others feelings. they fail to just. communicate

so lizzy never tries to stop doll

and doll never stops to consider lizzys feelings

lizzys sole act of rebellion was an attempt to save a life. she warned v just barely too late. the one time lizzy ever broke her front, took off the mask. it was only to save someone elses life

dolls sole act of compassion was to allow lizzy to know about her plans at the prom in the first place. her need for revenge.

and yet neither of these are about each other.

they wear the masks for each other after all

lizzy let it down to save v because v was not who she put up a front for

doll let it down to get closer to lizzy because it wasnt even related to her real grander plans

in the end they both kept their masks up for too long

lizzy never stopped doll from leaving on a trip to her own death

and doll never told lizzy about what was really going on in the world around her

in their misguided attempts to protect each other they both failed. worse than failed. they were enabling each others behaviors.

lizzy let doll do whatever she wanted and doll allowed lizzy to feign ignorance

all because they were both too scared of what might happen if they told the truth

that conflict was the only thing they feared

but it was the one thing they needed

and now its too late

and neither of them could save the other