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1 year ago
Some 707 Appreciation :3

Some 707 appreciation :3

First finished piece with water colours and ink (in a painting way). I didn’t know how to render the chips though.

His eye shines ✨


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5 years ago

Hey! Considering I am the first one here, can I request a long scenario with Seven who has little self-confidence and in serious need of some confirmation about his looks?

Hi, thank you, this is such a cute request! Hooray, you’re the first one!!! :D And to be honest, he IS so good looking, I don’t know how can he think anything else. Anyway, I hope you’ll like it!

Character: Seven (Mystic Messenger)Summary: Seven needs a little ego boost, and MC is right here to make that happen!Warnings: NoneAuthor’s note: -Word count: 798

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Another day went by, hectic and spontaneous as always, and after a short break, while he grabbed a bag of Honey Buddha chips, Seven leaned down to the sofa. It was time to check on the chat as he felt somehow empty since he finished all of his tasks for the day. But as soon as he logged into the chatroom, he felt something completely different. He saw your name and the spark of excitement rushed through his body. Oh, he felt so lonely without you.There were other members logged in the chatroom. Besides the two of you, Yoosung and Zen were there, and Jaehee appeared soon after him. He scrolled back to see what you guys were up to: besides Yoosung ranting about Lolol, and Zen bragging about his new role again, there was nothing really interesting that could have caught his eyes. But Jaehee just sent a picture of Zen with his abs out again and with a perfect face with perfect hair, and Seven felt a little pain in his chest.He was not jealous. Or, okay, maybe he was a little. But who wouldn't be jealous over Zen? Besides, he was jealous before, and this was a different feeling. He saw you compliment the picture in the chatroom, and although he knew you were just generally kind and caring, he couldn't help himself feel bad about it. Yeah, of course, he sent a funny picture of himself, wearing a cosplay or something, and you said that it was hilarious, and yeah, of course, it was hilarious. But if he would send you a picture as Zen did before so many times, would you compliment him as well? Or not just you, anyone? It never happened before, even though he never tried it for real. Except for that one when he sent a picture of himself wearing that blonde wig, and everyone started to brant about how beautiful Rika was. That one, that went extremely well.He started to feel worse and worse, so out of the blue, he turned on the camera on his phone and took a selfie while he made some goofy face and sent it to the group without any context. Unfortunately, Zen sent a gorgeous selfie at the same moment too and seeing his beautiful face below his own, suddenly he felt the urge to delete his picture. He almost did, as being a hacker he could actually do that, but Yoosung already asked something about it, and it would be so embarrassing to delete it after that... Unless...UNLESS HE COULD DELETE HIS COMMENT TOO, MUHAHAHA.He almost did that, but then he saw you sent a message too."Wow Seven, you look so good!"He blinked for a few seconds staring at the screen, and he started to type a reply like "Yeah, Zen's face is almost angelic" when in the back of his mind a voice reached out to him.You meant him, not Zen.OH FUCK, YOU REALLY COMPLIMENTED HIM, NOT ZEN.He quickly tried to brush it off like "Yeah, Zen's glory just shined enough to make an illusion like that lolololol", because immediately he thought: why would think that? Unless it was a joke? It had to be a joke.But then, you sent another message: "No, seriously, you are very handsome."Now that's when he started sweating. He is what? Handsome? And you still talking about him? Why?Besides everyone's confused questions (Zen freaked out why you didn't say a word about him, Jaehee didn't understand your sudden storm of compliments, and Yoosung was just confused about the whole situation), you continued to praise him, and for a minute, he was still in shock.And then BAMM - he was logged out. His mind was blank and his heart was racing as he rushed to the bathroom. He needed a long, steamy shower to think about the whole situation, but it didn't get any better. Why did you say things like that? It felt good, of course, but he didn't believe them. He even made that awful face for the fun, and you said he is handsome!I didn't make any sense. Seven dropped himself on the sofa again, and he felt an urge to check back into the chatroom, but before he could even consider that even further, his phone started to vibrate. It was you, and he hesitated before he picked up.'Why did you disappeared from the chat? Are you alright?' you asked worriedly. Seven took a deep breath before he answered your question.He was still in shock - how could someone like YOU think that HE is handsome? But somehow, the fact that from all people, you called him handsome... It made him feel so much better.


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4 years ago

hello again¡! thanks for the rules and don't worry i'm still trying to understand this app 😂 welp, i would make my request about one of my favs on mm which it's seven 💚 so hc for him with a s/o that has toc, please idk if too much ask but hope that you aren't uncomfortable with it but if you are then i would like to request hc for him with a s/o that lives in another country (like an online relationship skkd) hope u are having a beautiful night¡! please, take care of yourself!!! 💚

Ahhhw Anon, thank you! When I first saw your request yesterday it made me so happy! I decided that I would love to write both of your requests, but I'm a dummy and I have no idea what toc means :( I tried to Google it but it didn't lead me anywhere, so, could you send another request about it? I'm so sorry that there are so many problems with me, I swear I will try my best to make it up for you 💖

So for now, here are the headcanons about your second idea. I hope you like them, it was really fun to make these! :D Also, Seven is a total bae 🥺❤

I used she/her pronouns for this one, but let me know if this is not what you looking for!! 💖

Seven and a s/o from another country

Meeting new people on the internet is not an unfamiliar concept for Seven. Of course, Yoosung is the typical gamer of the group, but Seven himself is a gamer deity. And with that in mind, I can easily picture that the two of you met under similar circumstances.

It doesn't really matter if you are a pro gamer, a beginner, or just in the middle, only playing because you are bored, somehow you managed to catch his eye, maybe because you laughed at his jokes.

He asked you if he can add you as a friend on any social media and after that everything just went as it should. Shortly after that, you noticed that he is the first person to say hi in the morning, and he is the last one you say good night to as well.

He asks you where are you from early in your friendship, and first, he was a little disappointed when he found out that you are living on the other side of the world.

Later, still in your friendship state, he will start to refer to you as his gamer wife, he will say it is just a joke but will melt if you call him gamer husband.

You basically just joke through the beginning of your friendship, and you grow closer and closer, he will see the distance between you as a blessing, as his line of work is really dangerous, and he would absolutely hate himself (more) if something would happen to you.

So after a while, when he made sure that you are safe, and no one can find you through him, he will finally collect himself to confess to you. But don't expect anything traditional.

Instead, try to imagine this: the next time when you turn on your computer, you got a text from Seven to go to your window in the other room, like, RIGHT NOW. You know he is up to something, but you have no idea, so you just go to the other room and text him because you don't see anything interesting, but he is already offline. You stand there for several minutes, scoping around, hoping that you will eventually see what he meant, but as you find nothing, you go back to your computer, waiting for him to reply.

That's it when you saw something... different on your desktop.

'Open me <3' - you see the title under a big heart icon. He did this, you have no doubt about it. When you launch it, it happens to be a quiz game: questions about your relationship together, with some seemingly unrelated questions.

In the end, you got your results saying: "OMG WE WOULD MAKE A PERFECT COUPLE!" among a short description of why he... My bad, of why the quiz thinks that.

You can't help but laugh, at the same time, you feel so happy that he finally confessed - and the way he did it was brilliant.

After this, you may or may not have a more serious conversation about it, depends on your opinion about online dating. (I mean, I would want to make sure he's not catfishing me after all lol)

Honestly, dating online is more comfortable for him. Don't get me wrong, he would love to hold you or kiss you, but this space between the two of you helps him hide all of those sad thoughts he has. Of course, as you spend more and more time together, he will tell you about them, but... it's just a very small percent of his actual problems.

He just doesn't want to be a burden with his depression and anxiety, and when you came to his life, it made a very big difference, but still, he has these conditions he is not ready to talk about. Of course, with time, you will notice when something is not quite right, but most of the time, he will hide these things as best as he can.

He will be really affectionate, always asking you if you had your meals, drank enough, etc., always asking about how are you. He would never miss any opportunity to send you gifts.

