Mini Ramble - Tumblr Posts

The urge to call ppl love/babe/honey/etc. platonically is STRONG

Like I’m not gonna do it bc I don’t want to be mistaken for having a crush on that person but…..

I want to so bad 😭😭😭

; someone the other day was laughing and joking because " you only have 36 followers !?? " and I didn't really care for once because, why would I ?? 36 people have found me interesting and / or relatable or like my content, thirty six ( thirty six ). Imagine if me and 36 people went out for lunch, to an arcade, the store. It'd be crazy, it'd be wow you're so lucky to have so many people who enjoy your presence, it'd be wow you're so cool.

; social media has really warped our perspective on the genuine amount of people " small creators " have following them.

; obviously there is a huge difference between say a million compared to 10, but 10 people is still a lot of people really. And most the time the larger content creators can be repetitive and not as " genuine ", their content is usually designed to bring in more people. If they're famous enough they may even have teams of people marketing them to get the most followers !! So of course they have a larger following. But this is usually one single person we're talking about, generally young or even not, and they've made content they enjoy that like 10 - 100 people also enjoy and have followed them, actively like their content, etc. You don't even know these people, they don't know you, but they enjoy what you put out into the world and so they've followed you. It could even just be 1 person, one whole human being appreciates you. Is that not enough ?? Sure having millions of people liking you is cool and all, but so is just a few. They enjoy what you enjoy, and that's so cool !!

; so honestly, the insults of " you have like 10 followers " or " I have more followers than you " are so silly if you really think ab them

; ramble / mini rant beloww ↓↓

; so in a discord where they don't know gri is trans && only know xim as myles who uses he / him and is it it weird to say it feels more genuine ?? like when ppl who know xe is trans use he / him for grim, it's not that xe is not grateful && euphoric towards it, but it feels like .. different ?? is probably bc gri overthinks things a lot but .. when ppl in this server call xim myles && use he / him for grim, gri feels moreso. valid and respected .. ? xe has described ximself as " queer " to them but never explicitly said what kind of queer, so yah .. but wdk, gri is having very confusing emotions /neu

; but also gri is very used to hiding ximself, covering up aspects && watering grimself down to be more palatable. xe only js started using xe / grim, talking in 3p && we / us more frequently on here && this is xes personal tumblr for crying out loud !! it's not like this is twitter or tiktok .. but gri isn't sure ab this server, xe loves it && has had many good moments. but with how gri is xe knows it's very unlikely all 190 ppl there will accept every aspect of xim, which xe doesn't expect them too !! it's js sightly sad that xe can't be fully grimself everywhere, gri notices little comments xe is uncomfortable w ( many " YOU'RE A PSYCHOPATH " and " delulu much ?? " comments .. ) which gri knows they likely don't know better but that's not the point yk .. but xe is no surprised, && it's to the extent is bearable. Besides this is probably most fun server gri found so far ..

; honestly gri doesn't know where xe is going w this, js needs to get it out somewhere yk ?? anyways. xe might start using signoffs on grims posts .. !! kinda like anon signoffs you see, gri thinks it makes xim comfortable, which is no.1 priority. also may revamp this blog a little because uhhhmm xe js wants too .. !! not now tho gri is busy next 2 days max probablyyy .. xe appreciates you reading this far, dunno why but tyyyyy for listening. gri hopes you have a really amazing time, and even if you don't xe is so super proud of you okk ?? don't be afraid of being yourself, no reason to be in fear of living. is a gift from the world that you're here and myles loves you in all you are sm <3

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Yall I have been sick for around two weeks almost now-

I keep going back to school for one day and then I’m out the next (throwing up almost constantly)

…….ISTG IT’S THE FUCKIN SCHOOL AIR COMBINED WITH FLU SEASON

Like omgggggggg, I was walking down the staircase with my friend and I smell this really good floral fresh perfume (like so nice) and in that same breath, I just turn my nose slightly and get hit with fart and STANKY body odor 🤢

I mean you add all that into this time of year where eeeeeveryyones getting sick, and kids are rubbing up on eachother trynna get to class or get out and goddamn-..I ain’t never recovering-🙂‍↕️😟