Pure Ocd - Tumblr Posts

a lot of people talk about how horrible tumblr is for people with moral ocd, paranoia, or other illnesses that could make, "IF YOU DON'T REBLOG, YOU ARE A HORRIBLE PERSON AND HAVE NO HEART" or "heyyyy, just a lil' friendly reminder if you do x you're a horrible pos who should die :)))))" absolutely detrimental to your mental health. WHICH IS TRUE. but. tumblr is geniunely NOTHING compared to tiktok. the guilt shaming is 10x stronger, these types of posts are a 100x more common, and probably the worst aspect of it is that because how algorithm-centered tiktok is, if you give into the compulsion on every post you see, eventually your entire fyp just become videos like this. (and if you don't know already, like 80%-90 of your time will be spent on this fyp, unlike tumblr's dashboard where atleast in my experience, most of my time is searching through tags.) the app your *supposed* to be leisurely scrolling on becomes literally a compulsion/ritual fulfilling minefield, and it gets to the point you honestly fear opening the app because you know as soon as you do, you'll just be flooded with millions of posts where you know you can't ignore (without freaking tf out) but acting on the compulsion doesn't help, because the next post will start the cycle all over again.

I've honestly decided to soft-delete the the app, which for me is just not using it at all because despite everything, I enjoy using the app when it's not like this and I still have tons of memories saved on there. but just. god.

guys I can't believe it but I just realised that I haven't had consistent intrusive thoughts for like 2 months am I free????

I'm having obsessions about my hearing and I keep thinking I'm going deaf (which I'm not my hearing has always been less than great) but now my brain has starting focusing on my tinnitus and making it LOUDER AND MORE NOTICEABLE AAAA and now I am PLAGUED with a loud ringing noise in my head >:((( as well as that the obsession is making it more difficult to focus meaning i can hear even less so WHAT THE FUCK

WHAT HAPPENED I WAS DOING SO WELL NOW MY OCD IS BACK :((( MAN ALL THIS EMOTIONAL HEALING FOR DIDDLY SQUAT