Your online dates are legendary. He really likes to challenge you, like making the same recipe, and while you can't taste-test each other's food, you can still judge it by preparation time and serving. Watching movies or TV shows are don't count as a date anymore because you do that regularly, it's more like a ritual now, just as game nights.

If you are up for video chats too, you can learn some dances together, and it's always super fun.

And who knows, maybe someday you will meet in person too if you are up for it, but if you are happy with just texting, voice and video calls, then he is perfectly fine with that too.

He just loves you so much.


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4 years ago

Loved your first time stories with both Zen and Jumin! Can I please request one with our dear Defender of Justice, Seven oh! Seven? Thank you! ❤️

Another first time for you MysMe anons, I hope you like this one too!

Thank you for your request, sorry it took so long!

It turned out to be a little shorter than the previous ones, sorry, but I'm a bit out of practice now.. I tried to make this gender neutral, I hope I didn't mess it up!

SMUT under the cut!

Loved Your First Time Stories With Both Zen And Jumin! Can I Please Request One With Our Dear Defender

First time with Seven

He would be nervous.

Seven loves you so much, and when he finds out that you're a virgin, he becomes a bit confused and anxious

You want HIM to be your first?

"Why?" would be his first thought

It is not that he wouldn't feel blessed about it, but he would have a hard time accepting that he is worthy he is

But when he finally put that into place...

well, he is still nervous. He wants it to be special for you. Something pure, something perfect, but not something over the top at least not now lol

There is no real plan, you didn't discuss anything specifically, but when you said you'll come over to his place to watch a movie, he already knew that there's no way either of you can hold back anymore.

He was not sure if you had the same mindset, so he tried his best to control his lust

I'm pretty sure you knew what you were doing, everyone knows that Netflix and chill means only one thing lol

Anyway, not soon after you arrived, you started watching the movie while you snuggled up on the couch.

I swear to god it only took ten minutes of Detective Pikachu for you two to just get down to business.

It started out as usual, with small kisses escalating into something else, you quickly found yourself in his lap, kissing passionately, dry humping each other.

He savored the moment for a long time, but when he felt you getting needy, he laid you down on the couch, pushing you beneath him as he kissed you with love and passion.

His fingers trailed down on your body, quickly unbuttoning your pants to get inside them

For a while, he would just teasingly cup you with his hands through your underwear, waiting for you to get a little desperate

When you rock your hips into his palm, he finally groped you gently with a groan

Seven picked you up and carried you to the bedroom

He had so many jokes in his mind about the situation, but honestly, he was too scared to crack those, he didn't want to spoil the mood.

He laid you down, and clothes quickly got thrown into all kind of directions from both of you

Soon, you were there, only in your underwear

He peppered kisses all the way from your face, down to your chest

If you are wearing a bra, he would totally make a cheeking competition about whether he can remove it with only one hand while you are laying on your back, just to make you laugh

he nailed it but that's not the point

His hands returned to your underwear, teasing you through the fabric before removing it slowly

He would pay attention to every sign you made, and would take things slow if needed but---

I'm sorry, but Seven is the king of oral, so whether you have a penis or a vagina, he would absolutely worship it, he would spend a lot of time between your leg~

Would love to make you a little embarrassed about it, so he would definitely make some comment about it.

"You taste so good, y/n~"

"Look at you, whimpering like that for me~"

"Do you want a taste too?"

Just pinch his nose if he becomes too much of a dork for you

He wouldn't push you to return the favor, but would be delighted if you would give him a blowjob

Seven is a kinky little shit, and he would love to teach you to have to pleasure him as well, slowly guiding you to take more and more of him, he likes it sloppy and fast, but not against a sensual and slow pace either

But he wouldn't bring it up himself, he would be too busy to focus on your pleasure

He would praise you a lot through the whole act, not just if you give him head, I imagine him quite chatty

"You doing so good, Kitten~"

"That feels amazing, don't stop~"

"I love you y/n"

For your first time, he wouldn't do anything too wild, Seven would get on top of you, slowly tangle up his body with yours in a soft embrace, his lips on your neck again as he spread your legs a bit further to get between them, one of his hands staying there on your thigh, while the other goes under your head, brushing through your hair.

He would try his best to be as gentle as possible, distracting you with kisses and sweet compliments along with some soft, breathy moans as he slowly pushes into you, letting you adjust to the feeling itself

He wouldn't move for a while, praising you with kisses, stroking your thighs with his fingers

After feeling your body starting to relax....

"I'm in."

He said that in a deadly serious voice, like a hacker would say it in a cheap movie.

It was SO unpredictable that it made you laugh in an instant, burying your face into your boyfriend's neck

He would be so proud of himself, and would give you some minutes to calm down before he would start to slowly rock his hips against yours

Your giggle fades into a moan as he sets up a steady pace, hearing his needy pants in your ears

He would hold your body as close as possible, his hand on your thigh, gently groping your skin as the movements of his hips fastens a bit

He loved hearing your voice, your scent was intoxicating, and the heat in the bedroom could lit up a forest as your bodies are slowly melting together

Soon, you felt your body tensing up as he picked up the pace once again, skin slapping into each other, echoing through the room with your moans and whimpers

You hold onto his neck tighter as your climax hits you, making your legs tremble as he chases his own release too

His thrusts starting to get sloppier as he came, moaning into your ears how deeply he fell in love with you again

Seven would give plenty of time for both of you to come down from the high, holding you close to his body, giving gentle kisses to your neck and cheeks, his fingers tracing your body up and down, before leaning back a little to gently push his forehead to yours with the dorkiest smile.

"Mission accomplished."


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5 years ago

RFA with MC that secretly work at a maid cafe

>.> fun fact this list is also in order of how much i like the RFA members i love them all but i haven't played through jaehees and Zens route yet so i dont have the same connection with them (I’m currently playing Zen’s route though) 

JUMIN

·        He only found out when driver kim accidentally mentioned picking you up after work

·        “work? My wife doesn’t need to work.”

·        Driver kim paled before mumbling about how you had asked him to keep it a secret

·        “is she there now? Take me there. Have assistant Kang reschedule my appointment.”

·        Jumin was surprised when Driver Kim pulled up in front of a small pastel pink and purple café.

·        he was even more surprised by all the waitress dressed in short maid dress

·        his blood ran cold at the idea of so many people’s eyes roaming over his wife’s figure in the short skirt and low cut top

·        “I need to speak with mc. Tell her, her husband is here.” He said sternly

·        When you rushed out of the back room to meet him he breathed a sigh of relief at your outfit

·        It was a far more traditional maid outfit, the ankle length skirt and high collar eased most of his worries

·        “jumin how did you, it was supposed to be a surprise”

·        “my love why did you hide this from me?” he asked opening his arms for you

·        She snuggled into his embrace “honestly? I wanted to buy you a gift with my own money. You get me so many nice gifts and I wanted to make you just as happy as you always make me”

·        “darling you don’t have to give me gifts to make me happy I just want to be able to come home to you every day, to feel you in my arms like this”

·        You giggled and stretched on your tiptoes to kiss his cheek

·        “may I also ask why you are the only one in this type of costume? Of course I am glad for its more modest style.”

·        You laughed at his concern “well I’m the manager so I wear the ‘Head Maid’ costume. My friend owns the café and offered me the position I wasn’t going to accept but I thought if it was this outfit and not the, um other one it would be okay.”

·        Your voice dropped to a whisper only he could hear as you said “I didn’t want anyone but you to see me in an outfit like those, you know”

·        You could only barely make out the blush that tinted Jumins cheeks

·        His eyes though were fierce and hungry

·        You worried you might come home to a new outfit and an impatient Jumin that night

·        It was three new outfits. ;)

 Yoosung

·        One of his friends suggested they go

·        He agreed since you had work and his finals where over

·        Just being in there had his face red

·        So when he saw you the poor boy nearly burst into flames

·        When you saw him your eyes went wide and your face burned and it was the first time you actually worried about if you looked okay in your uniform.

