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hi good evening its about 11pm and im having thoughts about sinclair again so im typing them out

i think a lot of people see demian as like... the good ending/ultimate goal for sinclair, and while he is in a lot of ways, i dont think that's ultimately his role. i think there's a certain disconnect between demian and sinclair that needs to be acknowledged before either of them can really reach each other.

im pretty sure we all know about kromer's themes of nurture, with how much she wants to raise sinclair and mold him into her ideal, but i think we should talk about demian's themes of nature/absence. if kromer is an ever present figure, then demian is the opposite. he's pretty much completely absent from sinclair's story. in fact, it could be argued that there would be little loss if demian was entirely removed from sinclair's flashbacks, despite his significance to sinclair. demian wants to see sinclair blossom in his pure, unaltered state, but he fails to account for the fact that there truly is no "unaltered" state of a being. demian was one of sinclair's closest friends, and one of the people he relied upon the most, and when sinclair arguably needed him the most, he completely vanished.

i think it's because of demian's absence that dante is so important. fundamentally, sinclair's relationships between kromer and demian are unbalanced. he sees both of them as above himself on some subconscious level. however dante, someone who he was able to connect with on a more even level, does not have such an unbalanced relationship with sinclair. while yes, dante is his manager, it's still apparent that their relationship is more of a balanced one, as both are able to take and receive criticism from each other. unlike demian and kromer, dante maintains balance between nurture and nature with sinclair, comforting him while he is down, but not controlling his actions when he's up.

before sinclair and demian can truly connect with each other, a major shift needs to happen in their relationship. otherwise, sinclair will still see himself as below demian and demian will still disconnect himself from sinclair. in general, there is some form of disconnect demian has with reality. this is not to say that he's naive or prejudiced, but rather that he's definitely not as omnipotent as he comes across. much like sinclair, there is still plenty for him to learn as well. people don't just stop growing when they become adults, there is still plenty of change and movement left inside of them, just like any other plant or animal.