·        He saw you recognize him

·        Saw your face fill with color and you grab your skirt to pull it down before you turned tail and hid in the back

·        He ran after you despite the employees trying to stop him

·        You were locked in the employee restroom

·        “MC?” he called gently “MC I know it you why are you hiding?”

·        The other employees aren’t sure if they should stop him they knew he was your boyfriend and he didn’t seem angry so they decided to let you two work it out (with only minimal eavesdropping)

·        “its embarrassing” you called through the door your voice muffled

·        “but if, if you worked here why would you be embarrassed now?” he asked confused

·        “because, you saw me. I don’t care if other people see me but, you, your different?”

·        “why?”

·        “because I like you of course!” you shout as you throw open the door frustrated by his naivety

·        His cheeks turned red again and he pulled you into his arms

·        “I, I can’t concentrate when I see you dressed like that” he stutters into your hair.

·        You can’t help but giggle at the fact that he was just as embarrassed as you where

·        “can you, um can you bring home your uniform tonight?”

·        Your burst out laughing at that and he starts spluttering, trying to defend himself until finally you kiss him to shut him up

·        “I’m kind of jealous that everyone gets to see you wearing that” he mutters about a week later

·        “they get to see it on me but only you get to see it off me” you joked

·        Yoosung basically self-combusted at that

 Seyoung

·        There were no secrets from seyoung

·        He knew, sometimes he watched your works CCTV to make sure no one tried anything, (he knew maid cafes sometimes attracted less than honorable client)

·        So when someone grabbed you at work he saw and immediately picked you up

·        The next day you notice a very familiar red haired new employee named “mary”

·        Every time a customer flirts with “mary” you have to force yourself not to laugh

·        Until the man that had grabbed you walks in you freeze

·        So does “Mary” but her stair is far more cold than your shaken one

·        “mary” insists on serving him

·        “she” flirts with him the whole time.

·        Until he pulls her into his lap the way he tried to do with you

·        Then “she” leans in to whisper in his ear and you see his face go pale

·        You’re not too sure what exactly happened next

·        You know there was a punch thrown

·        A table knocked over

·        And the guy was on the ground while his friend made their escape

·        “mary” claimed self-defense but still lost the job

·        You quit and followed your hero out the door

·        Once in the car his wig was off and you couldn’t help throwing your arms around him and kissing him

·        Even if he was still dressed as a maid

·        You two did not make it all the way home before you forced him to pull over

·        How could you wait? He had saved you

·        And skirts gave you both such easy access *hard wink*

 Jaehee

·        You came home without changing one-day thinking Jaehee would still be finishing work in your own café

·        You were just finishing your last two weeks at your old job before working on you and Jaehees café full time

·        You sighed and immediately kicked your heels off inside the door

·        “MC?”

·        You froze

·        “what? Um is that your, uniform?” she asked

·        For lack of better words, you spread your hands lamely with a simple “yep”

·        “I have to admit it does look surprisingly nice one you”

·        You let out a breathy laugh “surprisingly”

·        “well I’ve never been a fan of the Maid motif so I never thought I’d enjoy dressing up like that”

·        “but I look nice” you pressed?

·        “yes very cute MC.” She chuckled

·        “aww you’re so sweet jaehee!” you smile and hug her

Zen

·        He found out on a run

·        He was trying a new route and saw you outside trying to draw in customers

·        He froze, his whole brain stopped working for a solid 30 seconds

·        Then he was on you, trying to cover you up (why didn’t he bring his jacket!)

·        “MC! What are you wearing?!? Don’t you know men are wolves!!!!”

·        He doesn’t want you to quit your job

·        He also doesn’t want you wearing that in front of other men

·        He is very conflicted

·        Idk I think he works out a lot to try to sort out his feeling on the matter

·        You conveniently don’t tell him that you had already put in your 2 weeks’ notice so you could focus on being his manager

·        He’s just to fun to tease

·        On the Bright side you get to keep the uniform and model it for him regularly


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5 years ago

RFA minus jeahee (sorry) and quarantine dates & activities

so i did actually try to write jaehee but i haven't played her route yet and the poor girl is so swamped by work in all the other routes i don’t feel like i have actually gotten to know her so rather than wing it and do something wrong i might just add to this once i finish her route (i’m just starting zens now but her’s is next) anyway here you go. 

the RFA boys and how they pass the time in quarantine with MC (nsfw implied only)

Jumin

-        Wine

-        Candle light

-        He draws you both a bath

-        You massage his shoulders and he washes your hair

-        Y’all talk for a long time

-        You may or may not doze off while leaning back against his chest as he tells you about the new C&R program to help employees through quarantine

-        The next morning, he makes you pancakes and half way through breakfast you remember the cat safe pancake group from the last RFA party

-        You both spend the rest of the morning making pancakes for Elizabeth

-        You download an audio book to listen to while you knit and he does his needle point

-        You two pause it frequently to comment on interesting facts

-        Its comfortable, its sweet, its … kinda boring after a while

-        Then his eye’s gleam and you start to get worried

-        3 hours and 1 cat outfit later y’all are both exhausted and definitely not bored anymore

Yoosung

-        He teaches you LOLOL and you show him your favorite games

-        Rom com marathon

-        Youtube & Netflix bingeing

-        Screen headaches ensue

-        Both of you lay on the floor in the dark because that helps

-        After a bit you suggest a different game and he groans at the thought of the bright screen

-        You laugh and pull out battle ship (look it glows in the dark!!)

-        Okay yeah that could work

-        He makes you breakfast, you make him dinner, Lunch is leftovers

-        You two share headphones and slow dance together it reminds you both of your first RFA party

-        You can’t help but lay your head on his shoulder and half sing half whisper the song against his neck, you just feel so safe and content in his arms

-        After a while you run out of games and have to make you own

-        Not all of them are PG13

Saeyoung

-        Y’all put on cute little karaoke shows (he may or may not save the CCTV footage)

-        you sing duets a lot you sing the male part while dressed as seven and vice versa

-        Quarantine bingo to see who (cleans, cooks, whatever chore needs to be done)

-        Who can embarrass who most in their work video call as time goes one more and more things get added to the forbidden list

-        Best prank war ever (until saeran gets caught in the middle and now everyone’s in trouble)

-        PARKOUR a la office style

-        He teaches you Arabic

-        Lots of naps on the couch while the news plays on TV

-        you convince seven to give you a standup routine

-        boy has showmanship and you can’t convince me otherwise

-        long drives to nowhere

-        DRESS UP!!

-        Y’all do each other’s makeup and nails

-        You never make it out of the bedroom when your dressed up though

Zen

-        Musicals galore, you two watch every musical in existence

-        You frequently pause to ask him to play a certain part or sing a certain song for you

-        He insists you play the love interest for those parts

-        When you shakily and nervously sing the love song duet the beast is unleashed

-        Relaxing Beauty treatments!

-        You help him make lots of encouraging videos for his fans

-        He shows you his workout routine (but you can’t concentrate)

-        you show how much you appreciate his workout routine

-        you try to do his strength training stuff he thinks watching you try so hard is cute

-        y’all play drinking games

-        he teaches you to dance


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5 years ago

RFA (plus saeran) with an MC that leaves when she gets angry (don’t worry they all make up)

so this took me all day but i want to try writing something everyday so here ya’ll go let me know if y’all like it. also i just noticed how often i misspell the names and i ask for mercy i have dyslexia and i really am trying to catch these things.

Jumin

-        You two rarely argued but when you did it tended to bring out EVERYTHING past and present

-        You couldn’t even remember what exactly had sparked the argument

-        Something about not eating, or was it because you had worked yourself to exhaustion two days ago

-        Whatever the reason both of you were angry.

-        You knew he cared about you, knew that behind the anger was fear and love

-        That didn’t make his stern and angry voice more tolerable though

-        Didn’t soften his piercing gaze or ease your own frustration

-        “okay. I’m done fighting Jumin.” You say coldly cutting him off mid-sentence

-        “what” he asked looking for intents and purposes like you had slapped him across the face unexpectedly

-        “I’m done Jumin. I’m not doing this anymore. I’m going for a walk; I’ll be home by dinner.”

-        “your leaving me?” he asked cautiously afraid of the answer

-        “if I were leaving you I would have just left. I wouldn’t have told you I’d be back. I’m just, I’m done fighting.”

-        And with that, you were out the door.

-        3 hours later you hung your coat up in the penthouse entry way and met your husband at the dinner table

-        “I’m sorry” both of you said simultaneously

-        You put your hand up to quiet him as you see the question in his face before he can even ask

-        “I know I can’t just leave like that. It’s not good to just shut down a conversation like that. I just I hate fighting, I hate being angry and arguing. I’d rather simply not do it. You know?”

-        “better than you could imagine my love”

Yoosung

-        “I wasn’t flirting with him!

-        “he was flirting with you though!”

-        “I can’t control what he does yoosung”

-        “you could have walked away!”

-        “I was pay- no you know what. No” you put your hands up and turned to leave the kitchen where you too where arguing as you put away the groceries

-        “wait, we, we were talking” yoosung spluttered as you tugged your coat back on and grabbed your purse

-        “no yoosung you were talking, you were talking if you want you can keep talking, you’ll get just as far in the argument as you would if I were here so go ahead. Me I’m going to go get a drink at the cat café. I’ll call you when I’m on my way back”

-        Then you were gone. Door shut surprisingly gently behind you

-        And yoosung was left alone angry and confused

-        So he did what he always did when he needed to process emotions, he played LOLOL

-        You called on your way home just as you said you would but when he didn’t answer he couldn’t help the sigh that fell from your lips

-        “yoosungie? I’m sorry I bailed on you. You know I don’t deal with frustration well, but that’s no excuse. I shouldn’t have walked out like that. I’m on my home. See you soon puppy.” You mumbled into the phone as you left a voicemail

-        As soon as you walked through the door he was on you with the tightest hug you had ever felt

-        “MC! I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to make you leave I just I saw the guy at the store and the way he looked at you I guess I kind of freaked out”

-        You couldn’t help yourself, not when he was nuzzling his face into your hair and rubbing your back as he hugged you

-        “puppy!” You cooed pulling back to fluff his hair a bit “I love you” you laughed at the rising blush on his cheeks and kissed his nose

Saeyoung

-        You only fight when seven is closing himself off again. Most of the time when this happens you can usually simply love him through it

-        But every now and then you got frustrated. Frustrated that he still didn’t trust you frustrated that he still thought you were better off without him. After all this time everything you’ve been through he still doesn’t understand how much you love him

-        That what led to this fight. He was shutting you out again

-        “MC seriously I’m trying to work I don’t have tim-“

-        “saeyoung I’m leaving. I’ll be back, I don’t know later I guess I’ll take the routes with cameras so you don’t have to worry”

-        “what? MC you can’t just”

-        “I can. I am. See ya”

-        So you left before he could say anything else.

-        You took the CCTV covered routes and purposefully avoided looking at the cameras.

-        He called you a couple of times and you made sure he saw you see the call on your phone before you decline the call.

-        When you finally calm down you make your way home and find him at his computer.

-        You sit on the floor next to his chair and pull out your phone texting him a quick sorry message and telling him you’ll be right beside him whenever he finishes working.

-        After a while you feel his hand in your hair and you hum contentedly knowing that you two could get through this

-        Just like you had gotten through everything else

Zen

-        He hurt himself. Again. You had warned him that he was pushing himself to hard and he still pushed.

-        Now he was hurt and out of commission for 2 days and you had more work to do than ever.

-        You loved this man really you did, but between the upcoming RFA party, the new fan club coordination position you had taken up, and being his manager you were feeling frustrated and overwhelmed

-        So once he was settled in bed and safe you told him you had to run some errands

-        “ugh you were right jagi I’m sorry”

-        You damn right I was right

-        “listen to me.” You said coldly “I love you, but if you get up from that bed while I’m gone, I will throw the TV through that door and then post that video of you after you met Elly, swollen face and all.”

-        That shut him up fast. Looking at his mouth opening and closing as he looked for something to say almost made you feel bad. Almost.

-        “I’m just, I’m angry right now and I need some time to calm down. I love you but you have to give me a bit. I promise I’ll be back soon” you explained with a sigh.

-        And so here you were sitting on your laptop at local café and posting an update for Zen’s fan club.

-        It had only been 15 minutes but you already felt bad for leaving him alone. So you began to pack up. That was until you noticed a new message on your latest post.

-        The fans wanted to put together a collection for Zen’s injury. That actually gave you a good idea

-        30 minutes and 48 different emails later and you were ready, this would be perfect and you couldn’t wait to get back to your zenny

-        When you got home you were relieved to find zen asleep and not waiting up for you as you worried he might. You kissed his forehead and set to work connecting your laptop to the TV.

-        When he woke up you helped him to the couch and just before you showed him what you and his fans had put together you set of a camera

-        “jagi? What is all this?” he asked laughing a little at all the stuff you had set up

-        “trust me Zenny you’ll love it and so will they. I just know it”

-        You played a compilation of the videos the fans had sent you of them wishing Zen well and telling him how much they loved his work. Video fan mail would definitely lift his spirits.

-        Not to mention posting his reaction would make the fans happy.

Jaehee

-        Cake burned, coffee spilled, cat hair everywhere.

-        day ruined

-        You were dog tired and so done with today when an equally tired and grumpy jaehee stumbles from the cafes back office

-        “MC what, it’s a wreck in here!” she exclaims

-        “really? I hadn’t noticed.” You replied sardonically before sighing “I know I’m working on it right now.”

-        “no it’ll be faster if I do it you just go, go make dinner at home” you could hear the edge in her voice and couldn’t help but respond in kind

-        “You know I’m not the one who let the cat in right?” you almost spat

-        “I didn’t say you did MC.” She sighed rubbing her temples

-        It had all started about 2 hours ago when a child had let in a street cat to get it out of the deluge outside. The ensuing chaos led to shutting early and trying to desperately heard a scared and soaked cat outside into a slowly fading rainstorm.

-        Needless to say that the café you two had worked so hard for was currently in shambles.

-        “fine. Your right. It’s probably faster if you just go it alone.” You muttered before stalking out the door and into the rain.

-        You had only made it half a block before you felt the rain stop

-        But it hadn’t stopped. You looked around only to see jaehee holding an umbrella over your head

-        You couldn’t help the breathless laugh the left you

-        “I guess I wasn’t thinking when I left was I”

-        “I wasn’t thinking when I told you to leave. So we’re even.”

Saeran

-        you knew this wasn’t about you

-        it was about the new councilor, who had mentioned his mother

-        it was about seven doting over him about his medicine

-        it was about everything and everyone smothering him

-        so you told yourself again and again that this screaming wasn’t about you

-        you tried to be understanding and most of the fights ended with the catharsis of a tantrum and the comfort of a gentle hug

-        this was not most times

-        “I should have just left you at mint eye where you belong!”

-        You had worked so hard to support his recovery. You were used to insults, used to frustration

-        But he said this quietly, seething and dark and you were angry.

-        You felt your stare go icy and saw his eyes widen in surprise

-        You didn’t get angry often and he was always surprised when you did

-        “saeran. I’m leaving for a while. I’ll come back when I calm down”

-        “you can’t just leave”

-        “I couldn’t leave at mint eye but I can now” you spat without even looking back at him

-        “you wouldn’t dare!”

-        “I will be back when I calm down” you said slowly before finally walking out the door

-        He was furious, and with no one to point his anger at he paced his room.

-        As his anger faded he felt the all too familiar regret and guilt wash over him as he let himself fall backwards on his bed

-        You had been gone for quite a while and he wondered balefully if this would be the time you didn’t come back to him

-        It had to happen sooner or later after all

-        You had left nearly an hour ago and you could still feel the cold and icy grip of anger on your heart. You really had to do something, anything with this feeling.

-        you yelled. You raged and spat and cursed alone in the middle of the woods. Primal scream therapy, your mother had called it; cathartic your father had said. All you knew was you felt better and Saeran didn’t have to take the brunt of it.

-        When you returned you saw saeran laying on the bed and you cleared you throat as you stood in the door way. He sat up and eyed you in clear surprise

-        “your back” he said simply as though you hadn’t told him you would return.

-        You chided yourself when you remembered all the people in his life that HADNT returned

-        “it’ll take more than a raised voice a few mean words to get rid of me” you said making your way to sit next to him

-        “you just left.” He mumbled not meeting your eye’s

-        “I know. I shouldn’t have done that. I was very angry and I didn’t want to say something I’d regret. Next time I Promise to try to calm down here instead of leaving.”

-        “I don’t like when you leave”

-        “I don’t like leaving”

-        These quiet moments were few and far between, but you cherished them, they meant progress.


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5 years ago

RFA + Saeran with MC with depression

these depression symptoms are based solely on my personal experience with depression. everyone experiences things differently if you or someone you love is going through depression no matter what symptoms they show or don’t show, they deserve love, compassion, and help. it does get better. help is out there and worth the effort. you aren’t alone.

Also my depression is almost entirely biochemical, meaning that when I’m on my medicine my depression is generally controlled very easily. This is why medication plays such a major role in these head cannons. Everyone’s depression treatment is different some people benefit more from counseling than medication. Some people require hospitalization some need tender in home care. Find what works for you and stick with it. I promise, it’s worth it.

Jumin

-        his approach is diligence.

-        he was so busy he didn’t notice at first

-        it was when the maid contacted him to ask if MC was okay that he started to pay attention

-        the maid had mentioned the MC had been in bed when she came to clean the last three days

-        Jumin knew MC wasn’t lazy far from it actually if she wasn’t busying herself with one of her many hobbies or planning the next RFA party she was usually visiting a friend not lying in bed.

-        something was wrong. he came home right away to check on her

-        she was surprised and apologized profusely as though she had been caught doing something wrong

-        “love I’m not angry, I’m worried.” she smiled lightly and assured him she was fine just tired recently

-        so Jumin watched closer, noticed more

-        he saw her eat less, sleep more, her knitting didn’t progress, nor did her reading or writing. the party planning came along but even it seemed to go slower.

-        it was when she started to leave sentences hanging that he put his foot down

-        “honey bunny really, please. I don’t need a doctor.”

-        “you aren’t yourself love. you don’t even talk to me anymore”

-        “we, we talk.”

-        “no I talk you listen. I miss you. your right beside me but you feel so far away”

-        “I probably just need my medicine”

-        “medicine. you didn’t tell me you take medicine! medicine for what are you okay?!?”

-        “I, I didn’t want to worry you! It’s not a big deal honestly I shouldn’t even need it. it’s so stupid. I take an anti-depressant or I’m supposed to. it’s hard to remember sometimes and I forget.

-        in an instant Jumin was hugging her carding his fingers through her hair holding her tighter than he had ever held anyone

-        “bring me your medicine. you’re taking it right now. from now on I won’t let you forget”

-        he came to bed every night with a glass of water and MC’s medicine.

-        he found support groups, funded research, sought out the best counselors and psychologists.

-        he hated that he couldn’t immediately fix the problem but if he couldn’t cure her then he would get her the best treatment money could buy

Yoosung

-        his approach is overprotective.

-        he first noticed how restless MC was. she would switch videos before they started, change apps before one had even finished loading.

-        “MC are you okay?” but she assured him she was

-        next he noticed that she wasn’t leaving the house as often, she didn't leave to see her friends and she hadn’t called her family in weeks. messages and texts would either be ignored or answered with single word replies.

-        even their conversations seemed far more one sided

-        something was off so he asked for help.

-        the chatroom was abuzz with worry about MC and Yoosung couldn’t keep up with all the advice

-        then he got a call. from V

-        V worried that MC might be depressed offered to give yoosung some numbers to call, doctors to see.

-        yoosung hung up and confronted MC immediately angry & scared

-        “is it true? why didn't you tell me?”

-        “it’s not bad really. most of the time I just need my medicine and I’m fine but,”

-        “but what”

-        mc see blinked back tears “I, I lost them in the move and I can’t get more till the end of the month. i thought, I thought I could make it but I’m so tired Yoosung”

-        he didn’t know what to say so he just held her. he stayed holding her all night”

-        the next morning, he helped her search the whole apartment and when they still couldn't find them they went to the pharmacy together to explain the situation

-        yoosung watched her carefully for weeks’ afterword to make sure she was okay

-        too anyone else he would have seemed paranoid but MC knew why he was so carful

-        he was shook after rika and wasn't going to take any chances with her

 Saeyoung

-        his approach is patient.

-        he knew the signs already

-        heck he had lived them

-        so when he noticed MC’s jokes had taken a darker turn he decided to watch her closer

-        and he saw it, saw her slowly slip into the habits he had seen so many times in the mirror.

-        so he did what he could. He held her when she shut down.

-        sought her out when she would hide

-        more often than not he simply sat in the room with her like she had with him. Sat near her so that when she felt like talking he would be there

-        after days of sitting next to her as waiting for her to reach out it happened

-        “I’m not okay”

-        this was progress since for days she had insisted that she was fine and simply just tired

-        “what do you need” he asked gently intertwining their fingers

-        “will you help me get my medicine. I ran out. I don’t know when I was supposed to get the refill”

-        this was something he could do and he would do anything for her

-        it does sooth his conscience a bit too know this was something she struggled with before meeting him and not because of him

 Zen

-        His approach is by far the gentlest

-        The first thing he noticed was her sleep.

-        She tossed and turned when before she would happily snuggle into his arms and stay there happily all night

-        Then he noticed her smile seemed more forced than before

-        She didn’t cry much but she also didn’t laugh like she had before

-        When she started having trouble falling asleep he sang her lullabies

-        When she started eating less he started learning to cook

-        When she left in the middle of his play and hid in the theater bathroom. He asked for answers.

-        Gently trying to coax her out of the bathroom to talk to him

-        The second the door is open he’s inside and holding her. She sits in his lap and cries for the first time

-        He sings to her gently and helps calm her down until her breathing evens out and she can talk

-        “I’m just so tired. I’m tired of everything Zen. I want to go home. Even when I’m home I want to go home I know it doesn’t make sense. I know. I’m just, I’m so tired”

-        He holds her tight telling her that it’s okay. That he’ll fix it.

-        Once she’s asleep he’s calling Jaehee. She’s smart and if anyone could find the help MC needs it’s her

 Jaehee

-        Her approach is slightly clinical

-        The first thing she notices is MC skips movie night

-        Then she sees her sleep in and skip a lot of her self-care

-        MC is still working as hard as ever but she’s exhausted all the time

-        She’s worried and when MC refuses to go to the doctor she does the research herself

-        Then she confronts MC too ask if her guess is right

-        when MC admits to getting off her meds jaehee goes rigid

-        jaehee is worried. everything about this feels uncertain and she hates feeling uncertain

-        So Jaehee does what she does best.

-        She plans. She learns. She works.

-        She knows the medication and how it works.

-        She sets up an entire routine for MC taking her medicine and doing all the self-care things that are supposed to help

-        She insists that MC see a councilor since she admits emotions aren’t her strong suit.

Saeran

-        His first tip-off is when she forgets to refresh the water in the flower vases

-        The second is when she skips walks in favor of staying in bed

-        It feels like he’s losing her and its making him panic a bit

-        he sees how lifeless her eyes are when he tells about the newest garden blooms

-        she’s not her positive happy go lucky self anymore

-        he hates it when she smiles and it looks so broken

-        he makes her a bowl of ice-cream and she only eats a fourth of it

-        he’s getting worried and trusting relationships are pretty new to him

-        but secrecy and information hacking aren’t so that’s what he goes back to

-        he finds your medical records and see’s you have an expired prescription for anti-depressants

-        he confronts you angrily and questions what’s wrong with you

-        how can you expect him to get treatment when you won’t even take your medicine

-        you explain that you were on your way to get your meds when you got called to mint eye

-        and then in all the chaos you forgot, and at this point you’d have to see your doctor again

-        your tired it doesn’t seem worth it

-        he looks guilty and ashamed but you pull him into your arms

-        he apologizes for everything with mint eye again and you can feel him shaking

-        you assure him it isn’t his fault, it was bad circumstances and bad timing not him

-        he makes you promise to go to the doctor you make him promise to go with you

-        you could do anything together after all

-        he wants you happy if you need this medicine then he wants you to have it


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5 years ago

RFA that comes home to MC that has filled the bed with stuffed animals

Jumin He’s confused, and ends up moving the stuffed animals so he can replace them. 

-        He had come home a day early but it was still late at night when he trudged through the penthouse door

-        He was quiet, careful not to wake you up since you weren’t expecting him until tomorrow evening.

-        He wanted to surprise you when you woke up in his arms but when he got to the bedroom the bed looked, full

-        The shapes under the covers where chaotic and even after staring for several minutes trying to piece together what each shape might be he couldn’t begin to guess.

-        He stepped closer silently to investigate. He could hear your soft breath but the closer he got the more he realized he couldn’t even see your form clearly in the haphazard mess on the bed

-        “MC” he ventured quietly pulling the blankets down to reveal a jumbled mess of pillows and assorted stuffed animals

-        He recognized some of the colorful plushies from gifts he had given you and others from when you had moved in.

-        though normally they were meticulously displayed in your hobby room, organized by categories he couldn’t begin to understand though you had tried to explain several times

-        after delicately removing one after another he found you buried beneath them wrapped in a heated blanket and hugging his personal favorite stuffed animal gift to you.

-        A pure white cat plush with sapphire eyes. Elizabeth the 3rd immortalized in soft faux fur and stuffing

-        You yawned gently and sat up before you registered what had woken you then you locked eyes with him

-        “darling!!” you cried scrambling toward him through the see of pillows and stuffed animals

-        At the edge of the bed though you lost your traction slipping and tumbling into his chest where he caught you easily you snuggled into his chest and hummed happily as he chuckled again

-        “I thought you might miss me, but it looks like my place in our bed has been taken” he said gently patting you head

-        “oh um well. It’s silly but to be honest. I can’t sleep when you’re not here. The beds to big, too empty and cold. So I fill it with all my cuddly stuffed animals and wrap myself in a heated blanket so that I can pretend you’re still here.” You mutter growing quieter with every word

-        When you met his gaze again you could see something dancing behind his eyes as he smiled gently at you

-        In a second your lips where caught in a tender kiss

-        “my love. You should have told me my absence pained you so. But if you’d like I could take my place back”

-        “yes please darling. I’ve missed you”

 Yoosung He does the exact same thing no doubt. Meaning he just joins you in the cuddle pile

-        Yoosung had been visiting his parents for the past few days after learning that his sister was pregnant

-        He had asked MC to come with him but she couldn’t get off work so she stayed behind

-        Yoosung was exhausted when he stumbled into your shared apartment.

-        The darkness told him you were asleep so he made his way to the bedroom

-        He fell against the bed without paying attention and was surprised by the mass of stuffed animals that cushioned his fall

-        Still tired he wiggled his way to the bed through the plush mountain only to hear you groans and roll over in your sleep toppling some of the more precariously placed plushie’s

-        Yoosung was already starting to does off when his arm found you cuddling with one of his LOLOL stuffed dolls

-        He chuckled sleepily pulling you close to him doll and all

-        He pressed his forehead against yours the plush squeezed between you

-        You could hear his chuckle when you sleepily tried to kiss him good night

-        Your lips landing gently on his closed eyelid

-        The next morning you two woke up under a pile of soft plush and you giggled as you watched him try and fail to get out of the bed without knocking off all the toys you both adored

-        When he tumbled free from the plush prison landing on the floor with a soft thud you tossed a small pusheen pillow at his head

-        He responds by catching your wrist and pulling you down to the floor with him

-        You fall on top of him and his cheeks tint a soft pink you can’t help but kiss

Saeyoung He thinks it’s cute but absolutely makes jokes about the stuffed animals stealing his girl

-        Seven snuck through the bedroom door gently

-        Totally not planning on scaring his girlfriend after getting back from a mission

-        That would be mean, and hilarious

-        He crept along the floor till he got to the bed where he peeked over the edge and came face to face with a plush long cat

-        His eyes lit up with a maniacal plan as he sprung up

-        He flung the sheets of the bed and hit the lights

-        “how could you!?!?” he cried dramatically

-        You screamed and flailed for a moment at the outburst

-        “what? Who? Seven?” you asked blearily, confused and lost in the space between dreams and reality

-        “LONG CAT? MC?”

-        “long cat. Yeah long cat. What?” you asked again rubbing your eye’s

-        “YOUR CHEATING ON ME WITH LONG CAT?!?”

-        You squinted toward saeyoung trying to process what he had said

-        He tried to keep a straight face desperately as you sat in silence connecting the dots of what he had said

-        Suddenly it made sense he was messing with you. He had come home early. He saw you snuggling with the long cat body pillow you two shared. Jokes. Late night jokes

-        It took you entirely too long to connect everything but once you had you smirked

-        “yes! Yes saeyoung its long cat its always been long cat” you wailed clutching long cat to your side as saeyoung crawled atop the bed in mock anger

-        “is saeran even mine?! MC?” he demanded

-        “no. saeran’s real father, is long cat” you wailed again throwing your arm over your face as you fell back against the bed as though you were in a bad soap opera.

-        “SHUT UP ITS THREE IN THE GODDAMN MORNING” saerans angry voice echoed through the house as you both burst into a fit of giggles while hugging each other

-        “I missed you” you muttered after calming down “long cat just doesn’t cut it”

Zen The beast is unleashed it’s just too cute but he is a gentleman he will not wake her up. On purpose.

-        Zen had finally made it home after his first away photo shoot

-        He tiptoed into the bedroom to join MC for some much needed rest when his heart stopped.

-        You where curled tightly around a small plush version of him you had found on etsy.

-        He couldn’t breathe. He swore he had died and gone to heaven.

-        How in the world did you manage to look so small and cute in your sleep?

-        Were you wearing one of his shirts? This absolutely was not fair.

-        You were asleep. He chastised himself. He was a gentleman and would not wake up his girlfriend in the middle of the night for something so indecent.

-        There was a flash and a shutter sound

-        He stopped surprised by himself how could he have taken a picture without even realizing it.

-        And now you where stirring.

-        He had woken you up despite all the self-control he had sworn he had.

-        You were rubbing your eyes sleepily and muttering “Zenny?”

-        Then the beast is unleashed

-        He tried. He really really did.

-        You both sleep in the next day because you are both exhausted

Jeahee She’s concerned about you being sore. Stuffed animals don’t exactly make for the best bed no matter how soft they are

-        When she came to bed she was surprised by the sheer amount of stuffed animals there were

-        You had at least four in your arms alone and two under your head where your pillow should be

-        She gently shook your shoulder.

-        “mc? mc? your necks going to hurt if you sleep like that”

-        You groaned and pulled her into bed next to you she laughed gently at your response

-        “mc you still have to move or you’ll be sore in the morning”

-        You groaned again and shifted so your head was on her shoulder before reaching behind you and feeling for the pillow you’d lost

-        She sat up and reached across you to pull the pillow around

-        You hummed your appreciation and pushed several of the stuffed animals off the bed for her to lay down comfortably

-        She used a hand to signal you to raise your head and as you did you kissed her nose

-        She blushed a bit but settled down beside you none the less a content smile on her face


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5 years ago

The RFA reacting to MC texting them saying “I’m 110% sad”

so real talk I’m like 110% sad right now. its just a bad day I know and Ill feel better tomorrow. some days are just like that. but i could use some comfort so i wrote some comfort fluff. I hope it brings all of you some comfort too.

Jumin

-        Leaves you on read

-        Rushes home instead of reply

-        Let’s you sit on his lap

-        The instant his arms are around you, you suddenly feel safe/loved enough to cry

-        He hold you close gently rocking you

-        Doesn’t say anything just holds you until you fall asleep

-        Literally will not let you go

-        will read to you if you need to be distracted

-        gets Elizabeth to sit on your lap while you sit on his lap

-        lap-ception

-        kisses your head

-        and your nose and your cheek and literally just all over kisses

-        The next day is searching for what made you sad

-        It will not get away with that

-        He will fire, sue, trash or punch anyone and anything that makes you sad

-        And if nothing made you sad and it was just a sad day

-        Well then he will do everything in his power to make the next day twice as happy

 Yoosung

-        Why? What happened? Do you need me? Class is almost over? Should I leave now? MC?

-        Rapid fire short texts you can’t respond to fast enough

-        Is at your side way too early for him to have finished class

-        He brought you your favorite food.

-        Turns on funny animal videos and cuddles with you

-        Probably plays with your hair

-        Asks if you want to talk about it and listens intently

-        Really really wants to help

-        Ends up crying

-        You weren’t crying until you saw him cry

-        Tells you how much he loves you through the tears

-        You two fall asleep on the couch cuddling

-        You wake up in the middle of the night and shake him awake so you can move to the bed

-        In an instant he’s asking if you feel better and making sure you aren’t sore from sleeping on the couch

Saeyoung

-        Texts you a video of him blowing you a kiss dramatically

-        Tries to cheer you up with jokes and memes

-        If you tell him, you really aren’t up for jokes right now he’ll switch gears completely

-        He gets that sometimes it’s not joke time

-        Listens and sincerely tries to help be it advice or working his magic to fix it

-        Takes you for a drive

-        Truly believes in the power of loud music and high speeds

-        Rolls down the windows and tries not to stare at how beautiful you look with the wind in your hair

-        He takes you to one of his secret spots to help you escape from everything

-        When you feel well enough to make a joke he is so relived and jokes back

-        And then your crying and laughing and he has to admit this is better than the numb and lifeless look you had before

-        He loves you

Zen

-        He is calling you instantly

-        “do you need me? I can leave if you need me?”

-        Sings you the cutie pie song

-        Is legitimately concerned when he doesn’t hear you giggle when you thank him

-        He is on his way home before you can assure him your fine

-        Once he’s home he’s ushering you out the door and onto his bike

-        He takes you to his special spot in the mountains

-        He explains that being in nature helps him when he’s sad so he hopes it helps you too

-        Pulls out goldfish shaped bread for you two to share

-        You lean against him and he kisses the side of your head

-        You two stay their till night fall so you can star gaze

-        He drapes his coat over you and suddenly your crying

-        Burying your face in his chest and shaking as he holds you

-        He tells you that he’s so thankful that of all the times he could have lived in of all the places he could have been of all the lives he could have lived he got this one

-        He assures you that if he had to do it all again he wouldn’t change a thing because everything led him to holding you in his arms

-        You can feel yourself giggle a little at how cheesy he is

-        And he’s just relieved to see your smile even if it’s still muddled by tears

-        Once you calm down you and he head back home to rest

Jaehee

-        She’s worried

-        She wants to help but doesn’t know how to

-        She makes your favorite desert

-        Puts in your favorite Zen dvd

-        Covers you in a blanket and tells you, you can talk if you want but you don’t have to

-        When she’s sad Zen makes her feel better so she’s showing you all her Zen stuff hoping it’ll help you too

-        but you’re just staring ahead

-        you aren’t even singing along to the musical number like you usually do (even when she asks you not to)

-        so cautiously she pulls you against her in a gentle side hug

-        and now your sniffling and shaking and she’s absolutely sure it’s her fault

-        so she pulls away like she’s been burned

-        but you have her shirt and are pulling her back because really you need the hug right now

-        she’s hesitant but she hugs you again and you spend the evening crying on her shoulder

-        she kisses your head once she feels you stop shaking

-        but you don’t respond

-        so she checks closer only to find you sleeping against her

-        she carries you to bed and whispers softly

-        “I love you MC.”


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5 years ago

RFA and how MC gets them to sleep

I hope ya’ll enjoy these. do I need to make a masterpost? since I’ve got a couple of these now I don’t know. their all pretty recent so maybe its not necessary. 

Jumin

-        You’ve gotten it down to a science at this point

-        “darling? I can’t sleep.” You call from the door way of his home office “do you mind reading to me? Like you did that first night?” that’s what gets him the mention of your first night with him.

-        “I, of course dearest” he says wearily placing a stack of papers to the side “just until you fall asleep though I do need to finish this”

-        You frowned a little at that. He hadn’t slept much these past weeks and when he did it was fitful and short lived. Tonight he would sleep. You would be sure of that.

-        “would you sit in bed with me? Just for a while? The bed is too big and cold for me to fall asleep without you.”

-        “you have plenty of blankets my love” he said narrowing his eye’s at you suspiciously

-        “it’s not about the blankets. I don’t love the blankets. I love you” then you saw it in his eye’s warmth, love and the tell tail signs of his resolve crumbling as he gave into your request. You didn’t like using his love for you like this but he had to sleep.

-        “I really can’t say no to you my love” he sighed following you towards the king sized bed you shared

-        “thank you honey bunny” you said pulling him to lay beside you leaning him against a pile of pillows so he was reclining enough to sleep comfortably but upright enough to read. Where he not so fatigued he may have questioned how you had planned it all so perfectly.

-        You handed him the book you two where currently reading and situated yourself against his chest humming happily

-        One chapter later and you could feel him running his fingers through your hair trying to see if you were awake

-        You stayed still careful to count your breath to keep it deep and slow

-        He sighed and settled himself a little before resigning to stay rather than wake you by leaving

-        After fifteen minutes you could hear his gentle and quite snores

-        Success.

-        The next morning you woke early and shut off his alarm before calling Jaehee

-        “mission accomplished Jaehee” you say smirking “he wont be in today but tomorrow he’ll be back to tip top shape”

-        “thank you MC. when he pushes himself this hard it often falls to me to fix the things his fatigue lets fall through the cracks. One day of rest saves us weeks of mistakes”

-        “a stitch in time saves nine as they say. Oh but I have to go if I’m not there when he wakes up he’ll try to go back to work”

-        “of course, and again thank you MC.”

  Yoosung

-        Honestly if you could just get him into bed you knew he would be out like a light

-        It was getting him to the bed that was difficult

-        So you played the last card in you deck, the ace.

-        “yoosungie? I’m going to shower and get ready for bed okay?”

-        “sounds good!”

-        “unless, maybe you wanted to join me?”

-        “jo- join you?” he spluttered turning away from his computer wide eyed and beet red

-        “well I thought, it might save time, and water and it might be fun.” With a wink you turned towards the bathroom where you already had everything prepared

-        Honestly the shared shower was simply a bonus to your plan

-        Call the fun times you shared a happy consequence of the plan.

-        You washed his hair with lavender scented shampoo to help you both relax and calm down

-        And on the way out you hand him the pajamas you had prepared

-        “you planned this”

-        “of course I planned this” you chuckled kissing his forehead “noona takes care of her puppy”

-        You could see his face darken and feel the shiver that ran down his spine at that and you couldn’t help the laugh that escaped your lips at the way his eye’s seemed to cloud for a fraction of a second

-        You pressed a quick kiss to his lips before pulling him to the bedroom where you sat him on the bed to towel dry his hair a bit more

-        “I love you” he whispers and you smiled gently at him. Pulling the towel off his head you pulled him against you “I love you too”

-        Laughing you pulled him to lay beside you before leaning over him to reach across the bed and turn off the bedside lamp

-        With on last kiss on his nose you bid him goodnight computer game forgotten in haze of showers and cuddles (amongst other activities)

Saeyoung

-        He knows what you’re up to.

-        But you’re wearing the cute cat pajamas he had bought you.

-        and you had completely designed your bed time routine around tempting him to bed

-        he had never even heard of bedtime yoga before you moved in

-        yet there you where contorted beside the bed showing of how flexible you could be and occasionally smirking into the camera you knew he was watching

-        so it wasn’t long before he found himself making his way to the bedroom

-        “ready for bed secret agent man?” you quipped and couldn’t help a smirk as you saw his face tint a slight pink

-        “are you kitten me?” he shot back and you had to cover your moth to stop the giggles

-        “come on I’ve even got my paw-jamas on” you manage through your giggles

-        “you’re doing this on purr-pose aren’t you?”

-        “guess the cats out of the bag how’d you know?”

-        “just a feline” both of your where lost in a fit of laughter at that point

-        you pulled him to the bed and made note of the dark circles under his eyes as you pulled a heavy weighted blanket over you both before snuggling up next to him

-        he had insisted he didn’t need it. “I don’t have anxiety, MC” he had said.

-        Next day shipping and an extra good night of sleep later he admitted the weight was comforting

-        Your rans your fingers through his hair and mumbled quietly to him about your day.

-        You had found that the quiet talk down helped him relax as he curled into your chest

-        This was the only time you ever saw him this small

-        Wondered if it was a product of his childhood that he disliked sleeping so much

-        Still you held him close and played with his hair absently as you recounted the story of meeting a stray cat on the way home

-        After a while you ran out of stories and moved on to trying new jokes searching for the ones that drew sleepy chuckles from his lips

-        Lulling him to sleep was simple enough. The hard part came after

-        Falling asleep without waking him up was always a struggle

-        He was a notoriously light sleeper

-        One wrong move or strange noise had him jolting upright and alert

-        Once you had startled him awake with nothing more than a yawn

-        Perhaps it was his training that had him on such high alert.

-        You hoped that slowly but surely he would learn to relax a bit more but you understood it could take years if it happened at all

Zen

-        He knows he should sleep

-        He just can’t some times

-        He’ll lie awake for hours if you don’t help him relax

-        On these nights you two have settled into a routine

-        You make him tea and brush his hair

-        “you know you don’t have to do that jagiya”

-        “I enjoy it your hair is always so soft!”

-        “are you jealous?”

-        “I would be if you weren’t my boyfriend. That’s the thing though your MY boyfriend meaning technically your mine and by extension your hair is mine”

-        “is that how it works?”

-        You lean down and kiss the top of his head

-        “yep that’s how it works”

-        “does that mean your mine too”

-        “always and forever”

-        “your so cute jagi!

-        After tea you both go through your nightly routines washing your face and getting ready for bed

-        On good night you share a bath

-        You lean against his chest and lay your head back on his shoulders while you both do a face mask

-        in bed you ask him to sing you a lullaby as you gently trace patterns into his chest

-        You hum along contentedly and smile when he yawns

-        After while his singing drifts off and you can hear his breath get deeper

-        he can sleep through quite a bit but you know that the second you pull away from him he’ll be up in a second looking for the warmth and weight of you

-        so you pull the blankets tighter around the both of you and slip into sleep yourself

Jaehee

-        you got to start early with Jaehee

-        no caffeine after noon or it’s a lost cause

-        after opening the café this got 1000% harder

-        you lure her away from work by offering to watch a Zen DVD with her

-        you pull her against you on the couch and hum along with the music quietly (she hates it if you sing along but humming is fine)

-        slowly she starts to relax against your chest and you know it’s time to move upstairs (wink wink. Wait no. you both need rest save the winks for next time)

-        “Jaehee?” you ask gently “how bout we head to bed? We have to open early tomorrow”

-        She yawns bit but you can see the defiance in her eye’s

-        “I should finish a couple more things before”

-        “no” you say sternly pulling her toward the bedroom

-        “but there’s still paperwork”

-        “and it will still be there in the morning. Look ill work the morning by myself so you can take care of it then but you need sleep”

-        She sighs but fallows you none the less

-        “your right MC.”

-        “it happens sometimes” you laugh winking at her and reveling in her averted eye’s and blushing cheeks

-        (wink wink? No just one wink. You still need rest)

-        Once in bed you snuggle together and just before drifting off you hear her mumble

-        “I’m so glad we’re friend” “I’m so lucky to have you”


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5 years ago

my good mysme route includes

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so I have FEELINGS and rather than deal with them like an adult, I’m going to write about what my perfect MYSME route looks like. Major spoilers so it’ll all be under the cut. I really just want everyone happy and healthy.

this was really really fun to write and I’d love to hear other peoples thoughts on the perfect MYSME route since it’ll be different for everyone depending on what they want their MC doing. 

my MC is a caretaker/mom friend TM (like me) she likes to work but gets bored if she has to do the same thing everyday plus Jumin is my favorite so i chose to have her marry Jumin and use all the free time she has because she doesn't need to work a job to take care of the RFA. 

1: Jaehee and zen becoming best friends Jaehee helps him take care of himself as well as using her connection at C and he encourages her to chase her dreams.

2: Jumin promoting Jaehee to a delegation position where she hires and trains several assistants to do her job rather than get drowned in busy work

3: Seven and Saeran living happily together with a therapy service dog to help with Saerans medicine, panic attacks, and both the boys self care.

4: seven owns a toy store while saeran tends to a garden and play area in the back for kids who do not wish to go home right away (no matter what the reason is)

5: yoosung seeks grief counseling and begins his journey of moving on after rika

6: rika gets arrested and sent to a mental health rehabilitation center where she receives INTENSIVE therapy for and extended period of time

7: v realizes his codependent nature and also receives at least some therapy before he even considers getting into another serious relationship. his councilor advises him to avoid rika and he listens. meanwhile he reunites with the RFA and begins to rebuild the broken trust there.

the end result is that jumin learns to express himself and empathize with jaehee. he marries the love of his life. yoosung learns to motivate and live independently so he is not so swayed by outside influence or so reliant on others to motivate him. he want to improve himself, for himself. saeyoung gets his brother back as well as very tolerant and gentle pet trained to help calm them both down. he is out of the agency and doing what he actually loves, building and creating things that make people happy. zen becomes good friends with jaehee who reminds him how much his acting affects his fans not simply because of his looks but because of his skill as well. she actively cares about his health and happiness motivating and empowering him to follow his dream. jaehee learns to delegate and manage people to get consistent results without being overworked. she hires multiple assistants for jumin and every one has received glowing reviews thanks to her meticulous training. consequently she has far more free time and is planning to open her own cafe after training her own replacement. because she leaves Jumin amicably C&R readily invests in her Cafe and she does very well. V is learning his own self worth as well as becoming okay with the fact that he cannot control everything, and by extension if he is not in control he is neither to be praised or blamed for some things (such as rika’s actions) he is very slowly rebuilding trust with saeyoung, jumin and yoosung as well as the rest of the RFA though he will not be taking the leadership role back. he gets his eye surgery and opens a painting studio. his paintings and photographs are still regularly auctioned off at RFA parties. he learns to be more open and honest so that secrets are a thing of the past.  Saeran tends to a garden and playground behind saeyoungs toy store where many kids play and enjoy a safe environment. he has a therapy service animal that helps him remember his medicine and can help calm him down in the event of a panic attack. the dog also helps him sleep (waking him up if he has a nightmare) and reminds him to take a daily walk since exercise and sunlight are integral to his recovery.  Rika his arrested but thanks to jumin pulling some strings is given the extremely relaxed sentence of 30 years in a maximum security mental health rehabilitation facility. jumin arranges for her to be sent to the best possible facility in the world which happens to be in england far from V, her family, and the RFA. she gets the treatment she needs while the RFA heal from what she’s done. mc often visits each member to deliver snacks, lunches, dinners, or anything else that she’s made in her free time from hand knitted scarves to pottery she is constantly dabbling in knew crafts personalized for each member. she often brings huge amounts of cookies to sevens shop to hand out to kids and leave any left overs for the twins. she becomes the mom of the RFA checking on every member daily and making sure everyone has everything they need to be happy. once things have settled down and the members don’t need her as much she feels a little lost, until she talks Jumin into fostering kittens. her and jumin will have kids eventually but they aren’t in a hurry.

EVERYONE is getting better


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